!!T/W SELF HARM!!
I wake up pretty late in the day and check my the time on my phone. 3:47 pm... I stretch out my body to wake up and check my phone. Nothing other than a few fan comments... I sit up in my bed and catch a glimpse of the small, shiny, and sharp object sitting on my night stand. A few more couldn't hurt. I toss my phone on top of my pillow and grab the blade from off the night stand. I roll up my long sleeve, revealing a collection of old and somewhat fresh scars that run up and down my forearm. I trace over some old scars with the blade, causing blood to gush out of the fresh cuts, adding one after another. As I'm adding more cuts to my collection, the Discord ringtone starts emitting from my phone, startling me, causing me to jump and make the cut I had already been working on deeper. I quickly throw the blade at the night stand, where it had recently sat, and quickly roll down my sleeves before answering the call. Wait, Quackity?
"Good morning, Quackmister," I say in a sleepy and monotone, yet still smooth voice.
"Uhh, U/N, it's like 4:00 pm where you are..." he trails off.
"Yeah, what of it?" I ask as I crack my neck, "I like my sleep," I yawn, getting up from my bed and heading out to the kitchen.
"U/N... please get a better sleep schedule..." Quackity says in a soft voice. Of course Quackity wants me to get a better sleep schedule.. he's my best friend. He's been here for me longer than Poki has and he understands my boundaries.
"... Fineee, big Q. Just for you," I say, grabbing a box of cereal.
"Thank you. Now that we have that covered, I would like to ask you something," he says, sounding a bit nervous. Why does he sound nervous? He knows he can tell me anything... right?
"Alex, deep breaths. No need to be nervous. I'm here and I always will be. No matter what," I assure him.
"Thank you, Y/N," he lets out a breath, "Do you maybe want to join the Dream SMP? With Dream's permission, of course," he asks as I'm pouring cereal into my bowl. I pause after I'm done and freeze for a second from shock. People want me to be a part of something that big? Why? I start pouring the milk into the bowl before answering.
"Of course I'll join, Quackity! It would be an honor!" I say as I sit down at the kitchen table. I turn on my camera and set my phone up so Quackity can see me.
"Hell yeah!" he cheers, "What ya eating?" He asks.
"Just some lucky charms cereal," I say through a mouthful of the cereal before swallowing.
"Well at least you're eating. When you're finished, let's get you into the server!" he smiles.
"I won't have to talk to many people, right...?" I ask, not wanting to have to face many people today.
"Well Dream wants to meet you and Tommy and Tubbo might be there. Is that okay?"
"Yeah, that's fine. But I've met Dream before," I say, taking another bite of cereal.
"Yeah, over Among Us. Which probably means you got away with killing him and lying to him," he laughs.
"You right," I chuckle. I quickly finish up my cereal while talking to Alex and run back to my room, booting up my PC and turning on Minecraft. I put in the infirmation for the server and join.
"Oh my god, you're actually here!" he says, his Minecraft character walking up to me, "Okay, let's join the vc in the server I'm about to send you. Dream and Karl are already there, I hope you don't mind, Karl wanted to join us," Quackity says before leaving to go to the other server and the invite pops up on my screen. I join the server and quickly join the vc, following Quackity in the game.
"Hi U/N!" Dream greets me, running up to Quackity and I.
"Ooh! A new member! Hi, U/N!" the guy named Karl says.
"Hi, Karl!" I say and everyone falls silent.
"Okay, your voice is- It is so good," Karl says, making me laugh, "Like, you remind me of Sykkuno," he says.
"Oh, we love Sykkuno! What's your opinion on Corpse's voice?" I ask the male, giggling.
"Dude, it's so deep! It's like the opposite of yours and Sykkuno's!" he says with a small chuckle at the end, "We do have Corpse on here if you'd like to meet him," Karl offers, making Quackity, Dream, and I laugh, "Dude, what's so funny?" he asks, making us laugh more.
"K-Karl- I've already- I've already met him!" I manage to wheeze out and Karl starts laughing with us.
"Ohh, okay, I guess that is pretty funny," Karl laughs. I look down at the in game chat, seeing that someone joined the game, so I check to see who it is. Corpse Cat has joined the game.
"Speak of the devil," I chuckle before typing in the chat.
U/N: CORPSE! JOIN VC 3!!!!
Corpse Cat: Oh hey, U/N! Okay, I'll be there in a bit.
After a little while of waiting and talking with the others, Corpse joins.
"Corpse, hiii!" Karl is the first to greet him.
"Waddup baby?" Corpse says, sending chills down my spine.
"Wait, wait, wait, we have the God voices here with us today," Quackity says energetically, "Hey, mamacita, I want to hear you mo-"
"BIG Q, STOP!" I cut him off, trying my best to hold in my laughter while he erupts with euphoria. I hear the others snickering amongst themselves, "Big Q, you're lucky I'm not there to beat the shit out of you," I say, laughing along with everyone else.
"I'd like to see you try!" he playfully yells at me, still laughing.
"Ohh, beat him up, U/N!" Corpse cheers me on.
"Big Q, you, me, Manburg, 1v1. GO! Karl, set some ground rules for us," I say as I start sprinting towards Manburg.
"Oh! Okay, okay... no armor, no weapons, no shields, and no potions," Karl demands. As I arrive at Manburg, I see Tubbo running around, doing God knows what. I see his character come to a stop when he sees me and hear two people join the vc.
"Remind me why we came here?" I hear a british male voice say, confused.
"Tommy, we're here to meet the newest member of the SMP," I hear Tubbo tell him.
"Hello, U/N! It's nice to meet you!" I hear Tubbo call to me.
"Hello... Tubbo? Is it?" I ask, wanting to be sure.
"That would be me!" the male says, "So what are you guys up to?" he asks.
"Oh, U/N and I were about to have a 1v1!" Quackity exclaims, coming up to us.
"Oh! You guys can test out the fighting rink for tomorrows festival!" Tubbo says happily.
"Wait, I want to see this!" Tommy yells.
"Tommy, you're not allowed in Manburg," Dream states as he starts leading us over to the rink, with Corpse and Karl finally finding and joining us. Tommy just lets out an annoyed groan.
"You really wanna do this, big Q? I am like the best minecraft PVPer, besides Technoblade," I say, smirking on my end of the vc.
"DON'T YOU BRING UP MINECRAFT MONDAY!" Quackity demands, making everyone laugh.
"It's okay, U/N. You've got this," Corpse says, making me smile.
"Oh, I wasn't worried about that, Corpse. I just don't want my best friend to be terrified every time he sees me," I chuckle.
"I could never be scared of you," he says as we make it to the rink. We set our spawn points and put our stuff in chests so it doesn't get lost. Next, Karl does a count down from three.
"Three.... two.... One! Fight!" Karl says, making me run toward Quackity, landing a few crits on him, before hearing a knock at my door. Who could that be?
"Y/N? Are you in there? I'm coming in!" I hear Poki call from outside my front door. Shit, not now Poki!
"FUCK! I yell, putting up a fight against Quackity, "POKI, I'M IN THE MID-!" I start, distracting myself from the fight, next thing I know, the "You died" screen comes up on my monitor screen and I let out an annoyed groan, "I'll be right back guys," I say before muting myself and getting up out if my gaming chair, "What do you want, Poki?" I say, annoyed.
"It's that day," she states. That day? ...FUCK! She comes every two weeks to check my arms! It totally slipped my mind! What do I do?
"Really, Poki? You can't just trust me?" is the first thing that comes out of my mouth, before her and I head back to my room. I plop down in my gaming chair, put my head phones on, and unmute myself, "I'm back," I groan.
"I'm really surprised Quackity won that, U/N- are you okay?" Karl asks. Mentally? No. Physically? I mean, probably not. My arm is probably covered in dry blood by now...
"I would have won! But POKIMANE came knocking on my front door!" I pout.
"Wait, Pokimane as in THE Pokimane?!" Karl questions.
"Jeez, get outta here Karl," I roll my eyes.
"Don't mind us guys, it's just Y/N's biweekly check up," Poki says, grabbing at my arm, I slap her hand away.
"Don't touch me. I never even agreed to this," I mumble the last but under my breath.
"Hey, I wanna talk to her," Quackity says.
"Me too," Corpse chimes in.
"Poki, put in some headphones and go to Karl's stream so you can hear them too," I say and she does exactly that, "Okay, she can hear you guys now," I say, sitting back in my chair.
"I'll go first," Corpse says, "Poki, I'm sure whatever it is you're doing isn't necessary. Just leave her alone, you've obviously made her uncomfortable," Corpse says, sounding stern.
"Corpse, I was jus-"
"No, no, now it's my turn," Alex chimes in, "Back off her! That's MY best friend! If she WANTED to tell anybody anything, she would go to her therapist or me first!" Quackity shouts, sounding defensive.
"Guys! I'm just trying to make sure she's okay!" she defends her actions.
"WELL I'M NOT!" I yell at her, pulling up my sleve to show her the scars, "Just go! It was NONE of your business in the first place!" I demand and the girls hesitantly leaves the house, "Guys, I'm nit okay right now. I think I'm gonna get off of here," I say, leaving the vc and game before they get the chance to say anything. Stupid Poki...