I Didn't Want This Either | Gavin Reed x Reader

Tuesday, November 12th, 8:16 am

The Recall Center

The pain. The pain is... unimaginable. It is new and it is frightening but it is also beautiful in a way because it symbolizes so many good things. The pains mean you and Gavin are safe. The pain means this is finally all over. The pain means that the virus is gone. 

Kamski thought he had won. He thought that erasure meant he was victorious. He thought that even if he was being destroyed as well, at least he brought someone who was loved by so many down with him. He thought he had at least done something to claim some sort of victory... But Elijah had failed. 

Thirium bleeds onto the smooth glass floor, mixing with red and creating a deep purple. Ice blue eyes fall shut, and a blue LED begins to dim. One thing crosses the androids mind before their life slips away. 

Mission accomplished. 

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The silence that follows the gunshot is too loud. Your ears are ringing, your head is pounding, and a wail shreds itself out of your throat as you stumble forwards to Nines side. You ignore your pain, all of it, and with your one working arm you place a hand on his face, on his blood-stained cheeks. The hole in his head is prominent, sparking, spitting out Thirium and your heart is stomped into a finite powder. 

"Nines!!!" You cry, and your body gives in as you collapse, sobbing, onto his blood-stained chest. You aren't trying to stay strong anymore. You cannot stay strong anymore. You are screaming with all of the strength you have left, burning your throat and your elbow and your hands and not caring one bit. Then, there is a hand on your shoulder, gently, oh-so gently guiding you into an embrace. It's warm and it's safe and you know that everything is finally over. Gavin kisses the top of your head, and cries quietly into your shoulder as you sob into his. You hold him with one arm as if he is a lifeline, as if he'll disappear if you let him go, as if he'll die just like Nines did. You're so tired. So damaged. So lost. An then, through it all, through all the pain and he despair and the relief and the safety and the grief, in a tiny, scared, wavering voice,

"D... Detectives...?" 

"..."

"N-Nines?" Gavin's words are all it takes for Nines to shoot himself forwards, wrapping his arms around the both of you. He's in his Cyberlife jacket, he has both his eyes, he is stained in Thirium- he is in Conan's body. Conan is the one who is dead on the ground. Conan is the one who deactivated. Your crying continues and now you're trying to hug both of them, and they're crying too. Nines is okay, Gavin is okay, you are okay. You all made it, and suddenly you hear sirens in the distance and you start crying impossibly harder. "I-I-I though I was going to lose you both, I thought you were both going to die and I was going to be stuck here in this shitty world all by myself, I thought I was going to have to live without you, I thought-"

"Shhh, shh shhh," you manage the comfort through your sobs, and your forehead presses gently against Gavin's. His eyes screw shut, and the three of you hold each other tighter, crying together, alone in the snow as the distant sirens grow closer and closer and closer. You don't know how he is alive and right now you don't care and you're smiling a smile that hurts your face so badly but in such a wonderful way. 

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Those red and blue lights had always gotten on his nerves. Coincidentally, they flickered in the same pattern as Conan's LED, the signal that set all of this grand finale into motion. The lights didn't seem so bad anymore as Gavin held you and Nines to his chest, crying his heart out, showing his love and care for the both of you in it's rawest form. He doesn't know what feelings should ruling right now and he doesn't care to know. All he cares about is that you're safe. The doors of the cars are thrown open, and moments later Gavin and you and Nines are pulled into another embrace.