"God keeps himself in hiding. But he is there, concealed in chance happenings
and unexpected encounters. It is a good thing to look for him, beneath the
externals, behind the appearances. Sometimes, these chance happenings are
so illuminating that we cannot help seeing the Lord quite literally."
Our experiences unveil part of God's wisdom. They move us to ask questions and to seek answers about our faith, and the intimacy with the "Other." The Lord is always in disguise- in particular events, issues, memories, trials and successes in life. These may seem hard to understand, but the hidden God, in his silence, presents himself in particular ways which may seemed difficult to comprehend.
This paper presents an encounter with God in its deepest sense, in the context of the writer's life. This is a presentation of a pilgrim journeying into the 'unknown-known', from the moment he experienced "missionary infatuation", who just wanted to become a doctor or teacher to help his poor village.
It starts with his experience of searching for meaning in his childhood and adolescence, until he faced the near-death experiences of his mother, which made his spiritual journey meaningful, when he fell in love with the Lord amidst pains and tribulations. Realizing that in a special way God calls him by name, it created in him a desire of intimacy with the "Guest" of his life, going beyond his own experiences. His openness to God unveils freedom in him- to love and to offer himself to the mission. He has called God his 'Super-friend' and compassionate Counsellor.
This paper is practically a testimony, the writer, being a witness of God's love, abandoning the self into the hands of the 'Master', like docile clay into the hands of the Potter. He followed into a long painful tunnel where complete darkness abounds. There, he keeps on communicating and uniting his very self with the Master, knowing that his thoughts and senses are guided by the spirit.
God's goodness surpasses all we know. It is in this context of faith that the writer presents appreciation of God's answers in his life. It followed a period of his blindness, where he allowed the Lord to hold him and blindly followed, certain that in his limitations, he could spark love and invent an illness- an epidemic of love.