i think i like you // emily prentiss x reader

a/n pov: hey party people, let's get this show on the roaddddddddd!!

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emily pov: just looking at her, i knew that there was nothing i could do any longer to deny these feelings i had for this girl. "hey, can we talk?" i asked nervously and she nodded her head, "yeah of course, what's up em?" she replied and i just stood there frozen for a second before gathering my thoughts and sitting down on the bed and patting the spot next to me.

she sat down on the left of me and immediately puled her left leg into a half criss cross position while her right leg dangled off the side of the bed. i smiled at her and she rolled her eyes in response with a smile on her face. she looked at me with expectant eyes and i just stared back getting lost in her gaze. "emily," she said, "are you good?" i shook my head to get out of my trance, "yeah, no i'm okay. i just really need to tell you something but i don't know how to say it." i said back and she nodded slightly in response.

"okay, so..." i started, "i don't really know how to put this into words, and i also don't know why i'm even telling you this right now... but i think i really like you, beyond just a friendship level and i don't wanna freak you out but i just-" i rushed out everything and was cut off by her pressing her lips onto mine. she pulled back and smiled at me and all i could do was smile back.

y/n pov: i was nervous when emily said she wanted to talk and i assumed it was about the case and i was worried that i messed something up, even though she had already told me that i had done well tonight. my anxiety got the best of me and i wanted nothing more than to tell her no we couldn't talk, but i was also a little intrigued as to what she had to say. 

i sat down on the bed and looked her in the eyes waiting for her to tell me what she wanted to say and she paused before going blank in the face. after she had finally spoke, it took me a second to process what she was saying, and before i knew what i was doing, i pressed my lips against hers. after i pulled back she was smiling, "i think i like you too," i said trying to contain a smile, trying to keep a calm exterior while my stomach was turning into knots.

i did like emily. i really did, but the idea of someone caring about me let alone showing any romantic interest in me scared the living shit out of me. i have never had anyone show interest in me ever; and if someone ever did have feelings for me, they sure as hell never expressed it. this was a sudden change of pace for me, and a lot to take in at once, but i wanted to make it work more than anything in the entire world. unfortunately for me, i was absolutely terrified of letting her in, and i think she knew that. 

emily pov: she told me she liked me back. i was shocked that she actually reciprocated the feelings, but i was also fully aware of how closed off she was emotionally. she didn't have to say it, but there were obvious signs she had trauma and because of this, i knew i might get hurt in the end. i wanted more than anything for this to work out, and the previous thoughts i had of helping her work through her past were still present in my mind. i was determined to get to know y/n, inside and out, and i was willing to do whatever it took to break down every last wall she had built up over the years. 

after she had expressed her feeling, it was obvious there was still a lot on her mind, "a penny for your thoughts?" i asked and she looked me in the eye before smiling. "this is kinda off topic..." she trailed off. "that's okay, whats on your mind?" i asked and she hesitated before continuing. "do you think that in the future, i could ever be successful in this line of work? like do you think i would be a good fit on the team?" she asked and i was taken a bit by surprise that she asked this- she wasn't kidding when she said off topic.

"i do." i said back and paused before explaining, "take today for example. you just had a knife pulled on you and you didn't even flinch. you may have been freaking out but you didn't show fear, and that's not something a lot of people can do. you're smart, definitely giving reid a run for his money." i said winking and she just kept looking at me with admiration in her eyes. i gave a half smile before continuing once more, "it's obvious you have a big heart and will put anything on the line to protect those you care about. you're strong, and independent which is another trait that's unspoken but obviously seen. there's no doubt in my mind that once you get done with academy training, we will be seeing you on the team, permanently." 

y/n pov: i knew i had completely changed the subject but it made me really happy to hear that emily thought i was capable of being on this team full time in the future. it made everything i've dealt with and been put through the past decade of my life worth it. it also made we want to tell her about my past and start breaking down the cinder block walls that i've put up.

i looked at her in complete adoration and couldn't contain the lovesick smile on my face. i engulfed her into a hug, "thank you, emily. genuinely you have no idea how much that means to me." i said as she hugged me back. "of course, sweetheart." she said in response while lightly scratching my back as she held me in her embrace. i pulled back after a few moments before taking a deep breath and speaking again, "em, i really want you to know that i care about you, a lot. i'm just not great at expressing my emotions and i'm not good at letting people in... but i want to change that..."

she smiled at me, "i know you're more of a closed off person, but i'm willing to break down every last wall you have up, no matter how long it may take." hearing her say this warmed my heart and all i could do was look at her, a smile tugging at my lips.

emily pov: i couldn't stop my heart from melting when she looked at me like that. y/n was one of the purest souls i had ever met in my life, and it made me sad knowing she had any sort of trauma in her short life time. even though she only hinted at the fact that she had inner demons, it was evident in her eyes that she was tired of battling alone, and i was more than wiling to hold her hand every step of the way. 

"i'm gonna get changed really quick," i said to her and she nodded in response. i patted her leg before standing up and grabbing some more comfortable clothes from my bag and going to the bathroom to quickly change. after i had put on my shorts and t-shirt, i washed off my makeup and brushed my teeth before opening the door and making my way back into the room. 

i put my clothes from the day back into my go-bag before making my way over to y/n and crawling into bed next to her. she looked at me for a second before opening her mouth to speak, "i don't really know how to start this conversation but i know that in order for you to understand why i have so many walls up, i'm gonna have to start breaking them down..." she paused for a second, "so where should i start?" 

y/n pov: while emily was in the bathroom i really started to realize that in order fro her to understand why i'm the way i am, i was going to have to tell her about my past and open up about the things i've gone through and experienced. the idea of telling someone my deepest secrets was extremely scary but i knew i couldn't keep it to myself forever; emily made me feel comfortable and safe so i knew that there was no better person to tell, even if my anxiety was telling me otherwise. 

when she came out of the bathroom, i knew it was now or never. once she was sitting next to me in bed, i looked at her and immediately relaxed when my eyes met hers. i explained myself to her and the anxiety came back, presenting itself in my stomach and making it feel hard to breathe. "take your time, you can tell me as much or as little you want to right now," she said and once again the angst began to settle. i gave her a tight smile before looking down at my hands and began playing with my rings. "okay," i started, "let's start from the beginning i guess..."

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a/n: hey heyyyyy ! ok i feel like this chapter sucked lowkey but we are just gonna move past that.. i had to set the mood and moment so pls don't stop reading bc i'm gonna give y/n a past in the next chapter. also sorry i leave ypu guys on so many cliffhangers,, it's like i think its a personality trait at this point-