Reality: A Shawn Mendes Fan-Fic

"Hey it's Shawn, I can't answer the phone right now so just leave a message and I'll get back to you as soon as possible."

Shawn had been ignoring me all weekend and hopefully tomorrow I could finally ask him what exactly he meant by "that's the problem". I'd been thinking about it and I couldn't find a possible explanation.
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When I arrived outside, Shawn wasn't waiting for me. It was no surprise but I was really upset since Shawn and I had never fallen out this badly before, thinking about it; we've never fallen out. Luckily, I had science first, in which I was sitting next to him.

"Shawn, we're going to have to talk at some point." I nudged him in the arm. He continued to completely blank me out, "Shawn." I pleaded. "Leave me alone" he spoke, "go back to Joe, I don't care anymore." I stared at him, unable to believe what he had said. "You don't care about me?" I questioned. "Of course I do I lo- just leave me alone." He said bitterly. "Okay." I wiped away a tear that managed to escape from my eye, "goodbye Shawn." The bell rang and I strolled off to my next class.

"Oh.. awkward." Joe rolled his eyes as I gently placed myself in the seat I was assigned by Mr. Dallas. "Yeah, well the teacher told me to sit me here so-" I stuttered.
"I'm sorry about what I did, Jess." He smiled, "I didn't know what else to do."
"Yeah well my mum didn't deserve it" I spat, "and plus you've seemed to move on pretty fast." I opened my textbook and began taking the notes that were listed on the whiteboard. "What? Hannah?" He laughed, "the boys were joking about it. Why are you jealous?" "so what if I was?" I asked.
"Well I could always take you back, if promise that you won't run off with another boy like some kind of slut." He looked me up and down in disgust.
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The final bell rang and I headed outside into the doorway, but was quickly stopped when Joe grabbed my wrist. "What- what are you doing?" I spun around. Without an explanation, he planted his lips onto mine and I couldn't pull him off. "I take you back" Joe finally answered after nearly suffocating me. "You take me back? You mean I take you back?" I corrected him, displeased that he thought I was the one in the wrong in the first place. "Yeah, whatever." he groaned, "come back to my house, I'll drive." He demanded rather than offered. He then grabbed my hand again and led me to his car.
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"Joe what the fuck are you doing?" I shouted, he had started touching my butt. He pushed me down to his bed, "c'mon Jess." He hissed and ripped off my t-shirt. He began trailing kisses down my stomach and was about to remove my jeans when I screamed "NO! I DONT WANT THIS!"

I got up and slipped my top back on, "don't you dare say no to me." He seethed through his teeth and pulled my hair. "Joe, I love you. We'll talk about it tomorrow okay?" I released myself from his grip and left the house. I decided to walk home; I could think about the situation.

When I arrived at my house, my mum was waiting in the doorway. "Oh, there she is" I heard my mums voice. I walked into the front room and there was standing Shawn. "Jess can we talk?" He stared at me, looking quite upset. "Yeah sure, upstairs?" I suggested and he nodded in agreement. He trotted behind me as I walked upstairs and into my room.

"Jess, I'm sorry for being mean about the Joe thing, I get it. You're just trying to get over him." He gave me a comforting smile but I felt so guilty. "Shawn-" I began.
"No Jess it's okay, I understand. I'm really sorry for being a douche." He apologised.
"No, Shawn. We're back together." I announced, ashamed.
"Oh." He looked down at the floor, "I was beginning to think that- whatever, forget it. I can't believe I thought it would happen." He sounded really frustrated.
"What?" I asked.
"Just don't worry, you better stay away from me now you're with him. See you around Jess."

A/N: this story is nearly at 100 views,
oh my muffins. Thank you for reading and I hope you are enjoying this story. I know that domestic abuse and self-harm are both sensitive topics so I'd like to approach them as carefully as possible, if you are going through any of these problems (or both) please seek help. There has been a double update today because I felt like I had to make it up to you since I didn't write for a while.
Once again, ily guys x

Help for someone dealing with depression: http://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/self-harm/#.VLrXIYqQHCR

Help for someone dealing with domestic abuse: http://www.nhs.uk/Livewell/abuse/Pages/domestic-violence-help.aspx