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Insecure

By mymy2323_

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Warning REAAAD 000
No More LOVE 0:0
Almost There 0:01
I Tried 0:02
Fall carnival :pt1 0:03
Sidenote :000
Fall Carnival pt2
Morning sickness 0:04
Aloneness 0:05
Talk 0:06
Break up blessing 0:07
Im forever broken ? 0:08
Trust ? 0:09
Finally understand 0:10
Finally understand pt2
Bestfriend ? 0:11
Failed Shopping spring 0:11
Scared nights 0:12
Sensitive healing 0:13
Where they do that at ?
Lie ?
With Who ?
Answer my question
Just the beginning
just the beginning pt2
Just the beginning pt3
Final beginning's
Movie night or Game night ?
Kickback 1/3
Kickback 2/3
Kickback 3/3
No , we not good !
Halloween decorations
Halloween Campout
Halloween stories maybe ?
Mazzi Halloween realization therapy gone wrong ?!
Halloween movie night
Trick or beat
Trick or Beat pt2
Officially Halloween
Halloween intruder
Under Destruction
Tell me lies
One truth and One Lie
Since our last conversation
Trying one last time
Mirror Trip
Keep your eyes open
Whats all that noises ?
Maddison?
Wing stop late night
Next morning
Mazzi home
I love you
I love you
Hostility ?
Hostility ?
No explanations !
Everybody sleeping in !
I can't think
Thank you for everything
Stalker shit !?!
Stalker shit2 ?!?
Instagram posts .

Tell me what you need 0:14

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By mymy2323_

| October 22 , 2034 |
| Later on in the afternoon |

I laid on the couch watching adventure time . Tezzariah came into the living room snatching the remote off the arm of the chair .

I just looked at her laughing .

[ paris ]
Cause what is you doing ? I know you b-

She turned the tv off before I could say anything . She sat down on the arm of the couch with her hands in her lap staring at me .

[ Tezzariah ]
Not you think everything peaches and cream , cookies and cream around hea . What was wrong with you this morning lil girl ?

I shook my head sitting up staring at her rubbing my head . Kane went to work today . I won't be seeing her until this evening on her break .

[ paris ]
Last night kane and I had a moment . It really made me self reflect back on something that happened in my past with Mazzi that should've never happened .

She nodded standing up moving my leg . Sitting down beside me , I put a pillow on her lap putting my legs on top of the pillow in her lap .

[ Tezzariah ]
Like ? I mean just cause you having a bad day that don't mean y-

[ paris ]
I know I know tez spare me the lecture . It's just this healing process got me going for a loop . I feel freer than I ever have now . It's like without the drama everybody , everything is calm around me even kane and you .

I said shaking my head playing with my bracelet looking at her .

[ Tezzariah]
Hmm , why is that a bad thing that everything so calm around you Cheyenne ?

She asked rubbing her ankle , leaning back on the couch chewing on the side of her cheek .

[ paris ]
Why tuh I mean think about it tez . When have you ever known for my life to be so calm and welcoming.

She nodded , crossing her arms across her chest . Before placing the remote on my leg .

[ Tezzariah]
True but you in a new era of healing Babygirl . I mean if it's bothering you so much , you gotta be doing something right . Right ?

[ paris ]
I mean I don't know Tezzariah , I don't wanna get to comfortable with anything right now .

She chuckled shaking her head .

[ Tezzariah]
You so damn stubborn Cheyenne. You deserve to be happy . Stop using your past as an excuse to dictate . What you having going on for yourself right now .

[ Tezzariah]
We not worried about the past , the past gone always be the past . You gone always have yo moment or times . Where you not fucking with me or kane even the world for that matter . Take back what happened in yo past put that shit into motion do something positive sho- I'm not saying forget about your past either Cheyenne . I'm saying forgive for you set boundaries for yourself and others .

[ Tezzariah]
After my last relationship all I could do was set boundaries plus take mental note . Up until 12 months ago , 2months fresh out , when I Met a female name Kallie coolest female you'll ever met down to earth very understanding . But I never knew that cause at the time , I was always pushing her away not giving her the time of day .

[ Tezzariah]
I mean , I would causally talk to her have drinks with her invite her over to my place . We'd talk mostly her , she'd talk about her life . I'd sit there listening never once chiming in .

[ Tezzariah]
One night we both accidentally . When to sleep together Cheyenne . She wasn't supposed to stay over but it happened no big deal right . The next morning I woke up , she was behind me with her arms wrapped around me . Knowing me I needed that shit , I cried in that girl damn arm , she held me not once judging me .

[ Tezzariah]
My point is to say allat is this , Had known her for about a good 4years . She's the reason , I'm doing better now . All it takes is one person , yo person somebody that truly understands . That genuinely cares to make a difference in your life . Rather you healed or not healed . But there still Willing to be there through it all up and downs mood swings and all .

I leaned forward a little grabbing Tezzariah hand along the way . I could feel she'd zone out talking to me . She squeezed my hand looking at me giving me a small smile.

[ paris ]
Tezzariah ? Is she?

She laughed nodding her head . Then she started crying , I instantly pulled her into a hug rubbing her back massaging her scalp.

[ paris]
It's okay Tezzariah . You'll find somebody else like her out there soon .

She sniffed not saying anything, I laid my head on her head . Continuing to hug her massaging her scalp .

Slowly rocking us both side to side a little. I noticed that when I hug people no matter , how long I hug them .

I always play in the hair , I even do it with kane . She be knocked the fuck out .

By the time I be ready to move my hand . Sometimes it even put me to sleep feeling how calm her body be next to my body .

| that afternoon |

I had been in my room sitting next to my vanity mirror . I was thinking about lylo .

Why after everything , I found about her to the point it made me physically uncomfortable .

I shook my head grabbing my phone out of my lap unlocking my phone .

| instagram Dms |
| Lylyloprivatespam678._|

I miss you Bestfriend 🥺💔
Seen

Typing...

I locked my phone biting my bottom lip . I'm finna beat lylo ass , I need to run that back with her ain't no getting back cool .

My cousin knocked on my room door getting my attention . I quickly looked up putting my phone down .

[ Tezzariah]
Come downstairs right quick.

She turned around walking off . I stood up grabbing my phone heading out my room directly down stairs.

[ Kimberly ]
Little p is that you girl ? You look so beautiful grown now .

I slowly walked down the last step looking at Tezzariah then back at the female infront of me .

[ paris]
Uh excuse you do i know you ? Cousin who is this ?

Tezzariah laughed shaking her head leaning on the back of the couch.

[ Kimberly]
It's me Kimberly , 4th-

I ran towards her instantly hugging her the front door opened .

[ paris ]
Oh my gosh kim it's been so long since I've seen you , you look different.

Kane walked right towards the kitchen after kissing my cheek .

Kimberly let go of my waist leaning back.

[ Kimberly]
Yeah just in town for a few days thought I'd stop by to check on my big dawg .

She said nudging Tezzariah arm , she chuckled shaking her head holding her water bottle.

[ Tezzariah]
No you came by cause I mention them famous paris of our family line . Plus where Tajen at ?

[ Kimberly]
Don't even get me started on her ass Tezzariah.

I looked at them both , while glancing over at kane a few times.

[ paris ]
Who's tajen anyways I don't care - it was good seeing you again Kimberly.

I said , quickly walking off . I stood beside Kane smiling kissing her cheek.

[ paris ]
Welcome back home bubba .

She nodded , putting her phone in her pocket . My heart started racing a little , I chuckled nervously pulling out the stool sitting next to her .

[ paris ]
Kane is everything okay?

[ Kane ]
Mhmm

She said , playing with her watch on her wrist. I grabbed her hand looking at her leaning towards her face.

[ paris ]
Wanna talk about it , I can clearly see something's bothering you right now.

[ Kane ]
I just don't understand , why you ain't text me back mama . I been at work hella bored out my mind just thinking about you , whole time I don't wanna push you away by being so - Nevemind.

I smiled grabbing her face making her look at me planting kissing all over her face . She laughed grabbing my waist hugging me , I hugged her back .

[ paris ]
Awwe bubba you upset cause I didn't text you back. I thought I did , I probably texted you back mentally . I been waiting on you to text me .

We both laughed . I rubbed the side of her face admiring her features , she stared at me caressing my waist softly.

For a few minutes , we stared at each other smiling. Until the eyes part , I looked away . She laughed leaning towards me kissing my neck .

I closed my eyes massaging her scalp, gently biting my bottom lip . My stomach started turning . She pecked my neck kissing me one last time on my neck hugging me .

[ Kane ]
I been missing you beautiful

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