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It has been a week since the mini incident of kiyoko happened.
She was discharged and she feels free again. Everything seems to be going well.
Except for the fact that Yuri and Hiroko seem to be on alert 24/7.
Oh well, it's a nice bonus that they're getting along now. She thought.
Kiyoko also regained certain memories from her 'previous life'.
And that is currently her biggest problem.
Kiyoko sprawled across the bed, using the stomach of Alpaca as her pillow.
Sigh.
I'm screwed. She groaned.
Kiyoko's POV
I SCREWED UP!!!
I mean— it's not like I'm not happy that Shinichiro is half alive— but the thing is, I became too dumb to plan what kind of step to do next!
" Kiyoko, are you alright? I keep hearing you sigh all the way to the living room. Are you hurt? " Hiroko fussed. He was at the other side of my door.
I grumbled again, sitting up and walking to open the door for him.
He was holding a tray with all sorts of food. Sweets to be specific. He's really a nice person.
But I still don't trust him.
" Just thinking of visiting Sui again. Can I? " I noticed that he wasn't entering my room even though I opened them a but wide so I motioned for him to enter my room, setting down the tray at my small table.
He looked worried. I could tell the way his eyebrows twitched and lips turned into a straight line. " I will have to accompany you, " he said.
I hummed, not really keen on the idea of someone accompanying me to visit Sui and shinichiro.
Silence surrounded my room.
It feels awkward.
I've always been alone as far as I remember. With only Shinichiro and Sui as my older brother figure and Yuri as my cute little sister.
Having a real older brother never really crossed my mind.
Not to mention.
WHY DOES HE LOOK SO COOL?! HUH?! ARE YOU SAYING THIS GUY IS REALLY MY BROTHER??!! I look like a fucking sack of potato beside him! Look at those eyelashes! That fluffy hair!
IS HE REALLY MY BROTHER?!
(ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻
sigh.
I sipped on the tea he poured earlier. It's really good.
Tastes like tea.
" Kiyoko, " He called.
When I looked at him, he was sitting comfortably in the chair. A small smile is present in his lips and eyes, looking back at me with sincerity and determination.
I hummed, " ??? " He didn't seem ready to say what he wanted to say.
I put down the cup and took a bite on one of the scones.
He took a breath, " You can do whatever you want, don't worry about the consequences. You just need to choose what makes you happy. " He said in one go.
My mind went blank.
Am I really even allowed to do that?
What if someone important to me goes away again, because of how selfish I am?
I don't think I can handle another heartbreaking scene.
I promised myself that this time I'd be happy.
I don't know how to be happy, without worrying about the consequences of my actions.
I just got him, an older brother that I've always wanted. I don't want to lose anyone.
Not again.
My mind was in shambles, thinking of a nice way to respond. But I don't know what to do.
I was still staring at him. But my mind was far off.
He sighed, a smile adorning his lips, " Don't think about anything else. You just need to choose whatever makes you satisfied and happy. Your Big brother will handle the consequences for you. "
My eyebrows frowned.
I felt my nose and eyes burn.
Don't cry kiyoko. Don't cry.
Why the heck is this making me emotional?
It's not like……
maybe, it is. The first time, someone from my family actually cares about me.
*Hic
" But you're also….gonna leave me once you see the consequences— I just got a big brother— You promised me— that…" I trailed off, wiping away the tears that had gathered in my eyes.
They were starting to feel heavy, along with the heavy feeling of loneliness in my heart.
My chest tightened, the feeling of something restraining my heart made my stomach churn in misery. It hurts, it hurts, it hurts—
" You still have to make it up to me— You promised me— So I can't— I also can't lose you, not you too " My eyes were blurry and my nose feel stuffy.
Someone—please make it stop hurting.
I can tell how pathetic I look right now. I would never beg for someone to love and give me affection.
But I also would never drive them away.
It was getting hard to breath when the tears started to fall down in my cheeks.
They felt cold and sticky and dirty.
I didn't want to cry.
I don't want anyone to see this vulnerable part of me.
Third Person's POV
Hiroko was in panic.
Like, full out internal panic.
He was just gonna tell his precious little sister that she can do whatever the fuck she wants without having to worry about the aftermath.
Because that's his job as her older brother.
To make sure she's happy and safe.
It was the least he could do to make up for his mistake.
So how in the world did it escalated to this?
" You still have to make it up to me— You promised me— So I can't— I also can't lose you, not you too " kiyoko cried, her pale face reddening from the emotions she's showing right now.
Hiroko vowed to himself that if any bastard tries to make kiyoko cry, he's gonna make sure they'll suffer for a lifetime.
But he just made her cry...is the vow still valid?
He was frantically making hand gestures to stop kiyoko from crying.
He didn't want to touch her with his dirty hands without her permission. She might get mad and tainted.
Hiroko, for the first time in his life. Didn't know what to do.
Fuck it. He thought.
He set aside the consequences for now. Hiroko stood up from his seat, embracing kiyoko like how his mother would do to him before.
Soothing down her back like a gentle cradle. He didn't know what to say, nor what to do. But, he recalled something, from the deepest part of his memories.
Something that his real mother would do to him when he's crying.
" It's fine, You're gonna be just fine. Trust me on this. " He comforted kiyoko.
She flinched at first, not really used to having people hug or make physical contact with her.
But he was warm, and warm people made her feel safe.
Kiyoko doesn't know why this person makes her feel safe, Ever since the first time they met.
Not even once did he lie to her.
She felt comfort in his awkward hug.
She'd gladly take it, if it meant temporarily filling the sadness seeping out of her heart.
Warm. Kiyoko thought as her hands hugged him back. Crying her heart out to him, all that bottled up emotions.
Finally, coming undone.
Hiroko…..Could never forgive himself for making that dumb decision of hunting down and assassinating Japan's traitors to protect the honor of their family.
Kiyoko was clearly much more important than some stupid family honor and title.
I should've stayed that time, I should've just followed wherever you were when that first accident happened, I should've protected you. He bit his lips in frustration.
He was trying his best to put out the tears that's been burning to build in his eyes.
The Gods have a favorite. He wasn't lucky enough to be favored.
But he was pitied, by some deity.
He can't afford to make the same mistake.
I should have just done my role as your older brother.
He already lost his previous family. He can't lose the only light he's got left.
Take anything from me, you can take every single thing from me. Just don't touch her, God please. Not her.
He prays to god like a mantra.
Kiyoko had a thought.
She can't always be that little girl who drives away people that show affection to her.
She can't always run away.
So maybe, even if it's hard. She will try to lower her walls down, step by step.
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" I'm glad that your brother is a nice person, kiyoko-san " Yuri grinned, her eyes pulling off a crescent moon.
Kiyoko and Yuri are currently outside, in the ice cream parlor that they wanted to visit some time ago. Hiroko assigned some people to watch over kiyoko as discreetly as possible.
" Yeah, he's actually really nice, " Kiyoko smiled fondly.
Still a bit embarrassed from her actions earlier.
Her heart felt lighter.
Maybe it was because all those bottled up emotions from all these years of loneliness finally overflowed.
Kiyoko took in a deep breath.
Her mind was clearer now.
I'm really in the world of Tokyo Revengers now. She thought.
Now, What's gonna be my plan?, I said to myself before that I wouldn't interfere in any way with the story I get into….but I've already made a mistake. She added.
She already interfered a long time ago.
Exactly 8 years ago, on that fateful day she opened her window and went down to play with the neighbor's kid.
That day, when she decided to befriend the main character's ally.
Oh, and also that time when the assassination went wrong and instead got Shinichiro and Sui into an accident.
Shinichiro is alive.
He's really alive, barely. Kiyoko thought.
But what can I even do? I only remember the starting point of Black dragons Arc.
Hell, it's not even a clear and complete memory. Kiyoko frowned, a small pout forming on her lips.
Her body can't even handle stress. How is she supposed to fight? Can she even fight?
Ah, who knows honestly. Kiyoko wasn't even good at anything even in her previous life.
" What's got you thinking so deeply, kiyoko-san? Are you feeling sick? Your face is frowning again " Yuri scurried to her side, checking Kiyoko's temperature.
When she felt that kiyoko doesn't have a fever, the blonde girl sighed in relief. A smile adorning her pinkish lips " Thank God, you're not sick " she says.
Kiyoko snapped out of her trance. It was seriously a bad habit, she needed to get rid of it.
She looked at Yuri's face.
She looks like that one character…..that he likes….. I can't let these two meet each other, I'd rather not have her be someone's replacement. Kiyoko hummed, taking a sip of her milk tea.
" I'm fine, just peachy " she murmured, eyes focused on the wall like it's the most beautiful art piece in the world.
Kiyoko's POV
I think I became dumber after regaining some of the memories.
I can't even formulate a single effective plan against him.
*Groan
If I fail, not only would I endanger Takemichi. My whole life might also be destroyed, completely.
But how, just how do I defeat that jackass? He's gonna target Shinichiro in order to manipulate Mikey's position as the leader.
Emma too, and Izana.
Should I just kill him right now?
Ah shit, not again with that murder in mind.
I hate it when I think that killing them is the only solution.
" Kiyoko-san, if…... something is bothering you, please let me help you. That's the least I can do—well that's if, you're comfortable enough to do so " Yuri looked at me with those kind eyes of hers.
I blinked owlishly at her.
Right.
The gears in my non existent brain finally worked. Showing me a lot of possibilities ending with my win.
I still have Yuri.
Wait—
Will she believe me if I tell her my crazy backstory?
Ah, who knows honestly.
Outside of this world, only those who have read my story since the very first chapter would believe so.....
Oh well, there's nothing wrong with trying.
After all, attempting is my thing.
I grasped her hands together. " Yuri, there is something I must tell you. "
She brightened, a large smile painting her lips. " I'm all ears kiyoko-san! " Yuri said cheerfully.
I don't know If I'm just being paranoid, but…..
I've been feeling some stares from people inside the shop.
I leaned closer to Yuri, too close if I might say so.
My lips lightly grazed the skin of her ear.
" Not here, it's a big secret. No one else must know, " I whispered in her ear, pretending to fix her hair.
I could feel her tense. She didn't move for a moment or so. I didn't understand why the tips of her ear and cheeks were red.
But we can't stay here. If I tell her here, Someone might hear.
So I pulled her up gently so as to not hurt her.
" We're going to my secret place, There, No one will watch or interfere with us " I gave her a closed eye smile.
I can't wait to tell her.
Even if she won't believe me.
" Ta-da~! Welcome, to my favorite place " I proudly stated, making a rainbow motion with my hands.
Yuri blinked, once or maybe twice.
" Your favorite place is your office? " She tilted her head slightly, I could imagine some fluffy dog ears and tail in her.
Cute. I thought.
" Yeah, aside from my room. Not even Sui or Nii-san can enter this place carelessly without my permission " I plopped down on my favorite swivel chair, spinning it around a few times.
I took 'paca from my room beforehand. So now I'm indulging on its fluffiness.
I gestured for her to take a seat in one of the empty chairs.
Yuri was looking around the room, when her eyes landed on the portrait above me.
" Did you paint those kiyoko-san?! Woah, they look so real— it's like a picture " her eyes glittered with curiosity and amazement.
One of the things you can see in a child. I smiled softly at her.
Yuri reminds me of my younger sister from my past life. Both so naive and curious of everything.
*Sigh
Enough with that drama.
I rested my chin on 'paca's head, " Yuri, What I'm about to tell must never be known by others. The secret I'm about to share is connected to some people's future. "
The room went silent, the air changed into a much thicker and serious one.
She gulped nervously, a determined look on her pretty face, " I swear, on my life. That I will never speak to anyone else about your secrets "
Gosh, this child is too adorable. Almost makes me feel bad for what I'm gonna do.
I closed my eyes.
Breathe in. Breathe out.
You can do this kiyoko. It's for the best.
I opened my eyes, making direct eye contact with Yuri who also stared back at me.
Well, here goes nothing, if Yuri doesn't believe me. Plan B will be on set.
" Yuri,......... "
" I'm not from this world "