I was nervously squeezing the handles to my shopping bags as I followed TaeJun outside. He had called a company car to take us back to the dorms. I tried to tell him we could just take a taxi, but he wouldn't hear it. I was nervous as he stood there, talking on the phone with whoever was coming to pick us up.
“Y/N-ah,” I lifted my head to look at TaeJun. He put a hand on my shoulder, giving a slight reassuring squeeze. I gave him what was supposed to be a smile, but I have a feeling it is more like a grimace.
“Yes, TeaJun-oppa?” I bit my lip again, meeting his eyes. I could see him soften slightly at my nervousness.
“Why haven't you told anyone about your social anxiety?” TeaJun asked me gently. I knew he was trying to be careful with me. I hated that he had to, but there was nothing I could do to change things. The doctor said it would take time.
“Because they already treat me like I'm going to break. If they have something more to worry about, I feel like their pity will override anything else,” I said quietly, looking at my feet. I didn't want to admit the shame I felt because of my problems nor face the fact they may start to pity me and that will take over the liking of me. “I don't want to become more of a burden to them than I already am.”
I sniffed as I tried to keep myself from crying. I didn't like to let people see me cry.
“I am sure that wont happen, but if it does, I'll be there for you. Same with Sejin-hyung,” TaeJun said before turning around. A black van could be seen sitting at the traffic light nearby.
We had left StrayKids' dorm complex and walked a couple blocks so that it wouldn't cause any scandals. Chris and the rest had insisted on exchanging numbers. It wasn't until I was putting my shoes on when Han came up to me to talk privately.
“Hey, just know if you ever need to talk to someone to just be quiet with someone, call me. I will meet you or tell you where to find me,” he said quietly taking my hand. “I know what it's like. You said this is something new for you, so let me be there for you. I know you are friends with Bangtan but sometimes it's nice to have someone separate from our every day lives to help us.”
I gave a small smile as thanks and he smiled back, nodding. He left me with a hand on the shoulder before the rest came over to say goodbye. They made me promise to text them and they said they wanted to make a group chat for us. It was strange, that another big idol group was wanting to become friends with me. Like, did I save the world in my past life or something?
The van pulled up in front of us and I waited as TaeJun opened the back door and indicating for me to get in. I let him take my bags from me, too exhausted to fight him anymore. The van was empty except for the driver and another bodyguard.
TaeJun closed the door and sat in the seat next to me. I had chosen to sit in the captain seat near the window. My leg bounced in anticipation as we drove towards Hanam, where BTS lived. I nervously bit my nails and felt my mind and thoughts wander down a dark path.
You're just a burden.
They don't really like you.
BTS only pities you.
No one wants you.
No one cares.
I felt tears gather in my eyes as my thoughts kept going. It wasn't until a felt hands go around my face that I was able to focus on anything. I was staring into a pair of piercing brown eyes. Blinking a couple of times, I realized someone was talking. He was talking.
“Y/Nie, come back to me, that's it. Take a deep breath,” he said, taking a deep breath himself. I found myself mimicking him. “Ask Yoongi what else we can do.” He said over his shoulder.
“N-Na-" I couldn't his name out of my mouth. As soon as I uttered the first sound he rounded on me and brought us nose-to-nose.
“That's it, baby girl. Can you tell me three things you can feel?” Namjoon asked. I was confused at his question at first.
“Uh, y-y-you,” I stuttered the first word out. Then I took a deep breath and closed my eyes.
“No, don't close your eyes baby,” I heard someone say from outside the van. I knew it was outside because it sounded far away. “Fuck, Yoongi, how long until you get back?”
“Yah, hyung, language?” I heard Hoseok mutter. I opened my eyes and locked in with Namjoon again.
“I-I f-feel y-you, the s-s-seat, c-c-cold,” I managed before my body locked up again. I felt my body racked with shivers, but it wasn't cold out.
“What's happening now?” I could hear Yoongi speaking through the phone. They had put him on speaker. But I wasn't able to make myself talk anymore. I felt the edges of my vision darkening.
“No, no, no, Y/N! Stay with us,” I felt the hands on my cheeks release slightly as one of them was lifted and started to tap my cheek.
“Fuck this red light! Sejin-hyung, just run the damn thing!”
~*~*~*~*~
BTS POV
We were sitting in the living room waiting for Y/N to get back. We got a small explanation of what happened from her new bodyguard, TaeJun. He had been with the company for awhile and we had hand-picked him to protect Y/N while she went out.
“So, hyung, let us get this straight,” Namjoon was speaking as his cellphone was on speaker. “She felt like she caused us to fight because of what she said in the group chat?”
All the members looked at each other. Everyone but Yoongi was home, as he had wanted to finish one of the tracks he had been producing for an upcoming album.
“Yes, she wont admit it to you, but she is struggling mentally. I don't know what exactly happened in your group chat, but whatever it was triggered her.”
“Thank you TaeJun-hyung, when will you bring her home?” Jin asked biting his lip.
“As soon as the van gets here. Surprisingly, she made some new friends.”
“Oh, that's good, right?” Jungkook asked, looking around at the others. They were nodding their heads.
“Yeah, I didn't know StrayKids were so nice,” TaeJun said quietly over the phone. Everyone in the room froze.
“Did you say StrayKids?” Jimin asked a bit sharply. The guys were feeling a little worried because they know Y/N liked StrayKids' music. They were afraid she might like them more.
“Yeah, she was having a panic attack in a store and Bangchan and Changbin took over calming her. They were complete strangers but didn't hesitate to jump in and start helping.” TaeJun explained. The boys were nodding, knowing how kind they were before Jimin froze.
“Did you say she was having a panic attack?” He asked and everyone in the room stilled. They hadn't realized they hadn't registered that part of what TaeJun had said.
“Er, aish. I wasn't supposed to say anything. But yes, she had a panic attack,” TaeJun said sheepishly into the phone. Bangtan exchanged looks before Taehyung spoke up.
“What do you mean you weren't supposed to say anything?”
“She wanted to tell you, but then whatever happened this morning prevented it. I think she planned to tell you when we got back from getting her new phone, but then the messages…” He trailed off and everyone in the room started to worry.
“Shit, we made her worried, right?” Namjoon asked, pinching the bridge of his nose. “Sometimes we forget not everyone is used to our texting dynamics.”
“Shit, hyung,” Jungkook said realizing how their morning group messages must have read to her.
“Yah, language,” Jin said half-heartedly.
“The van is here, I will get her in and let you know when we get close,” TaeJun said, as if to end the call.
“No, don't hang up. Keep us on the phone,” Hoseok said seriously. “If she is worried and anxious, she might have another panic attack on the way. This way, we can be prepared to help our girl.” Everyone around the room nodded and Jin stood up going into the kitchen.
Everyone else stayed in the living room, listening to the quiet van ride they were having on the way back to the dorm. Jin returned to the living room carrying a couple bottles of water and a hot water bottle.
“I'm going to get Yoongi's weighted blanket,” he told everyone before scurrying out of the room. Everyone observed him, smiling a little with Jin's need to care. He was a care and pleasure dom, spurned on by his natural need to care for his family.
“Y/N-ah,” They heard TaeJun speak to Y/N over the speaker. “Y/N-ah, come on. You need to focus on me. We're almost back to the dorm.” The guys all stood up, worrying at what they were hearing. Jin, at that moment, returned to the living room.
“TaeJun, put a hand on her shoulder or her knee,” Hoseok instructed as he put the weighted blanket on the sofa and heading towards the front door. “Namjoon, you are going to need to start the grounding process.”
Namjoon looked at his hyung, “Why me?” Hoseok gave him a small smile and gave him a small peck on the cheek.
“Because of your aura. I'm not into shit like crystals and stuff, but damn Joonie, you are pure dom.” Both of the men were blushing. “She needs you to pull her out of her head and we need a strong dom presence for that. Not saying any of you don't have that,” he paused and looked at the rest of his boyfriends. “But, this is why you are our leader.”
Everyone around the room nodded, knowing he had the strongest dominance of the group. They had barely scratched the surface of that type of relationship with Y/N, but knowing how she had responded to the little bit Jin and Yoongi had introduced, it would work.
“I've called Yoongi, he is on speaker for this,” Jimin said, holding up his phone as they hurriedly put on their shoes.
“Okay, let's go get our girl.”
~*~*~*~*~
Y/N POV
“Fuck this red light! Sejin-hyung, just run the damn thing!” I registered Yoongi's voice and once again I was starting to become aware. The darkness started to recede, but I still felt like I am freezing.
“Alright, baby girl, that's good. Now, I am going to pick you up,” Namjoon said soothingly. I felt his hands move to under my thighs and being tilted. I closed my eyes as the movement made me feel a little nauseous.
“Make sure you grab my weighted blanket, it will help!” Yoongi said hurriedly.
“Don't worry, Yoongi-ah, I've already grabbed it. I knew you wouldn't mind,” Seokjin said as they all piled into the elevator.
The only reason I knew we were in the elevator was because I heard the doors close and feeling of moving. I kept my eyes shut and buried my face in Namjoon's neck. His arms tightened around me and I felt protected and safe. I felt other hands on my head, back, shoulder, actually anywhere I could be reached.
I became aware of someone crooning soft words in my ear.
“Baby girl, we've got you. Listen to our voices, feel our touches, we are here.” I felt a kiss on the cheek and focused on his voice. I would know that voice anywhere.
“J-J-Jinnie-o-o-oppa,” I stuttered out against Namjoon's neck. I felt his breath hitch, but I heard an approving sound from behind me.
“That's right, I'm right here,” I felt a kiss land on my shoulder as the doors opened.
“Okay, we're pulling into the underground parking right now. Keep her warm and try to keep her hydrated!” They heard Yoongi shout through the phone before it disconnected.
“I love how he forgets we know what to do,” Hobi giggled as they opened the apartment door. “We've been helping him for years.”
“It's the helplessness of not being here Hoba, you know that,” Seokjin said, patting him on his head. I had finally been able to open my eyes slightly to avoid feeling nauseous.
“Here, Joonie, keep her in your lap, I will put the blanket over the both of you,” Seokjin said as Namjoon plopped down on the sofa, and adjusting my legs so instead of wrapped around him like a koala, I was sitting sideways on his lap. He kept my face tucked against his neck as I felt a heavy blanket placed over the both of us. I felt a hand on the back of my head slowly petting me. Surprisingly, it felt quite calming.
I felt the shaking starting to slowly subside as the front door opened. I jumped at the sound of it hitting the wall.
“Yah, Yoongi-ah!” Seokjjin shouted, but didn't finish as a body joined us on the couch. I felt a hand take both of mine in his as his other came up to my cheek. Shifting my eyes, I looked into a pair of very worried brown ones.
“H-hey,” I managed to stutter out. But it was enough for him, he sighed in relief before giving me a small smile.
“Hey there, baby girl, are you starting to feel better?” Yoongi asked, getting closer to check my eyes. I found it hard to get them to focus, but soon his fuzzy face began to get a little more defined.
I lifted my head slightly, feeling how heavy it felt, I struggled. He must have noticed because he moved his hand from my cheek to help support the weight.
“I-I'm s-s-s-" I was trying to get out my apology but another hand came up and covered my mouth. I looked down to see a tattooed hand. I followed it up to look into Jungkook's beautiful doe eyes.
“Y/Nie, don't apologize. You have nothing to be sorry about,” he said giving me his bunny smile. I gave a small nod and let the weight of my had fall back onto Yoongi's hand. He lowered me back down so I was, once again, tucked into Namjoon's neck.
“Looks like our little one might need some sleep,” Hobi's voice came from behind Jungkook. He was hovering over us. I moved my eyes around and saw that Yoongi was on one side of Namjoon and Seokjin on another. In front of me is Jungkook and Taehyung. I saw Jimin standing off to the side, opening a bottle of water. But I didn't see Hobi.
“Little one,” I heard again. I tilted my head back and saw Hobi standing behind the sofa. He had a look in his eyes that I couldn't read, but I felt as if I could just let go and not worry about anything.
“O-oppa,” I whined and pouted my lips. I heard swearing around me, and I turned to look at them. “Baaaaaad!” I told them, furrowing my brows. Inside, I had no idea why I was acting this way, but it felt amazing. Felt like I could let them take care of me.
“I think she slipped,” Jin said, looking at me with wonder and adoration.
“Jinnie-oppa,” I pouted and raised my arms to him. He came to move closer but there was a sound behind me and a pair of arms tightened. I turned to see Namjoon looking at us with a raised brow.
“Oh, Joonie Daddy, can I goes with Jinnie-oppa?” I asked. Namjoon froze and just stared at me for a moment.
“Y/Nie, honey, how old are you?” I heard Hobi ask. I looked at him confused.
“I'm four,” I said, raising my fingers and gave him a smile. I didn’t know I wasn't holding four fingers up, but five. He gave me a smile before coming forward and pushing one of my fingers down. I pouted at my fingers for a moment, but I felt him put a finger under my chin to look up at him.
“Would our Little One like some water?” He asked me softly. My mouth felt funny, so I nodded my head.
“Here you go, baby,” Jimin said coming towards me. I held out both of my hands to take the bottle.
“I'm not baby,” I said before I took a drink. Jimin froze for a moment, but Taehyung whispered in his ear and he relaxed.
“Sorry, princess,” Jimin said gently. I blushed a little at being called princess, but I liked it. I hid my face into Namjoon's neck again, hoping they wouldn't see how red it was.
“Aww, is our little princess feeling shy?” I heard giggled by Yoongi. I pulled back slightly from Namjoon to look at him. His gummy smile was on display.
“Oongi Daddy's smile adowable!” I said and hid back into Namjoon's neck as everyone started to giggle at Yoongi's stunned face.
“Aww, is our ‘Oongi' shy?” I heard Jungkook tease him. This seemed to shake Yoongi from his stunned moment as he turned to glare at the Bangtan maknae.
“Yah, it's hyung to you,” Yoongi said sternly before turning and softening his face, looking at me. “Would princess like a nap?” I closed my eyes and nodded my head.
“Joon-ah, let's take her to her room,” Jin said. That was the last thing I remember hearing.
The next thing I am aware of is waking up in my bed. I was covered with some sort of heavy blanket. Moving to get up and go to the bathroom, because I really needed to pee, I realized I couldn't move. It was dark in my room, the blackout curtains having been pulled shut.
I wiggled out a hand from beneath the blanket and reached out. There was a dark blob next to me. Making contact, I could feel that it was a person. I turned to look on the other side of me and saw another blob.
Biting my lip, I tried to see what I could remember. I remember being held in Namjoon's arms on the sofa. Then, Hobi called me ‘Little One.’ Something in my clicked and I felt like I could just relax and trust everyone in the room. I didn't need to be strong anymore. I could let my hold on everything go.
When that happened, I felt a shift in me. Then, I was a four year old. I didn't understand what was going on with me. But I knew, that the four year old persona I had felt nice. I also didn't like being called ‘baby' when I was that four year old me. But, being called Y/N also felt strange.
“Oh, princess, are you awake?” I turned towards the voice.
“Hobi-oppa, what happened?” Was the only thing I could ask him. I heard some rustling and then a click. He turned on the bedside lamp. I glanced over and saw that Jin was the other blob. He was blinking open his eyes and smiled at me.
“Ah, are you big Y/N again?” Hobi asked, raising a hand to my cheek.
“Er, I guess? I just don't understand what happened,” I furrowed my brows. I could see Hobi look over to Jin for a minute before he looked down at me. I was still laying down while he and Jin had propped themselves up on their arms.
“Have you heard of Little Space?” I heard Jin ask. I shook my head and turned to look at him.
“What's that?” Before answering, I saw him take his phone from the other bedside table and type on it. After he put it down, the door to my room opened and the rest of the guys entered. I sat up and Hobi took me in his arms, letting me lean against his chest.
“Y/Nie doesn't know what Little Space is,” Jin told everyone in the room. They looked at each other a little surprised, but settled to sit in different places. The Maknae line sat on the bed, while Yoongi and Namjoon pulled over a desk chair. Yoongi sat in Namjoon's lap.
“Well, I am a little surprised, you fell into the space so easily,” Yoongi said, looking at me. “How did you feel before going into it, do you remember?”
I nodded. “Yeah, when I looked at Hobi, I realized you were all there and would protect me. That I was safe and could fully trust you all. Then the next thing I know, I'm a four year old?”
They all exchanged a look and when they looked at me, they looked so happy. I was confused.
“Baby, we are so happy that you felt that safe with us,” Taehyung explained when he realized I didn't know why they were that happy.
“Oh, okay,” I said shyly, biting my lip and looking at my hands. I was twiddling my thumbs feeling shy for some reason.
“Looks like we made her shy again,” Jimin teased and I turned to buried my face in Hobi's chest.
“Okay, let's leave off teasing her for a moment,” Namjoon said, clearing his throat slightly. “Baby, why didn't you tell us about having a panic attack?”
Taking a calming breath, breathing in Hobi's calming scent, I pulled back from him. I kept my eyes on my hands in my lap.
“At first, I didn't want to burden you more. I didn't want your pity to overrun your feelings for me. Then, after talking with the doctor, I realized how bad it was,” I sniffed, feeling tears gathering in my eyes. “He said this PTSD might cause me to become afraid of going outside.”
No one said anything for a moment and I felt like my fears were going to come true. They don't want me, I'm too broken now. They will only pity me.
Then I felt several arms and bodies come around me in a dogpile. I felt the tears release as I felt reassuring words form each of them.
“Baby, we will always love you no matter what.”
“My baby girl, we will help you with this.”
“We will never pity you, baby girl.”
“Don't worry Y/Nie, we will get you through this.”
“Y/N-ah, my baby girl, my princess, don't doubt our love for you.”
The last one made me open my eyes. I saw that I was face-to-face with Namjoon. I don't what how, but the next thing I know his lips were on mine.
I gasped and felt his tongue enter my mouth. I couldn't lift my hands because I was still under the Bangtan dogpile. I felt hands reach up and cup my face. My eyes were closed and soon I felt the extra weight of others lift off me. But I still felt Hobi behind me as Namjoon continued to kiss me.
I was finally able to lift my arms and wrap them around his neck. I felt a shift from behind me and then kisses on my neck and exposed shoulder. My shirt had someone been pulled down slightly in the events before.
I felt hands run down my side, brushing against the sides of my breasts. I moaned and heard it echoed around me. I was slightly startled and opened my eyes.
I saw everyone had pulled back to places around my room. Yoongi and Jin had their hands on each other's bulges. The Maknae line were also palming each other.
“Eyes on me, baby girl,” I heard said gruffly. I looked back into the smoldering eyes of Namjoon. “There you go, listening to Daddy so well.” I clench my thighs against the throb I felt.
I heard moans and hitched breaths from around the room.
“It's always so hot to see him go all dom,” Jungkook moaned as Jimin's hand went in pants.
“Fuck, right? It's even hotter to see him dominate our girlfriend,” I heard Yoongi moan out. Then his mouth became preoccupied. Curious, I looked over towards where his voice was and I saw him taking Jin in his mouth.
I felt another throb between my legs before I felt a hand turning my face to look back. Namjoon's eyes were burrowing into mine before smiling.
“That's alright, baby girl, it's a turn on to see our boyfriends like that,” Namjoon growled out before pulling back from me slightly. I then watched as he kissed Hobi above me. Hobi's hands kept wandering my body and as Namjoon turned his head to deepen their kiss, I felt his hands grab and squeeze my breasts.
I moaned because of how good it felt and how turned on I was. Not breaking their kiss, Namjoon moved one of his hands from me and trailed it down my body. I felt his hand reach my pants and unbutton them. I couldn't not do anything, so I leaned forward, a little hesitant, and kissed Namjoon's neck below his ear.
He growled into their kiss and everyone around the room seemed to stop.
“Oh shit,” I heard Jimin mutter. I pulled back, thinking I did something wrong and met the very heated eyes of Namjoon.
“Baby girl, did you want Daddy's attention?” He rasped out, leaning down into my face. I bit my lip and I heard him growl.
The next thing I knew, I was being stripped of my clothes. I was left in my panties and bra. I had fallen asleep still fully dressed. I saw Namjoon stand up and start taking off his clothes.
“Next time, baby girl, you are going to help Daddy with his clothes,” He told me. I felt Hobi shift below me and his erection was now poking me in my lower back.
“Baby girl, if you want to stop, say now, otherwise I wont be able to hold back,” Namjoon said and he knelt on the edge of the bed and crawled towards me. I heard the men around the room swear and some of them were moaning. Namjoon had my full attention and I couldn't turn to see what was happening.
I just shook my head, ready to lose myself in the men I love.
“No, words baby girl,” I heard him growl out as he lowered himself down, his face hovering above my clothed pussy.
“I-I want this,” I whispered to him. He gave me a smile and then looked above me. I knew Hobi and him were communicating with their eyes. Then, I felt my panties pushed aside and hot breath on my very wet pussy.
“Oh shit, you are dripping baby girl. You made a mess of your panties,” Namjoon growled out and more moans from around the room. I felt Hobi shift below me again. Biting my lip I slowly snaked my hand behind me and rubbed his very hard dick. It was still covered, but he was only wearing a tshirt and basketball shorts.
“Fuuuuck, baby girl,” I heard Hobi moan and Namjoon looked up. He hadn't done anything but look at my pussy.
“Oh, is baby girl being good from hyung?” He asked Hobi.
“Oh yes, baby girl was being good for me. She wanted to make me feel included,” I was happy Hobi realized what I was doing. I felt him grind himself into my hand.
“Then let me reward her,” Namjoon lowered himself and started to lick my clit. I moaned and felt myself lift off the bed. Hobi wrapped his legs around my waist to help hold my hips down.
“Fuck, she is so responsive,” I heard Taehyung moan out. I finally glanced around the room and felt like I could cum right then and there. Taehyung was laying down on the floor while Jungkook had him in his mouth. Jimin was kneeling behind Jungkook, his dick slowly moving in and out of him.
I moaned at the sight and looked over to the other side of the room. Jin was just starting to lower himself onto Yoongi, who was sitting in the chair from my desk.
“Fuck,” I moan out as I feel Namjoon tease my opening with a finger.
“Are you okay, baby girl?” I heard Hobi ask breathlessly in my ear. I nodded my head, but felt a slight slap on my breast. He had been massaging my breasts at that time. “Words.”
“Yes, fuck,” I said and closed my eyes, leaning my head under Hobi chin. Namjoon had chosen that moment to slip his finger in me.
“Damn baby girl, you are so tight. Your pussy is swallowing my finger so well,” after Namjoon's comment everyone in the room moaned, including Hobi. I had to take my hand from behind my back because it had started to get uncomfortable. However, it didn't phase Hobi at all as he began grind his dick against my ass.
All the sensations and the sounds of pleasure around the room was getting me closer and closer to my orgasm. I felt my breathing pick up and my walls started to tighten.
“Ask for permission to cum, baby girl,” I heard Hobi whisper in my ear. I didn't know how he knew I was so close.
“D-daddy, can I c-cum,” I stuttered out, moaning. I went with my instincts to make sure to use ‘Daddy'.
“Let go, baby girl, you are being so good for Daddy. Cum for me,” Namjoon growled out. He was now pumping two fingers in me as he sucked my clit. Our eyes met and I came. I couldn't handle looking at how fucking hot he was down there.
I came so hard, I felt myself releasing an unusual amount of liquid. I looked to see Namjoon's with a dripping wet face as he rose to sit on his knees in between mine.
“Oh fuck, she squirts,” I heard moaned and then swearing. I turned to Taehyung coming in Jungkook's mouth. The youngest of them swallowing every drop of his hyung.
“Fuck,” I muttered watching Jimin pulled Jungkook up against his chest, a hand around his neck. Taehyung got on his hands and knees and started to suck Jungook’s dick.
“Shiit,” I then turned my head to see Jin quickly bouncing on Yoongi's dick as he was reaching around and jerking his hyung off.
I felt myself getting wet all over again, a throb making my body shiver.
“I think she likes what she sees,” Hobi teased in my ear. Namjoon looked down at me with such a look, I almost felt scared.
“I think you are right,” Namjoon said huskily. I felt myself being lifted into a sitting position and Hobi crawled out from behind me. I felt a new presence on the bed next to me, and without knowing who, I let them pull be back against their sweaty chest.
“Let's watch this together,” I heard his deep voice whisper. I could help the shiver of pleasure from the sensation. I felt Taehyung's chuckle from his chest.
I let him wander his hands around my body as we watched Hobi and Namjoon making out. I knew they were purposely doing it right at my feet because they saw how much I liked watching the others.
I was surprised at myself. I didn't think I would like watching anyone make out, let alone have sex. But, it was something about these seven men I couldn't help but enjoy them in any way I could get them.
I was so distracted by watching, I didn't notice Taehyung's until I felt his fingers teasing my entrance. I gasped and my hips rose as he inserted two at once.
“TaeTae, remember, be gentle,” I heard spoken softly from across the room. I didn't see who it was because I had closed my eyes at the feeling.
“Sorry baby,” I heard murmured in my ear. I hummed back, unable to form words. I was surprised at myself, that hum nearly sounded like a purr. Then, I felt Taehyung shift, hooking my ankles with his and spreading my legs out.
“Fuck, that's a sight to see,” I heard another voice say. Taehyung was nibbling on my ear as he worked his fingers in and out of me. I couldn't focus on anything but his touch.
"I can't wait to see her fall apart again," I heard moaned out. It sounded like Jin, but I couldn’t be sure. I made sounds I couldn't recognize. I nearly came when I felt a lick first on my left nipple and then on my right.
“Fuck, look at all our Maknaes together," I heard Yoongi growl out. He just has that voice you could recognize anywhere and any time.
I then heard a whine and felt Taehyung's fingers leave me and then hot air in their place. I opened my eyes to see Hobi with his face hovering at my opening while Namjoon moved himself in and out of him from behind.
I moaned as Taehyung turned his attention to my clit at the same time as Hobi pushed his tongue inside me. I felt my toes starting to tingle and a pressure beginning to build again.
"How are you doing, babygirl?" I felt someone wipe my forehead with a cloth and a kiss following on my hairline.
"Uh,” was all I managed to get out.
"Babygirl, open your eyes," I heard in an authoritative voice. I knew I needed to listen and follow the instructions. Struggling, I was finally able to crack my eyes open.
Yoongi looked at me with a slightly worried expression. "Hyung," was all Yoongi needed to say before a slightly sweaty and disheveled Jin also appeared in my line of sight. I had to feel slightly floaty by this point.
"Okay, be prepared to fight of a sub drop," Jin told everyone. There were words of acknowledgement around the room.
My eyes began to wander and fell on seeing Namjoon plowing into Hobi. The younger hand one hand on Hobi's hip and the other pulling his hair.
My orgasm broke. I wasn't fully aware that I was squirting all over Hobi's face and upper body. My vision started to fade as my orgasm did.
When I opened my eyes, I blinked my eyes a few times to focus. I was laying on my stomach on my bed. Turning over, I saw a lump on the covers with me. I pulled the blanket up a little to see the cute pouting face of Jimin.
I felt shy thinking of what we had done as a group and realized I had totally let myself be vulnerable with them. However, I didn't want it to only be physical like that.
Biting my lip, I sat up carefully as to not disturb the sleeping angel next to me. I scooted to the edge of the bed and stood up. That's when I realized I was dressed in a shirt and sleep shorts. I didn't recognize them as my own. I shrugged and tip-toed to the bathroom. Inside, I took a look at my reflection. I could see my hair was tangled, but not oily.
Trying to figure out if I remembered taking a shower, I started to brush my teeth. After brushing, I washed my face and applied my skincare. Then, I brushed my hair and put it up in a loose pony tail.
I returned to my room to find my bed empty. I changed into some leggings and a clean shirt that went down to my knees. Slipping on my slippers, I went to find everyone.
Thinking about everything that happened yesterday, I felt guilty and embarrassed. I know they explained a little about becoming Little and everything, but I feel like I need to do some research.
I didn't realize I had entered the kitchen until a felt a hand on my shoulder.
“Shit!” I shouted and jumped. Heart racing, I turned to see a concerned looking Jungkook. I blinked a couple of times and then looked around the room.
“Why does Y/Nie get to swear?” I heard Taehyung whine. I couldn't help it, I giggled.
“She doesn't,” I heard a deep voice murmur. I turned to see Jin looking at me, eyebrows raised.
“Sorry,” I murmured looking down. I felt a hand on my head and looked up to see Jin looking at me a little worried.
“Are you okay, baby?” He asked me softly. I bit my lip and shrugged my shoulders. I saw him glance around the room and then I was being led to sit down on a sofa in the living room.
“What's wrong Y/N-ah?” Yoongi was sitting next to me on one side, Jin on the other.
“I-I'm happy to be with you all,” I began and I heard some of the guys suck in their breath and one whimper. “I'm just new to all of this. I've never dated before. I've never had a boyfriend. I'm learning new things about myself as well as dealing with my trauma.”
“Wait, you've never dated?” I looked up to see a surprised Namjoon and Jimin. They were sitting directly across from us.
“Yes, it's why I told Jin and Yoongi that I was still a virgin,” I said quietly, knowing I was blushing. I looked down at my lap shy and worried that I wont be enough.
“Let's slow things down a little,” I heard Jin suggest with agreement from around the room. “We want you to have all the romantic experiences. Also,” he paused and looked around before continuing. “As you may have noticed, a few of us are what you consider ‘Dominants.’ We would like to include you in our dynamics if you are comfortable.”
I chewed my lip and considered. Even though I have no experience sexually, I enjoyed letting them take control. But, I definitely need to learn a lot more.
“Okay,” I said quietly and several of them came over and put me on the bottom of a dogpile once again.
“Yah, let her breathe!” I heard Yoongi protest. They pulled back and gave such big smiles.
“Now that is settle, how are you feeling?” Jin asked, taking one of my hands and rubbing the back of it with his thumbs.
“Better,” I said, looking up and smiling.
A/N: Hope you enjoyed this update. I did say in the beginning of the story that this was mature….so…enjoy… muahaha.
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-Luna