Instrumental Love |??

Blake's POV

You know that feeling when you do something and instantly regret it?

That's how I feel right now.

Yeah, I'm talking about what I did to Jessica about a week ago. I've been ignoring her for a week now.

I feel fucking horrible about it, but I really don't want to hurt her. Maybe it is best if I just leave her alone...

Shit! It is so difficult to not talk to her or not go to her. I don't want to admit it, but I think I am falling for her. Even though I hurt her.

I know we just spent like one night together, but I actually started liking her in Freshman Year of Highschool.

No one knows about this, not even Jake. I play around with a lot of girls, but I never like them.

I didn't even do the things to Jessica what I do to other girls. I didn't even get anything out of it, but just being with her made me feel something that fucking scares me.

I've been staying in my room the whole time. I didn't even go to school this week, because I couldn't face her.

I couldn't even talk to her after what I did. I know it sounds wrong and it looks like I don't have any guts, but I feel different about Jessica.

I can't get her out of my head. I keep thinking about sleeping next to her and waking up next to her beautiful face.

I want to keep her wrapped in my arms and hold her tight so no one can ever hurt her or take her away from me.

But she is too good for me. I can never make it work. I am a player and she is a girl that deserves way better than me.

I can't make her happy, and I can't give her everything that she wants and
needs.

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Jessica's POV

Blake hasn't been at school for the past week. I feel so betrayed. He probably enjoyed it getting a glimpse of my life. And now he is going to tell everyone.

He just played me like he plays the rest of the girls at school. I really enjoyed the time we spent together, but I was just another one of his conquests.

I fell for him and his charms. I was an easy target.

The rest of the week at school everybody gave me weird looks and I couldn't understand why, until Jake, one of Blake's friends came to me.

"So you scared Blake away" Jake tells me. He stand in front of me with his hands in his jean pockets.

He actually looks good with his black skinny jeans and his black T-shirt.

"What do you mean?" I ask him. I didn't scare him away, he chose to ignore me.

"Blake is hiding Jessica! He never does that. I haven't seen him since the day he spent with you."

What? Where is he? Not even his friends have seen him. Is he okay? Is he hurt? I can't help but worry about him.

I know what he did was wrong, but it was partly my fault too, so I can't blame him for everything.

"Well Jake it's not my fault that he is missing, so don't shout at me!"

"I need your help Jessica. We need to find him."

School isn't over yet and I can't just leave. But I really want to find Blake. Even if he doesn't want to see me, I want to know that he is okay and not
hurt.