Diary (Vkook, Old Version)

Dear Diary,
Today I didn't go to school. No, I'm not sick. I just really didn't want to go. Luckily, my mom let me stay home when I told her I still wasn't feeling better. It was not a lie, though. I'm just not feeling well due to something else than she thinks, that's not lying. Right?
Ah, about the thing yesterday...Yes, I did it. And to be honest, I don't regret it as much as I thought I would. But what shocked me most was, that I actually felt good when that knife was sliding along my fragile arm and the blood started flowing. It relieved me, let everything out. But I won't be able to get rid of those scars, which sucks. The last thing I need is people finding out that I've hurt myself because of a silly thing such as love. Ah yes, it is all so silly, to love my best friend, and hurt myself. I always used to think it was stupid when people hurt themselves, but I finally came to understand. I now understand what it feels like, to hurt yourself, to have the physical pain be worse than the emotional pain. And how relieving it feels. Ain't gonna blame all those emo kids, no.
On a completely different note, I heard Hoseok is going to live in Japan for a year, from today on. Sadly, I only got to say goodbye per text message, but we can always skype or something like that. We're not that close, so I don't feel that bad about it. But I don't know how I'd feel if it was Jimin, or even Taehyung, who's going away. I'd freak out for sure... Well, gladly those two are staying exactly here. Ah but that's bad; this way, I have to see Taehyung together with...Hana. Urgh. Ahh. Why'd I even take a day off from school if I'm gonna think about all of this?! Ugh.
Good night diary,
Jungkook

Hoseok cleared his throat. "And yet, I've come back, even though a year hasn't fully passed. I regret that I didn't get to say Goodbye to him back then... I wish we could've gotten a lot closer than this." He said, making everyone look at him. Taehyung flashed a sad smile, "Me, too. I wish I could have told Jungkook my feelings. The way I love him. The way I only dated Hana to get rid of my feelings for him. I-" He was cut off by himself, starting to cry and call out Jungkook's name. "I still can't believe this has happened..." Jimin said, clenching his fists. Jungkook's mother was crying, holding her husband's hand, who was also on the verge of crying. "Honey, it will all be fine. Everything will turn out happy for us and we will get to see the cute, and happy Jungkook again." He tried to convince his wife, who nodded, wiping away her tears. "Y-You're right. Let's not give up our hope to see him happy again." She said, trying to smile. Jimin nodded and read on...