PRESENT TIME
Semi's POV
I admit, I was kind of surprised seeing Y/N talking to H/N. I mean, I know they talk with each other but mainly about club activities and just about the team, but seeing them right now, it's like they're talking as friends.
Well, it's not that it isn't a good thing, but I must say, somehow it makes me feel uneasy. What is this that I'm feeling? Could it be?...
Then Y/N started laughing. It's been so long since I last saw her like that. I was really getting curious, that I wanted to ask what they're talking about.
I was about to approach them, but then Coach Saitou blew his whistle as we were to start our practice.
Practice ended 30 minutes after 7 in the evening. Then Y/N approached me and handed a bottled water.
"Otsukare. You're sweating too much than before, Eita." I was stunned hearing her call me in my first name. It has really been a while.
"Do you have a fever Y/N?"I teased while rubbing her forehead. "What's gotten into you? Calling me in my first name? Why did you drop the honorifics this time?"
Y/N pushed my hand aside and started laughing. Again. "Don't tell me, too much water secretion?" she jokingly said. Then I laughed as well.
"Are you free after this? Let's grab dinner outside before heading to the dorm." I asked.
"If it's your treat, who am I to refuse?" she replied.
"Cool. I'll wait for you at the back gate in 15 minutes."
Y/N's POV
Semi and I decided to grab dinner after club practice. Since we were both starving, we went to get some okonomiyaki just a few blocks from the academy.
We were cooking our okonomiyaki when I realized that we were both silent since we've arrived.
"So, mind telling me why aren't you our starting setter this year?" I asked, breaking the silence.
Upon asking, the awkward atmosphere around us made it more awkward. Why did I have to throw that question anyway? How stupid of me. Baka Y/N. I thought to myself.
Semi let a deep sigh, then finally said, "Shirabu took over. It was right after you left. I know my skills, of the things that I'm capable of. But since the current team, doesn't need that kind of setter. That's why, that's how I was replaced by Shirabu."
I can feel his pain. I can feel his disappointment.
Why didn't I notice? How come I didn't know this?
"Why didn't you tell me?" I asked.
"Before you left, I've already had the feeling. But since Shirabu wasn't a regular in his first year, I really didn't pay attention. Then my fear, came true."
"You were so excited when you arrived abroad. I didn't want to spoil the fun and excitement you were feeling. I didn't want to be a burden for you as well." Semi continued.
"Then we kind of lost contact for a while. I admit, I was really at fault of not reaching out, of not responding." Semi said while whisking his knife on the okonomiyaki.
"Gomen ne, Eita. I really had no idea you were going through this stage. As much as I wished you could've told me still, but you chose not to. Didn't you trust me?" I was kind of confused. I didn't know how to react with his confessions.
"I told you, I didn't want to be a burden." Semi lowered his head.
"I don't know how to respond, Eita. It's just disappointing. I feel sorry for you, but I feel much disappointed at myself." I replied.
"You don't need to. It's all in the past. What we could do right now is focus at the present and future. Come on, we've come this far." Semi put a bright smile.
I desperately wanted to change the topic, then randomly I blurted out "How about H/N then? Do you like her?"
"To be honest, I don't know. Maybe I do like her. Or maybe I just see her as manager."
"Or maybe I see her as you, as I was longing for you."
I stopped, dropping my chopsticks.
I looked at Eita who was already looking at me.
"What? I thought you like her?" I asked as I stuttered.
"Yeah? Hmmm. I don't know." Then Semi turned back to his plate and ate again.
WHAT THE F*CK WAS THAT ALL ABOUT? SH*T I'M LOSING IT AGAIN.
"Gochisousamadeshita. Thank you for the food." We both thanked the restaurant as we left.
There's the dead awkward silence again. As we were about to reach my dormitory, I decided to break this silence once more.
"So-" we both said at the same time.
"Go on, you first." I insisted.
We both stopped walking.
Semi turned his body towards me. Then suddenly leaning his forehead against mine.
"I guess you forgot about it, huh? Maybe some other time. Well, this is your stop. We've got a big day tomorrow, so make sure to rest well tonight, okay?"
"Wait. What is it that you were about to say?" I held his hand begging.
"It could wait, Hime." (Hime is/as "Princess") Semi said then left a peck on my forehead.
I just stood there, dumbfounded.
"I'll go ahead. Oyasumi, Y/N." Semi turned his back while waving back.
AGAIN. WHAT. THE. HELL. WAS. THAT. ALL. ABOUT.???
I reached my dorm still dazed of what had happened. I kept on replaying it on my mind. I must have really lost my mind this time.
How am I supposed to handle this one?
I lied down on my bed, face down. This is driving me crazy!!!!! Saiyaku.
*One Message Received*
From: Semi
Stop spacing out. Rest well. Oyasumi.
-Oniichan
WHAT. THE. ACTUAL. F*CK. DOES. THIS. MEAN.???!!!
Overthinking about this, I fell asleep right after.
***(A/N notes: I WOULD LIKE TO APOLOGIZE FOR THE HIATUS. I'VE BEEN REALLY BUSY FOR THE PAST MONTHS THAT I DIDN'T HAD THE CHANCE TO UPDATE UNLIKE BEFORE. FROM NOW ON, I WILL DO MY BEST TO UPDATE EVERY WEEK. SO TO ALL MY READERS, THANK YOU FOR YOUR UNENDING SUPPORT. COMMENTS ARE APPRECIATED!***
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