Okay, maybe I was being a bit delusional thinking tht I could accomplish all that with no difficulty.
Obviously, Sovine's eldest brother, Luden, and the due wouldn't allow that, simply because it would mean to in some way disgrace the Divinus family.
While we're on the topic, why don't I introduce this shitty family to my current self who is now in Sovine's body and needs this to accept that fact.
Luden Divinus.
The eldest son of the Divinus household.
Also the stoic, serious, fucking annoying, heir to the house and I bet he's also a sadist.
He's the strategist of the Divinis household.
And also the first bitch that came to torment me after I arrived here, he was ranting on for about five hours but I didn't even hear five words that came out of his mouth.
And if I did. I was in too much of a panic to understand it.
He had short black hair with parted bangs, with a tall and muscular build, piercing blood red eyes, masculine and rough facial features, that according to the game, "demanded authority", and a god damn tiny waist.
He basically had a typical male lead body type and appearance.
The second jackass was Avis Divinus.
The second son of the Divinis household.
Also the trouble maker of the house and probably a future knight since he had for if an athletic personality and build than Luden.
He had more of a lean body type, and white unruly hair also with parted bangs, but he had the same blood red pools as Luden.
Though his eyes weren't as piercing, he had softer features too.
He was considered a pretty boy in society along with a troublemaker.
And lastly.
Vidoro Divinus, the youngest son of the Divinus family.
Apparently, he hasn't come to bother me yet since he doesn't think I'm worth his time. Which is probably the best I'll get from any of these assholes.
He, like Luden, had been given the jet black hair of his father, the duke. And the usual blood red eyes of the Divinus bloodline.
He was the prodigy of the family, a young boy talented in mana and magic. He was a cocky arrogant like brat, yes. But impressive.
And then there was me.
The unwanted, fake, arrogant, childish, naive, extravagant, useless, trouble magnet, mad lady, ignorant, excessive, impudent, filthy, prideful, foolish, blind, surplus child of the Divinus family.
All of which were names people had called Sovine before Infront of her face. Mostly from the brothers. But I have to admit some were true.
The blind part was, how the hell did this girl expect to be loved appreciated by this bunch? That was blindness right there.
Either way, I could probably use this reputation of hers to get away with a lot of shit in the future so I guess it's not all tht bad that she was a bit foolish.
I decided to tie up my hair and grab a book and pen before going to the garden to sort out my thoughts about this place.
And think of ways to get back to earth cause there was no way in hell I was going to continue living in this crappy game.
I would rather slit my throat. And I mean that.
I left my room and began looking around the garden which was actually quite isolated for how beautiful it was.
I found a nice spot under a willow tree and plopped down on the grass as I opened the book and began writing my thoughts in it.
So, I'm in a world of a game as the villainesses. There are eight male interests whose love count I have to get to 100 to win the game- Ah, shit.
'How do I know where to find their love count...?'
I began thinking back to all the events that occured since I arrived here and everything I already knew about the game.
I eventually recalled that you had to touch one of the male leads in the game for their love count to appear.
Their love count would usually appear as a short of colored tattoo in a box on the side of their necks and the box's color would change depending on the percentage of how much they love you.
If their love count is in the negative percentages, the bubble will be black which means I can and probably will die.
And if it's between 1-20 percentages it'll become gray which means I gotta be careful and might still die.
If it gets from 20-30 percentages it'll be very light pink, and so on it will continue.
So I basically just have to find one of the brothers and somehow touch their hand or face or something.
'Now to figure out how I'm supposed to do that...' I shut my notebook and began thinking of several ways to test my theory.
I could try to "accidentally" trip and grab their arm or shoulder to balance or just straight-up bump into them...
But.
According to what's already happened in the game... That might not be the best idea.
And I might also push their percentages to the negative by doing that so let's cross that out.
I couldn't help but feel annoyed at this game, literally anything Sovine ever did got her killed as I sighed rubbing my temple. What was I supposed to do?!
I pounded my head for answers but couldn't find anything. Literally anything. I could do which would look natural and perfectly come into place.
And not die while doing it.
However it was already dinner time so I had no choice but to retire for the day and go back inside. Not that I was upset about it or anything.
The first week I came here I wasn't aware that the maids would either leave my meals outside the door to my room or in the kitchen.
Hell, the chef sometimes doesn't even prepare a meal for me since he finds it too bothersome to prepare food for a child who wasn't really nobility.
And if he did it probably wouldn't even be a proper meal and most of the time, like this morning, it would just be plain greens and nothing else.
No other protein or nutrition so I basically just starved that first day but I honestly didn't mind cause one.
I lived in poverty in my first life, and two.
I had already died many times in the game from being poisoned, there was poison in Sovine's food at least once a week.
The game never showed who was the one putting on the poison. It probably would have later on into the story but I barely even made it past the first chapter.
It didn't take me long after being sent in this game to find some poison in my food.
Sovine wasn't stupid, we know that at least since she would always carry a silver pin with her to test for poison in any food she consumed.
She probably just stayed quiet about because no one would believe her and sat she was seeking attention again.
Avis would even convince the duke that it would be a waste of time to even testing the food since she apparently "probably already put poison in to make them believe it".
She probably also didn't want to cause them anymore trouble and make them hate her more.
And today also, I had once again found poison in my food.
"If only I could sue these bastards for this..." I muttered knowing full well that I couldn't without knowing exactly who it was doing this shit.
"I'm honestly surprised Sovine didn't take her life sooner with all this shit going in." I grumbled under my breath throwing the poisoned food out.
I sat back down on the table to continue trying to make sense of this whole situation and find a way to survive and get back to my original world.
Though it was honestly such a shame since the food they would serve to the daughter of the duke was honestly the only thing I was looking forward to after coming here.
I thought that Sovine's lived in a grand duke's mansion, which meant that she would at the very least be served good food here.
But after seeing what they were serving her I was so flabbergasted all I could manage as a reaction to it was a, "Oh. Well... Damn."
Anyway.
So what I knew right now was that I was in a game. As the villainess.
Who later had her body burned and soul entrapped in eternal darkness and pain by the master of the magic tower as a punishment for trying to kill the grand duke's.
Aka my current step-father's real daughter.
'Honestly, thinking about all this now... It makes absolutely no sense. Sovine got executed for trying to kill the dukes real daughter but here she is getting poison in her food every other day.'
Which was stupid cause the villainess never really gets any justice which just irritated me even more.
'She went through so much for those bastards and in the end she just committed suicide herself and got me stuck here in her body!'
"She deserved so much better! This was honestly all those bastard's fault, they couldn't accept losing their mother and sister and decided to cope with it by blaming it on Sovine and, ruining her entire life!"
"Petty jerks! All of them! Even after all these years they still haven't grown up in the slightest and still blame Sovine for the duchess's death!"
Yes, I was throwing a fit. And it was completely reasonable. I was put in this ladies body, a rich lady, but I can't even enjoy it. And instead I'm going to die?
This game is rigged.
"I gotta stop ranting about useless things and focus on getting out of here first..." I sighed realizing that if I didn't focus on the matter in hand and get out of this game now.
I will have to suffer the same fate Sovine did.
'Let's see... So before I transmigrated into this body I was in a bus...'
I began writing down however much I could remember of what happened on paper and almost gave up halfway through since I hated writing.
I was on the bus playing this cursed game while I was going home from my college when the bus crashed.
...
And that's all that I can remember happening before I woke up here.
Now there are two possible scenarios that might've taken place here.
One, I died.
Or two, which is the one I really hope happened but most probably didn't happen, someone else called the police my body was currently at some hospital in a coma.
Now I could always try and probably fail to survive in this strange fantasy world as the villainess or...
Since there is still a 000000.1% chance that I was still alive and currently just in a coma.
I could try to jump off the balcony and into the magic fountain or whatever that thing outside my window is called just like the original Sovine did the night before I transmigrated here and die!
Then wake up in my hospital bed, murder my friend who suggested this to me, kill whoever the hell made this damn game, and go home.
But I really don't want to experience the pain of dying again and I imagine jumping off the balcony would be very painful...
But then again, Sovine's the villainess of this game so I'm gonna die anyway even if I don't jump.
And compared to how Sovine was executed and trapped in eternal darkness and pain by the master of the magic tower...
Jumping off the balcony.
Falling into the magic pool thingy.
And then finally drowning to my death is nothing!
"Let's get this over with!" I got up and began walking to the balcony.
"Damn, this is higher up than I thought..." I looked over to see just how far down the ground was before sighing and climbing onto the balcony.
'Here goes nothing!' I took a step forward and let gravity do its thing.
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That's what I said three days ago.
And here I am still dealing with these assholes' B.S.
I was currently getting lectured by Luden for causing a commotion by falling down the stairs and scratching myself up.
Which was the excuse I gave for all my cuts and bruises.
"What were you thinking?! Why must you be so reckless all the time?!" Luden yelled, this was the always calm, demure, strategist of this house? Yeah, right.
"What will you do if this leaves a scar?! How will we get you wed into a prosperous household?! The only thing you have going for you are your somewhat decent looks and you go and ruin them like this?! Why must you always be in such a pathetic state?! Enough is enough!"
He continued going on and on about how they wouldn't be able to get rid of me and get me married into a rich family now, it's not like I was listening though.
I don't know what this game has against me...
But that night when I jumped off the balcony. I know that I definitely felt the unmistakable pain of death but when I opened my eyes again after doing so.
My vision was blurry and I was still in pain, however, I was still alive... And my body was also already healing, but it still hurted like hell regardless.
I feel like I had been thrown into the sharp corner of a vanity and got hit in the gut fifty eight times then tumbled over and fell of ninety different legos and proceeded to then stub all my toes on different surfaces.
I tried again a few more times but the same event occurred repeatedly no matter what method I tried.
So in the end I just got sick and tired of dying over and over again and trashed that plan so now I'm stuck trying to find a way to get back to my original world again.
Luden eventually shut his mouth and left the room when he realized that I wasn't even listening sparing my poor eyes and ears from his sorry existence while doing so.
The poor guy just couldn't believe that the same Sovine Divinis who had always spent all her time and energy chasing after her step-family's love and affection was suddenly acting so indifferently to whatever he said or did.
But that was Sovine, not me.
And I seriously hated that dude and hated seeing girls always swooning over him even more. He had a huge fan group in the real world too, and now in the game as well.
So what if he's hot? He's still an immature bastard who only acts all prime and proper to keep his reputation intact.
And yes I was holding a grudge over how he was treating Sovine, aka me, as a stud to be sold off more money and connections. I took that personally.
But I wasn't going to waste my time cursing him out since I had much better things to do. Like find out how to somehow get out of this damn game.
'So, now I know that I can't just die myself... But, maybe someone else can kill me... So what now? Do I hire an assassin to kill myself?'
It sounded ridiculous, and way too easy. I doubt the game would let me get away that easily.
Plus I didn't actually have any money despite being the daughter of the duke, all the money was held by Luden who was incharge of the account book.
And there's no way in god's green hell that bitch was going to give me any money, he would just claim I was going to go use it to fool around again.
So the first thing I planned on doing if dying didn't work, was getting my own independent cash.
'The villainess usually either died at the hands of the heroine or one of the male interests...'
'So all I have to do is get one of those bastards to kill me!' I immediately jolted up from my seat raising my hands above my head in a celebratory joy.
'Well, then! Let's go find them!' I was sure that none of the brothers refuse to kill cause let's be honest here.
They've probably been waiting for this moment their whole lives.
'... I sound really suicidal right now...'
To be continued...
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