SOOOO 😭😭😭😭
let me see where I left off hold on
okay so he eventually replied (faster than usual, actually) with "oh 😭" or something like that and he's been on opened since.
that girl he was with at the football game is almost always walking with him in the hallways (I dont wanna kms, you do!!!😀🙂😀🙂🙂😃😊😝)
anyways a couple days ago this guy that sits in front of me in my 6th hour is....a character.
I'll call him melon. anyways I like got along with him, he's kinda nice I guess and he's really funny and but I think the only reason I let myself be friends with him is bc he's friends(ish) with this one guy that I have like a friend crush on (friend crush is when you want to be friends with someone really bad, its like a platonic crush) because cherry was really close friends with him and like I just really like the guy (we've never said a word to eachother) and he's also friends woth apricot so yk
anyways on thursday I think after 7th hour cherry came to my 8th hour and was like "YOURE NOT DATING MELON ARE YOU"
AND I WAS LIKE WHAAAAAT THE HELL NOOOOOOO
AND FHEN SHE SAID HES GOING AROUND TELLING PEOPLE IM HIS FREAKIHG GIRLFRIEND WHATTATATTATAT
so im ghosting him in person now he keeps trying to bug me but I just ignore him or brush him off and like yesterday he asked me if I was mad at him and now he's trying to figure out why (just use your brain buddy)
I'm so mad bc he probably likes me AND ALL OF THE GUYS THAT IM FRIENDS WITH HAS A FREAKING CRUSH ON ME LIKE I JUST WANT APRICOT PLEASE 🙏🙏🙏🙏
now, to stem off of that topic, let's talk about blueberry 😊
so the guy like OBVIOUSLY has a crush on me. and im okay with it, its just disappointing that like I literally can not be friends with boys (that sounds so pick me but I wish I was being dramatic 🙁) well, YESTERDAY WHEN I GOT TO MY 2ND HOUR
my friend sat down and was like "okay...would you date blueberry"
I was like.."..yeah I guess but not rn im not ready for that"
and then she said he was gonna ask me out and she's helping him write me a letter or something.
WHAATT..... BRO WAS GONNA WRITE ME A WHOLE LOVE LETTER IVE KNOWN HIM FOR LIKE 2 AND A HALF MONTHS 😭😭😭
my cousin (im like best friends with him) told me a little while ago that guys probably end up liking me because he thinks I'm just instantly friends with people and im really affectionate and sweet so everyone thinks I'm like in love with them or something
anyways, in 3rd hour (which is when I have a class with blueberry) my friend that sits behind me whos also friends with blueberry (everyone of my friends that know him are all in band too😭😭) told me that HES GONNA ASK ME AFTER 3RD HOUR
I was shaking like I am not ready for that
so the whole hour I was trying to think of how I was gonna break it to him, and after 3rd hour I was trying to avoid him in the halls but he got me anyways and then he asked me and AGHJVKGJJGJFKF
I felt so bad, I told him I'd think about it and tell him later and he was so nice about it and everything
and then at 5th hour I yoinked cherry and bean out of their class before it started and told them that he asked me out ⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️
then they like talked to him at lunch I guess and then we had an assembly for veterans day and me and blueberry sat together and then I talked to him after it and everything's still like normal between us.
I just like I would've said yes, but there's two things.
1. I still am not over apricot (even though I should be its not my fault he's literally perfect) and it wouldn't be fair to date him and still have a crush on apricot.
2. IVE KNOWN HIM FOR BARELY 3 MONTHS 😭😭
I genuinely wanna be friends with him for longer before anything like that because I don't want anything to happen and the majority of our relationship just be us dating. like, what if we break up and then that's less time I get to spend with him. I wanna be friends and get to know him better before all that. I'm just not ready to date anyone else yet, I spent so much time being ready for apricot that I still like have my heart set on him
it would've been the same for apricot because I literally told him that I wanted to be friends so many times and he probably just thinks I wanna date him. (I do but thats not the point I'm trying to make)
like if apricot wants me he just has to say so 😰 (he doesn't)
anyways that's my new stuff, ill update as usual BYEBYBEBYEBYEBYEBYBBYEBYEBYEBYE