"Gago ka, naghintay ang tao sa'yo sa labas hanggang mag sikat ang araw. Nakakaawa ang tao, Louise. Kung kami nga umuwi nalang, siya nagpilit pa na hintayin ka sa labas, punyeta."
I didn't say anything as Ysabelle curse me through the phone. I finally picked up after them spamming the gc with calls. I only picked up when I saw Liana leave the video call because she had to go to school to pick up a few things.
Probably gonna meet up with Santiago.
I looked down. I thought I would be over this after one night of endless crying on my pillow. Pero, hindi gano'n 'e. It was not like that. This feeling was unfamiliar. Pakiramdam ko, sumakit ang katawan ko kakaiyak kagabi. I still feel drained after getting 12 hours of sleep. I... felt incomplete.
"Huy, nakikinig ka pa ba?" Maria asked.
"I'll call you both later." I told them and immediately shut my phone.
I just wanted to sleep today.
I didn't know why sleep was consuming my body, taking over me.
It was a Saturday. When I lay down my bed and hugged my pillow, I took one last look at the calendar hanging on my wall. August 2. Happy birthday, self.
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A loud knock came from my door, it woke me up. Five days have passed since my birthday. Lord knows how many times Santi came to my school and tried to talk to me, asking me why? He kept saying sorry kahit hindi daw niya alam kung ano ginawa niya. He kept trying to explain and talk but I kept shutting him out.
That happened from Monday until Thursday.
When Friday came, I thought he wasn't gonna show up because I didn't see his car parked in the entrance. I didn't see him leaning on it, eyebrows furrowed, trying to figure out what to say.
But I was wrong.
When class ended, the sun was setting. The sky looked immaculate as the color orange filled the sky. Napatigil lang ako doon when my vision focused on the one infront of me.
My gaze softened as he looked at me with pleading eyes. Medyo magulo buhok niya, pero halatang nagayos ng susuotin. His baby face made everything harder, he looked tired. Tired but determined. How could I resist?
My eyes went to his chest as he held a bouquet of flowers. A specific type of flowers called baby's breath. I looked down. Maybe, nothing was going on between him and Liana.
Maybe those were my insecurities that were talking.
"Louise." mahinang sabi niya. I looked to the side as my eyes watered. Why am I like this? Kaunting tukso, iyak. Kaunting bagay, iyak.
"Louise," he said once more.
My eyes focused on the glimmer and reflection the sunset gave my eyes. I tightly held my bag as I forced myself not to look at him. One look is enough for me to fall deeper and deeper. As if I hadn't fell enough.
The thing about love is you never know if the person on the other side is ready to catch you. Or if they want to. And once you fall, you can't stop. Wala kang magagawa. Your mind just blanks and sometimes, hindi mo rin alam na nafall ka na.
