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"I felt as if I didn't belong, And I felt as if i'm not sick enough" Alfie struggles with the concept of food. He loves it, he hates it and just wants to find peace with it and within himself. He wants to make up with his body, his mind but he's lost all control so he's finding it hard to live. Alfie Hailo, a 16 year old swimmer, has been struggling with food since the age of 13. His parents put him in dance class when he was 6 but he was getting bullied as he got older, so decided to quit and choose a more 'masculine' sport.His father also left the family home 2 years prior and has been struggling to understand why. He has amazing friends, and an amazing family who love and care for him dearly but, he doesn't feel this. He feels like he has to be perfect. With the pressure of school, and having to keep up to the social norms of a professional swimmer, it's hard for Alfie to concentrate. He needs the help. And to do this, Alvin helps. Alvin helps him find his worth, take control, and makes his life easier, or so he seems. His best friends, Killian and Ruby, know Alfie inside and out. They know his family life, school life. And this is because Alfie is a simple person. He has never had a detention, nor has he been expelled. He's a straight A student with no history of alcohol or drug abuse. Will they suspect anything? How will Alfie proceed with his excruciating pain. Will he cover it up or will he find the courage to speak up and seek help?

"𝑩𝒂𝒃𝒚 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌 𝒔𝒐 𝒉𝒐𝒕 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒅𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒔, 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒍𝒆𝒕'𝒔 𝒔𝒆𝒆 𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝒚𝒐𝒖'𝒍𝒍 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌 𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒊𝒕 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒔𝒄𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒚 𝒏𝒂𝒎𝒆." An 18-year-old girl, Aurora, grew up with somewhat loving parents. Her mother cared so dearly for her and so did her father...kind of. He neglected her but paid more attention to her older brother. He paid more attention to him because he wanted him to take over his spot as the mafia boss. After all, her brother was the heir. Her mother loved Aurora but turned out to be half-neglectful. She pays attention to Aurora, just not the way she should. Aurora ended up being the one to take over, but she and her best friend ended up being kidnapped beforehand. All of her and her dad's plans went downhill afterward. She fell in love with her kidnapper and her best friend, Lola who is also 18, fell in love with the kidnapper's best friend. How would this turn out? Would Aurora's parents find out and take her back? Will there be a happy ending or not? You must read to find out!! (𝐌𝐲 𝐟𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤! 𝐈'𝐦 𝐞𝐱𝐜𝐞𝐩𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐝𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤/𝐚𝐝𝐯𝐢𝐜𝐞. 𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐤 𝐲𝐨𝐮!)

Faith is learning a whole new life it seams from how she grew up. New York City has new adventures and new people to discover. A particularly outgoing best friend will help push her into new things. Come along with her as she learns about a world that everyone else seams so comfortable in. Will her friend introducing her to new faces nearly everywhere she goes lead to something more than she ever expected. Faith has a lot to adjust to compared to what she is used to, will the people who tried to shape her growing up still play a role in how she lives now? Strict rules to follow and always the possible guilt of doing something your not supposed to always looming over her head. Can someone trying to escape a super controlling and strict religious upbringing, find themselves in the big city. Will Faith find confidence in herself to finally be comfortable, or will she remain strict on keeping her past a secret. Will she find unknown feelings in her best friends older brother? Even though secrets surround his darker side that she isn't used to. Faith has a whole future to fill full of new things for herself. What or who will she fill it with? ~~Listen, there are probably going to be triggering aspects to this story as it goes so please use your best judgement, and only read if you are in a safe enough headspace to read a story containing those things. Keep yourself safe first. TW~ abuse, eating disorder, body image issues, spiritual abuse, rape. I will try to update this list if anything needs to be added Also this is going to be like the opposite of those books romanticizing super strict religious lives. Nothing against them if it works for you, those views just aren't going to be in this book. Some of this story will be based on my own experiences dealing with some of the aspects of this story.

A story, in which a typical teenage girl falls for the school's bad boy. Except, she's not that typical and he's not that much of a bad boy. *** "If I told you that I care about you, more than anyone in your life does, would you believe me?" He asked me, his jaw clenched. I could tell he was furious. Yet somehow, I wasn't scared of him. "No" I shook my head bravely. "If I told you,'' He tried again, closing his eyes and taking a deep breath before continuing.''That you make me so fucking mad, I want to punch a fucking wall. What would you say?" He had me trapped now, my back painfully colliding with the wall behind me. I gasped at the impact, looking up into his icy grey eyes. They were cold, emotionless. As always. "Do it!" I dared him with the last ounce of courage I had left in me. The sound of his fist smashing through the wall right next to my head, made my ears ring for a brief moment. I opened my mouth to speak again, shaking slightly, only for him to pull away and leave me standing there alone. ____ !!Warning!! This story contains strong language, mature scenes, alcohol and drug consumption, and sensitive topics like - eating disorders, bullying, mental health, etc. ___ HIGHEST RANKINGS: 1st in #ed, 1st in #badboysgirl, 8th in #victim, 9th in #rehabilitation, 13th in #youngadult

♭♩♭ Alex White, A 23-year-old running from her past all the time. Moving from city to city, town to town even from different states to get away from her past life. This all happened 6 years ago. When her older brother want missing. Her life took a big turn for the worst when that happened and she's never been the same sense. But, she still has the passion of doing the one thing she loves, singing. She's not very well known around but that won't stop her from doing the one thing that's keeping her sane. Besides her best friend Sam. She get's hit hard from her multiply mental illness that she got after her brother vanished and from the multiply guys that played her. But, you know what they say, there are going to be bumps a long the road. And that's what happened when she moved to New York and lived next to a crazy hot, hazel eyed, male named Ethan Perez. That's when life started to really get bumpy. Will her life become better when she moves to New York? Will she have to move again when times get tough and her past comes back to haunt her? Dose a certain someone make her stay? Or dose she find out what happened to her brother well she is there? Well, let's read and find out..... ♭♩♭ ⚠️Warning!⚠️ This story has Mature Contact, talks/participates in Mental Health Issue along with Self-Harm, Physical Contact, Drug, Swearing, and Alcohol Abuse. If you have a problem and or it may trigger you, I recommend skipping this book because they talk, do, and see these things in the story. (I will be pointing out the contact that happens in each chapter so don't you worry about that.) P.S...... DO NOT STEAL ANY OF MY WORK FROM THIS BOOK! THESE ARE MY IDEAS AND NO ONE ELSE'S! Thank you!😁

There's nothing more challenging than a teenager trying to meet up with school,friends,love,parent,sibling and church. Emma is a 17 years old high school student who is considered a duff in her friends group,fat,ugly and dumb. It goes beyond that,when she realizes something,"our insecurities are just something we never notice not untill someone point it out" she have to learn how to live with it. Because,"the world doesn't stop just because Emma devinal is depressed" ~~ ~ ~ ~~ ~ ~~ ~ ~ ~~ ~ ~ ~ Scott Adam is seen as the school most baddest boy, because he smokes,drinks and is a sex addict. He carries alot of pain growing up,and as a result turn into drugs to help him. People say high school love is nothing but joke and fun,watch as everything turns out different in their time. Life becomes more fun and painful when they both cross path.

What are the odds of moving to a new state, and having to live with the hottest family in school- no, scratch that. The hottest family in the WORLD. Some would say I'm the luckiest girl in history. Some would say I walked straight into hell. Amelia has to adjust with living in the same house as a family of ten children. Nine boys - one girl. With the arrest of their father, they are left with nothing but a mother who works too much, and each other. Alex Fuentes involuntarily gets involved with his father's boss - a dangerous man with too much money and a couple of jobs for eighteen year old Alex. It's either him or one of his other brothers. There is simply no way of saying no. Is Amelia the only one who notices him sneaking out, and coming home with bloodied knuckles? But how can you help someone who doesn't want to be helped? And what the heck are you supposed to do when you fall for the only Fuentes brother who hates you? A Spanish family filled with secrets. A boy caught up in the dangerous world his dad left behind. A girl who gets all too curious about where he goes at night. It's a recipe for disaster. WARNING: contains mature scenes, drug use and vulgar language.

"If you love me, you won't leave me." Jessie has believed those words from her boyfriend, Josh, since senior year of high school. She loves him and doesn't want to leave him. Not even when he shouts at her and hits her. Jessie's best friend, Kolleen, can't stand seeing her in that situation. With a bit of convincing - and the worst beating she'd ever received - Jessie agrees to move into an apartment with Kolleen. But not long after, Jessie is scared the worst of her nightmares will soon become a reality. Josh goes missing, and suddenly Jessie would swear she's being followed. One night changes everything, and one person soon changes Jessie's outlook. A responding officer from that fateful night begins to seek her out, at first claiming it's part of his job. As she spends time with her new friend outside of his job, she starts realizing that her feelings are evolving. After being abused for over a year, Jessie is terrified she's falling in love. What's even more terrifying is that he might be, too. She isn't ready for love. Not yet. She makes up her mind that if he is falling, and if he does love her, he'll wait for her to be ready, and if she loves him, she won't let herself hurt him. Can the words that used to cage her in really be the key to her freedom? --- Featured On: @NA: Take a seat and let it be | Mature Content and 18+ reading list @NA: You deserve the world | Mental Health reading list Ambys Top Picks New Adult 2023

⚠️ Warning!!⚠️ ⚠️ Contains mature content such as smut, violence, language and drug use⚠️ "Life is a cruel lottery-misfortune rains on all, while fleeting blessings tease only a few. For people like me, the darkness clings like damp rot, and any flicker of light snuffs out before it can warm the soul." "You might be different," he said, voice soft. "There's goodness in you." I laughed, a bitter edge cutting through. "After the wreckage I've left behind? No, I'm no exception. And neither are you." In a world crawling with criminals, where mobsters pull the strings and masks hide every face, beauty is just a lure for the unwary. The most breathtaking places? They're the deadliest traps. Kaleb Amato, Ridgewood High's golden quarterback, reigns with swagger and a mind sharp as a blade. A bright future gleams ahead-arrogant, untouchable. A hero? Hardly. Mia Langley, a firecracker with a tongue like a whip and a mind in splinters, storms back after two years in a brutal boot camp. Sweet? Innocent? The idea's a punchline. She's home now, but DyverCity's first rule has slipped her mind: don't let its seductive shimmer fool you. This city's a Venus flytrap-get caught in its jaws, and you're not getting out alive. Currently editing-

Alexandra Queen, she has never had a normal childhood. Her and her mother were abused by her father and his friend, John. Day in and day out. Their joy was her pain and suffering. No one knew of Alexandra's life at home. She was so good at hiding it, that even her own best friends didn't know what was going on. Alexandra eventually became a natural at hiding her pain from everyone. But one day her father stopped coming home. The abuse towards her and her mother stopped. No more drunken father or John beating and yelling at them. They were left alone. Free from them. They lived in peace for years. They were afraid of him coming back at first but when he didn't, they started their lives again. Willing themselves to push past their past. They began to rebuild themselves. But all that changed senior year. It seemed all fine at first. She made new friends and school was going great. She was ready to graduate. Then everything began to go downhill fast. Old friendships came back to haunt her. Secrets come to light and worst of all, they come back. Alexandra didn't think it could get worst then how she lived her childhood. But how very wrong she was. She then learns what it really meant to get the raw end of life. Follow as Alexandra deals with more then she thought she could handle. Alexandra might be strong willed but nothing could possibly prepare for what was to come. [Please keep in mind that this story is a very fast paced story. It does have around 40 chapters so it might not seem like it. But trust me that it is.] ||Full Disclosure|| I started the book in the end of 8th grade so it needs MAJOR editing. It also does have Sexual Chapters, as well as people of the same sex being together, murder, brutally torture talk of rape and sexual harassment. So if you do not wish to read things like that then this unfortunately isn't the book for you. ||You Have Been Warned|| First book in the Heart series. •Do Not Copy This Book In Anyway•