Sun
I was hypnotized. Completely hypnotized. Chloe touched my arm softly and got me back to reality. I wasn't even sure for how long we were standing there, shaking hands. We were still looking into each other's eyes and he was still looking at me in the same way.. fireworks lit up in my head.. I couldn't understand what was happening to me.
"Sun..." I heard Chloe's voice and finally let his hand go and looked at her. Everyone was waiting for us, staring at us. That felt so awkward and I was really embarrassed. All I could do was stare at him and it seemed like it was the same with him.. that made me worry because I was afraid of where this was going. I didn't want it to go anywhere.
I cleared my throat and started walking with them. We started out little tour. He was right behind me and that however... that made me nervous. I could feel that he was there, I could feel his eyes on me.. I started questioning every move of mine. I caught myself asking myself if I was looking weird while walking or something.
"You're blushing!" Chloe whispered and looked at me eyes widened. I covered my cheeks with my hands. It was the beginning of the day and my feelings were already all over the place. I was definitely overwhelmed and irritated. My whole body was so... it felt like I got a strong electric shock and was going to melt in a few seconds. That wasn't normal but I guessed that it was the causal affect of the new hot student..
I was trying so bad to not turn around and look at him.. He was just so handsome and I wanted to know if he was really looking at me.. I took a deep breath and tried to get myself back together.
I thought about his voice and how it made me feel. He seemed so unbothered.. confident and maybe a little bored. Like he would know that the world domination was going to be his very soon and he was just wasting his time here. Like he was the son of a king or something and could do whatever he wanted.
My stomach dropped to the core when I found out that we were going to go to the same class..
Moon
Of course I skipped school because of our 'exercises'. I was beyond exhausted, tired and hungry. For the first time I felt like a baby that just wanted to sleep in the lap of its mother.
He made me jump from rooftop to rooftop, run miles, and he taught me how to drive without looking at the road and under ever circumstance. I was scared that he would break my leg or arm just so I could get used to the pain or learn how to keep going like that.
We wen't out to eat something after we were done. We decided to eat out because we both knew that we were going to fall asleep as soon as we would take a step into our home. I was eating and almost sleeping at the same time.
I was so hungry and he was proud. Even if he wasn't showing me that, I knew it.
He was a very strict and cold sometimes but I knew his funny, amazing, cool and badass sides. It was amazing to have a dad like him.
"You did a great job today!" he said very seriously. He was smiling. I tried to smile back but I was afraid I couldn't because I was close to faint of sleeplessness.. "Thanks dad!" I said and took another bite of my burger while his fries went cold. He leaned in and got more serious.
"Moon, never forget that you're special. You're not one of the normal boys on your school."
That was true.. I really wasn't normal.. I wasn't like this. Not only with the gang stuff.. but with every other thing as well.
It started raining whenever I cried.
And whenever I got angry, grey clouds apart and the thunders and lightnings that they caused were so loud and scary that even I was scared of myself sometimes. When I freaked out, the storms almost destroyed the city. All the thunders, lightnings, the rain and the storms weren't only in my head.. they were real. That's why my family was so scared to make me angry.
But that was my superpower that nobody knew about and I was enjoying it.
Of course I didn't cry since I was nine.
"You're different and you need to take care of yourself and protect yourself before anyone tries to ruin you!"
He was right with everything.. that's what I was thinking of every day. So I nodded.
I would never let anyone ruin me.
"Be careful. Especially about with girls." he added and I looked at him.
"They'll make you believe that they're not like the other girls.. they'll say things to fool you. Then they'll make you fall in love with them.. find your weakness and leave you."
He was talking like he went through it like a hundred times. I wasn't sure if I should be worried or not.
"So have fun with them and be the one who leaves them."
I nodded again.
Sun
After lunch I was almost about to lose it because we were sitting together in one class.
Of course I wasn't the only one who already had a crush on him because the way all the girls looked at him, showed how popular he already was. I mean I didn't have a crush.. he was just really attractive and I couldn't take my eyes off him. I just wanted him to look at me one last time so I could see his bright eyes that did something to me..
Oh my god.. I had a crush on him..
That was so dumb. I didn't even know him. It was so unbelievably stupid to have crush on him only because of his physical appearance. What if he was a douchebag? What if he was a sexist or disgusting or something? All I knew was his name and that he was a badboy and extremely handsome.
I looked at him.. Actually I was trying to concentrate but that was impossible when he was sitting in front of me like that...
How could I have a crush on someone? I wasn't in middle school and I didn't even have a crush in middle school. I've never had that before at all! I was always busy with school, sports and other stuff. A lot of guys asked me out and asked me for prom and other things but I never went out with them. I never had a boyfriend or my first kiss.
I was a helpless romantic. I was waiting for the right guy because I wanted it to be something serious. I wanted love that's problematic and unconditional. I wanted to fight for it and I wanted that person to love me a lot. I wanted to be happy and built a family. I wanted someone who was harsh to everybody except me. I wanted to be his only weakness and soft side. I wanted it to be like it was in the movies and books..
My dad would've killed me if he would've known about this all. About this whole situation and what I wanted. Especially if he would've know that Dean always kept looking over at me with that devilish smirk.. I almost got a heart attack every time he did that. And every time when he turned back around, I bit my lip and felt like I was in heaven.
Chloe noticed that and of course I told her how I felt and that was going on with me, hoping she would slap these thoughts and feelings out of me. I wanted her to tell me that I was stupid so I could stop questioning myself.. She told me that this this was normal but I still didn't feel well about it because I didn't want to fall for someone who was going to break my heart. Someone who just wanted a relationship that wasn't serious.
I was such an innocent and shy girl.. and he was danger.. trouble.. and fire in person. He was the opposite of me. The way he licked his lips and put his hands on his thighs when he was sitting or looking at me... made me feel like I couldn't breathe.
And when he took off his jacket I stopped breathing for a second.. I could see his muscular arms.. his arms were completely covered with tattoos and a few scratches.. he also had a bandage on the top of his left arm. It looked like there was a deep wound underneath it. His tattoos.. were so dark and seemed so meaningful..
There was a white pigeon on his wrist right there where his radial artery was. It seemed like a release dove with a green leaf in its beak. I wanted to know what it was standing for. I wanted to now what it meant to him because it was so outstanding from all the other tattoos.
I couldn't stop staring at his arms.. I almost studied every tattoo and I started asking myself about its meanings. Or where these wounds and the bandage came from. Suddenly he was so interesting to me.. I definitely wanted to know more than his name.
I could always concentrate on class, no matter what but this time.. I just couldn't no matter how much I tried and somehow I didn't even want to.. he was more interesting than what our teacher was talking about.
I looked around and I wasn't the only girl who was staring at him. Why was this bothering me?
Dean
I was always switching schools, so I got used to it and didn't bother with anything because I would still have enough time for that. This time I was going to stay..
Making new friends all the time, getting used to deadass annoying teachers and catching up with the exams and other things were some of the things that got easy for me after doing it like a hundred times. I got used to all these looks from judging people, annoying girl who started crushing and the teachers who were thinking that I was a bully.. But to be honest I couldn't care less.
I knew myself so well that I didn't have to worry about what they were thinking. I was probably going to break another girls heart -or a lot of girls hearts-, make some friends... get some good grades and leave then again. But only if my dad wanted it and I was sure that he wanted me to stay this time.
That all happened over and over again because of my dad. It wasn't easy to be an asshole, douchebag and a fuckboy at the same time when you had to take care of your dads secrets. But that was my nature and I couldn't control it.
Anyway.. the day went pretty well because I already had a new friend. He was one of the new ones just like me. His name was Brody and he was just like me. Not exactly but you know.. he was a player who didn't give a damn about anything but he was softer than me.
I mean who wasn't a fuckboy these days? Even that word was totally normal. Girls wanted assholes who were treating them bad. They wanted someone who was grumpy and mean. Normal boys never had a chance. So we had to change the game. But I wasn't being like that because they wanted it. I was like that since I cant to this planet.
The best thing about it was how well we understood each other. I didn't plan to make a best friend because that was so girly and disgusting but it wasn't that boring anymore.
"You already picked a girl?" he asked raising a brow. I knew that he meant a girl to fool around with. His smirk was curious..
I was actually pretty bored about this kind of stuff since it was too easy but I knew how boring this year was going to be since they already put me into the wrong class so I decided to play.
I turned my head around and looked at this girl.. Sun..
Her long blonde hair was really pretty. Her small pointy nose and her plump lips were perfect.. her honey eyes were so huge that she reminded me of a doll. Her skin was tanned and her legs that I could see under the pretty dress that she was wearing were perfect. She seemed so fragile and tiny.. one of the girls that every guy wanted but she wasn't a hoe. She was one of the shy and innocent ones..
She was listening to the teacher and as her eyes met mine, she got nervous.. I could see that. I saw how she blushed and looked away.
That was good.
I turned back around to Brody.
"Yeah, I did." I said nodding and he started laughing like a villain. I rolled my eyes.
When the period ended, I told Brody that he could leave because I was going to talk to her first.
She was writing something into her notebook. Taking her last notes with her pretty handwriting..
I stopped in front of her table and leaned against the table behind me. I just watched her.. until she slowly looked up at me. Her eyes were shining. I tiled my head and she stood up to close her notebook and put the papers away. She was a little clumsy, too nervous.. Poor little girl.. what was she thinking? I had to laugh.
She squeezed her hair behind her ear and tried to smile but I could see that she was way too nervous.. She looked at my arms and for a second I actually thought that she was scared of me..
"I wanted to ask you something." I said and crossed my arms in front of my chest. She looked into my eyes and swallowed. Damn she was kinda hot.. something about her turned me on.. like a lot. And for some reason I felt like I knew her. Like I've known her my entire life. Something about her seemed so.. conversant.. That was so damn weird.
She just nodded politely.. She just couldn't take her eyes off me and I couldn't take mine of her.
I bit my lip and tried to act innocent but I wasn't good at it.
"Could you give me your number?" I came straight to the point and she looked at me eyes widened. She definitely didn't expect this. I didn't either. I had no plan, I just wanted her number and mess around a little.
I looked down at her once again and saw the excitement in her face. She looked like I asked her to merry me. These girls were so stupid. One seductive look and they were ready to melt in your hands. I wanted to know how far I could take it with her.. how far this beautiful, innocent girl would go with me. Why did I want her so much? She was turning me on..
"Yes!" she said very happily. This was going to be easier than I thought.
She grabbed a little pink post-it and wrote her number down on it. Why the hell was she giving me something pink? I hated this girly stuff. She was just like the other girls. Annoying, clingy and girly. Well she was one of these cotton candy girls. Her world was completely pink with unicorns and a lots of glitter.
She handed me her number. I asked myself why she didn't just type it into my phone. Probably because I didn't give it to her.. I just stopped thinking, looked at it and smirked.
"I'll text you after school.." I said in a way that would make her even more nervous and get her knees weak.. and I knew that she already was addicted to me..
She nodded very fast, smiling and trying to show off how nervous she was...