"Eh?"
Lay's head popped out beside me as he plucked out one of my earphones.
"Hmm?" I mumbled as I continued on writing my story.
I kind of struggling in writing my new chapter now actually.
"Why you change to Tao now?" He asked pouting as he pointed at my keyboard background.
"Why can't I change?" I shrugged as I say in a duh tone.
What's wrong with that anyway?
I found many Tao's picture which I think he's quite cool so yeah, I set it as my keyboard background.
"I thought you like seeing my face when you are writing." He said and I rolled my eyes.
What the heck?
Since when I say that? I never say something like that dude.
"I'm boring of looking at the same picture. I'll change again once I found a new one." I said and he snorted.
"Gosh, don't tell me you are boring of looking at my face." He said groaning as he sit down beside me.
I give him my poker face.
Huffff.
What did he just said?
NOT LOGIC AT ALL.
I sighed as I exit from the app that I use for my writing.
I hold my phone up to show him my wallpaper, "Do you look boring in my phone wallpaper?"
I asked and he look at my phone.
The next moment, he immediately tugged on his smile which I can see his dimples again.
Puffff.
Why he care about these things so much?
"You put Kyung soo earlier right?" He asked as he took my phone.
I nodded as I muttered while yawning, "Happy now?"
Gosh, I feel so tired.
"Don't change it." He said as he open my writing app.
I raised an eyebrows on him.
Dude, I plan on changing to Chanyeol after that.
"Why should I listen to you?" I asked and he snapped his head up from my phone screen.
"你就别换嘛~" he did aegyo as he shook my arm lightly while pouting.
(Trans: Don't change please~)
His cheeks is puffing out a lot as I have the urge to pinch his face.
Gosh, so cute ahhhhhhhh!
Okay, I scream silently in my heart so shhhhh.
Don't tell him, he will be smug later on urghh.
"See how first." I stick out my tongue to him as he's puffing out his lips now.
"放至少一个月？行不行？" He said and I widened my eyes.
(Trans: Put it for at least one month? Can?)
WHAT???
Why I always can't get his logic?
Is he trying to bargain with me for the duration of him staying in my wallpaper?
He is right?
"行嘛~嗯？" he linked his arms with mine as he lay his head on my shoulder and act like a spoil kid when I just look at him with my wide eyes.
(Trans: please~ okay?)
He look up at me as his face is quite close with mine and my heart are pounding fast.
OMG, OMG, OMG.
He is very close to me, I mean like just few inches away only.
O.O
"Nic~" he said in a sing-sang tone and I gulped.
My goose bump immediately stand up on my arm.
Goshhhhhhhhhhhhh!
What the hell is this?!
I can't get this guy seriously!
I quickly pulled my arm out from his hold, "行行行！你给我变回人样，我都起鸡皮疙瘩了！"
(Trans: Can can can! Back to your normal self, my goose bump is standing up!)
Gosh, I can't stand him doing aegyo!
Is worse than Tao!
He grinned in victory as he lifted his head up from my shoulder, "答应了就不能反悔。"
(Trans: You must keep your promise.)
I rolled my eyes, "反悔了我就是猪。"
(Trans: I'm a pig if I didn't keep my promise.)
I said while rubbing my shoulder.
Yucks.
His aegyo is seriously gross urgggh.
"这可是你说的哦。" He said while smiling and I rolled my eyes.
(Trans: This is what you said.)
Huffffff.
Stupid Xing Xing urghhh.
I can still change it even though I promise him.
:P
As long I still change it to him then it will be okay right?
RIGHT.
"我说的。" I said while showing out three fingers as a swearing pose.
(Trans: I promise.)
He nodded in satisfaction as he focused back on my phone while patting my head.
I rolled my eyes again.
Urghhh.
"Why didn't you continue?" He asked as he hold up my phone to me.
The screen is now presenting the new chapter that I'm writing.
I stopped halfway.
"I'm still thinking about it." I said and the corner of his mouth tugged upwards in a thinking manner.
Hmm?
"Is it because you had met Luhan so you couldn't think of those scene?" He asked as he look at Luhan who are standing outside of the shooting site, allowing the make up artist to do a touch up for him.
I turned around and look at him as he's closing his eyes while the make up artist is drawing his eyelashes for him.
Probably.
I don't know.
I'm trying to write a sweet scene for him and Nikki but I'm stuck halfway.
"I wanted to write something special but..." I mumbled as I'm staring at Luhan.
Sigh.
@.@
"Maybe I can help you?" I heard his voice right beside my ear as I shivered because of his breath brushing at my ear.
I immediately turned around without thinking of how close he might be to me actually as my forehead bumped onto his.
In a really hard manner pufff.
"Ouch!" We both winced in pain as we rubbed our forehead and he pulled away.
"Xing xing, why are you so close to me?!" I scolded as I took my spectacles off.
I massage the bridge of my nose as it hurts when our nose bumped on together too just now.
Gosh, I wear spectacles dude!
I think the frame of my spectacles is crooked now aisshhh!
"I didn't know that you will turn around suddenly!" He exclaimed and I rolled my eyes.
I wear my spectacles back as I saw his forehead turned red.
"Yah, you have to put your make up again. It's red." I said pointing at his forehead and he pouted.
"I just done my make up aisshh!" He grumbled as he stand up and went to the make up artist.
Not before giving me back my phone.
Huffff.
Blame yourself dude.
I look at Luhan who are done with his make up as Lay is the one who are standing infront of the make up artist now.
They are going to take an advertisement shooting for some kind of product which I couldn't remember what is it huffff.
Luhan saw me looking as he came to me.
"Why your forehead is red?" He asked as he pointed at it and I eventually look up.
I immediately looked back at him as I realize that I couldn't see my own forehead by that way lol.
-.-
Gosh, since when I became stupid too?
"Nothing." I said as I uses my fringe to cover my forehead and he just shrugged off.
"Are you writing again?" He asked as his gaze is on my phone which I'm holding it and I nodded.
"I'm stuck." I said and he took my phone.
I immediately cover the screen with my hand and he look at me in confused.
Heck, is he going to read it?
I seriously don't want him to look at me awkwardly for the whole day.
I can still remember when the others mentioned the chapter which I put a make out scene for him and Nikki, he was blushing furiously as he didn't dare to talk to me for the whole day.
"Are you sure you are going to read? What I wrote for the front part is a bit..." I stopped as I look at him carefully and he eventually started blushing again.
Huffffffff.
See, I told you.
Before he read it, he's already blushing!
I rolled my eyes, mentally this time.
He coughed out awkwardly, "I-I think it would be o-okay." He sputtered and I removed my hand from my phone screen.
He start scrolling it.
He's not going to be okay, he's not.
I'm sure about that but well, I just let him read it.
No matter when he read it, it's still the same.
He will still blush like a tomato urghh.
"You like it when someone open the door for you, putting on the seat belt for you and even kiss you after putting it on?" He asked with his red face and I widened my eyes.
I...
Gosh, why does he have to ask that?!
"I just picked those scene from the drama! Don't drama always do that?" I said in disbelief as I'm blushing too.
Huffffff.
You are really stupid Luhan, how can you ask that?
Urghh.
I think all girls like it right?
Even though they might say they don't but look, me as a girl, will still hope someone will do that to me.
But eh-hem, please exclude the kissing part puffff.
"I see..." He actually whispered in a tiny voice and I have to be very close to him so I was able to hear what he say.
"What?" I said and he swallow a lump on his throat.
He shook his head as he just continued on staring at my phone.
I hissed.
"Maybe we can bring you to Mindong tomorrow. Then you will have something to write." He said after he's done reading and passed me my phone back.
I looked at him in confused, "Tomorrow? You guys don't have schedule?"
I asked and he shook his head as he smile.
"Starting from tomorrow, we won't have any schedule for the next three week." He said and I widened my eyes.
Three weeks?!
That's a lot.
"Maybe you and Jann will need to go back to Malaysia earlier because we might not be staying in Korea." Chanyeol barked in as he heard us and he sit down on my other side.
"What?" I muttered and he nodded.
Noooooooooooooooo-
I wanted my holiday dude!
T.T
I don't want to work for this holiday!
If my father know this, he will want me to help him in his shop which I didn't like it.
It's not what I like to do and every time I'm helping him out, I got so stress.
He's basically forcing me to do it and I seriously don't like it.
I know I sounds so bad for saying something like that but hey, it's not that I didn't want to help them actually but my father always makes things difficult for me.
He always say something harsh to me which is basically forcing me to do it although I had told him that I don't like working at his shop.
I just hated the way he ask me.
"Urghh, I'll miss you for sure Candy!" I heard Kris's voice beside my ear as an arm wrapped me on my shoulder from behind.
He hugged me.
Back hug OMG.
"Can't I just stay in your dorm? I don't want to go back." I said and they sighed.
I can feel a lump on my throat as my eyes start to hurt.
Gosh.
Please let me stay.
It's so difficult for me to have a holiday like this!
"We wanted you both to stay too but Kai, Chen and Baekhyun is going to LA." The others came as Chanyeol said.
"We China's are going back to China to visit our family." Luhan said while Tao and Lay nodded as Kris let go of me.
He walked to the front to face me.
"Me and Chanyeol are going to Paris for holiday too." Xiumin said and Chanyeol nodded.
I looked at Suho and Kyung soo, "We are going to Taiwan." Suho said and Kyung soo nodded.
"No....." I muttered as I put on a crying face.
Jann won't have any problem but to me is different.
I'm not having a holiday when I go back.
I'm not.
I wanted to rest so bad from my exhausting college life.
I finally got a chance to come to Korea even though I'm still doing something like an assistant will do but I'm happy for it.
At least I'm happy doing it, really.
"Nicole, I know you must be sad because of the news but we can come and see you and Jann whenever we are free next time okay?" Tao said as now my vision became blur.
"Can't I just stay until the end of this month? It's okay if you guys are not here, I just don't want to go back so early."
I said and they sighed again.
"We can't let you stay in the dorm alone." Suho said.
"And it's impossible for us to delay the flight already." Kyung soo said.
"We had booked the flight few months ago. It will be wasted if we are not going." Chen said now as I look at him.
"I don't want to go b-back." I said with my voice cracking as I can feel myself at the edge of crying.
God, please don't be so cruel to me, please.
No one know how I feel when it come to this.
"Nic, we told your mom already. You need to go back after next week." Sehun said and I groaned.
"Your father wanted you to go back early too. I remember him saying something that he want you to help him in his shop." Xiumin said and I couldn't hold back my tears anymore.
No, not this!
I really don't want to go back!
"That is why I don't want to go back. I got no holiday anymore. He always want me to work because he think that for me working is consider resting already!" I cried as I said.
"OMG." They all muttered and widened their eyes once I cry as Tao immediately hold my face.
"No no no, don't cry Nicole. Don't cry." He wiped my tears away gently as he said.
"At least you can get money by working isn't it? It might not be so bad." Kai said and I shook my head.
"I didn't get a pay, I'm just working. I really don't want to work there, is so stress." I continued on muttered as I cried.
I seriously don't like crying but this is too much for me.
They might not understand but it's really a big thing to me.
"I'm not going to have a holiday like you think I will once I go back. I have to work until my next semester starts. So can't you guys let me stay here, in Korea? I can walk around on my own." I asked as I'm sobbing a little and Tao let go of my face.
They are looking at me with their sad eyes.
"We can't. You can't understand Korean." Kris said and I groaned.
My tears just continue to flow like a water tap.
Damn you stupid Korean.
I should have learn it huffff.
"And we told your mom already..." Luhan said as he hugged me.
I didn't hug back as I don't want my tears to drop in his shirt.
They haven't film the advertisement yet.
"Stop crying..." Chanyeol said as he rubbed my back.
"You guys don't understand how I feel. You don't. No one will. No one ever listen to me." I said as I struggle to stand up.
Luhan let go of me.
I need to go out to get some fresh air puffff.
I use my sleeve to wipe my face and my tears is still flowing non stop!
Urghhh, I hate this, I hate to be weak!
"Nic," Suho called but my phone rang suddenly.
I look at it and saw a familiar number.
Why now? Why?
I took in a deep breath as I try my best to stop my crying.
I don't want her to know that I'm crying because I have to go back.
I know they will be hurt if I say I'm not coming back to help.
But.....
They are looking at me as I slide the answer button and put my phone to my ears.
"M-Mom?" I called as my mom's voice immediately chimed in.
"Hey honey! How's your holiday in Korea? Having fun?" She asked and I smile bitterly.
The bitterness in my heart is just too strong until I can taste that my mouth became bitter too after crying.
"Yeah, we are having a lot of fun. They are going to bring me and Jann out tomorrow since they don't have schedule." I said in a calm voice as my cry had died down.
They are looking at me in worried.
My mom chuckled, "Remember to buy something for your brother when you come back!"
"I will. Don't worry." I said and she went quiet for awhile.
I know she's going to say it, I know.
I'm just waiting for her to tell me.
"Hmm, honey?" She called and I can feel my eyes start to tear up again.
I sat back on the chair as I bend down my waist while hiding my face between my legs.
I know I'm going to cry again.
"Erm, do you know that you have to come back after next week? You are not going to stay in Korea for one month." She said.
"Hmm..." I mumbled, indicating as a Yes while biting my lips.
My tears formed a pool of water on my skinny jeans.
"Your father wants you to work..." she said and I cry even more.
She always knew that I don't like working there.
She knew it but she have no choice once my father is the one who says so.
"I know. They told me just now." I manage to say without my voice cracking as I feel someone wrapped an arm on my waist from my right.
I assumed that is Chanyeol because he's sitting on my right just now.
"I know you don't like it but.." she said and I cut her off.
"I know what you want to say. I'll come back after one week." I said after taking in a deep breath.
"Honey, you can always say no if you really don't want to." She said and I actually wanted to yell.
Who say that I can say no?
If I could, I won't be crying here now!
"He won't listen." I said and she went quiet.
My father is a stubborn person, you couldn't change him although you proof that he's wrong.
Because he will still says that he's RIGHT.
"Do you still have something to say? International call is very expensive mom." I said and she hissed.
"I miss you honey, bye." She said and I just ended the call.
I took my spectacles out again as I hold it in my hand.
Gosh, all my tears dropped on the glass and it's blur already.
"Nic, are you okay?" Kyung soo asked and I make no respond.
Do you think I'm okay?
-_-
I stood up from my place as Chanyeol let go of my waist.
I placed by phone and earphones together with my spectacles in to my bag.
"Just call me when you finish." I muttered as I walked out from the studio.
I need some time to calm down.
I'm crying too much.
Why on earth do you need to cry Nic?
You used to it already isn't it? Is no big deal for you.
"Ahhhhhh!" I screamed as I grabbed my hair in frustration.
Just how can I be used to it? I can't convince myself!
I sit down on the floor as I pull my knees up to my chest and hugged it.
Helpless, I seriously felt so helpless now.
Just face the truth Nic, it's not going to change even though you cry.
It's not.