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𝐢 𝐡𝐚𝐝 𝐧𝐨 𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐚 (𝐫𝐢𝐜𝐡𝐩𝐞𝐳)

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im-still-mad-and-sad

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"I had no idea." "None of us did." "What do we do now?" "I don't know."

Lauren's toxic relationship really took a toll on her mental health, he convinced her she deserved every piece of abuse he hurled at her. As a result, Lauren hasn't been treating herself well... at all. 

How will everyone react when they find those cuts, when they see her cry, when they realise she's not eating? 

Is it possible that her troubles will bring her something greater than she ever could have imagined?

I have no idea...

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published: wednesday 22nd december 2021

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