Best friend and Rejection
" Happy birthday lover boy " Bati ko kay Harris .
" Thanks sweetie, by the way how's your relationship with Erick? Wala na kong balita damn," natatawang sabi niya.
" We're still on the same ground Ris, hindi kame lumevel up di gaya ng inisip mo" sabay hampas at naki pagtawanan na rin sa kanya.
" Oh? And speaking of the dèvil...Hi pare! Salamat at nakarating ka. I know you're quite busy," Nakipag high five pa Kay Erick.
Pero tilang walang narinig si Erick sa mga sinabi ni Harris sa kanya dahil ang buong atensyon niya ay nasa akin.
" Oh I guess both of you need some...okay see you around pare, Nick. " nagmamadaling alis ni Harris.
This is awkward. Wala man lang gustong magsalita sa aming dalawa, like we're strangers to each other.
" Oh balita ko may bago ka naman ah? " nagsalita na ko para matapos na tong coldness.
" You saw the picture? I didn't even know that was posted"
Talaga? Eh sino? Yung nanay mo? O yung aso niyo?
" Who cares right? Wala namang masama doon, you're single and ready to-"
" Please stop that Nick, I don't want you to get involve to my own issues okay? " Okay, I got it. Fucking got it.
Nang may dumaan sa harap namin na waiter na may dala dalang glass of wine ay kumuha ako and drank it straight. Di ko na alam kung pano ko pa pakakalmahin ang puso kong nag huhurimintado dahil sa galit na nararamdaman ko.
" I don't want to ruin this night, so care to dance with me? Bestfriend," para akong nakamighty bond sa kinatatayuan ko sa narinig ko sa kanya. I didn't expect to hear this from him and it really hits me. So much. Take it easy Nick, calm yourself.
Wala na rin akong nagawa kaya nagpatianod na lang ako sa paghila niya sa akin papuntang dance floor.
The first time that I saw you
Looking like you did,
We were young
We were restless
Just two clueless kids,
But if I knew then
What I know now
I'd fall in love.
" So, what happened to you this past few weeks? "
" Nothing much so interesting. Same thing , same old. " hindi ko magawang makipag titigan sa kanya kaya kung saan saan gumagala ang mga mata ko.
" Don't say that nothing on you is interesting , cause in the first place that you caught my attention...that . made . me interested on you."
'cause love only comes
Once in a while
And knocks on your door
And throws you a smile
" Okay. So ikaw? Anong mga pinagkaka abalahan mo? " except sa pambabae?
" Stalking someone " yeah, thank you for that wonderful answer.
" Ikaw ? Magiging stalker ? Talaga? " natatawang sabi ko para gumaan gaan naman ang atmosphere sa pagitan naming dalawa.
"Yeah, fascinating right? "
" Ah, Erick.. there's something-" biglang na putol ang dapat kong sasabihin ng mag ring ang kanyang phone, bahagya syang lumayo sa akin para sagutin ito.
" Hello baby? Yes of course i'll drop by there. Yeah me too.. okay don't stress your self - wait what? now? but- okay. Wait me there by 10 mins. I love you too. " and then he ended the call .
" Go ahead kelangan ka na niya. "
" I'll see you then, thanks Nick "
And takes every breath,
Leaves every scar,
Speaks through your soul
And sings to your heart
But if I knew then
What I know now
I'd fall in love
Gusto kong bawiin ang sinabi ko pero huli na . Gusto ko siyang habulin at mag makaawa sa kanya na ako na lang ang piliin niya. Na ako na lang. Pero para san pa? Magmumuka lang ako tanga sa kanya.
At tuluyan na siyang umalis dahilan para maiwan ako sa gitna nang mag isa.
Ang luhang kanina ko pa pinipigilang bumagsak ay parang nagpapaligsahan na lumabas sa mga mata ko. It really hurt to see him walking away from you cause he chooses the girl na never ko pang nakilala.
Ginawa ko na ang lahat ng makakaya ko. Ito na ata ang pinaka pinakang masaklap na nangyare sa unang pag Ibig ko .Parang mas gusto ko na lang maglaho sa kinatatayuan ko ngayon.
Love leaves you a scar, a deep scar that even it takes a lot of time it'll never be healed. What he gaves me is a permanent scar of rejection.
At sa wakas ay nagkaroon na rin ng closure ang lahat ng ito.