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I'm out the ER! Yayyyyyyyy!
          
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I'm going to personally eat your dry wall and you're gonna let me do it.

And the end of the saga...all of my ex friends turned on me. They all hate me and believe the rumors my ex is spreading. My ex won.
          
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Guess that ends it. She unfollowed me and changed her pfp. I told her that I expected her to reject me again and she left. I sobbed. She put herself in the pits. And now she followed me again but I'm not sure why. I think someone may have scolded her for pulling the same move that her abusive ex did on her all that time ago. Either way, I'm lonely. Again...
          
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Well. I fucked up.
          I thought I had a girlfriend. But apparently, I don't.
          Here's the rundown.
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          When she first told me she wanted to be with me, it was her saying ooc, and that ic flirting is fine. Ooc, means out of character and ic is in character respectfully (it's a roleplay thing). She told me that she didn't mind being mine ooc and I was so happy because it was finally my chance to love her, and I've been nothing but romantic to her for the last two days. I told my friends and they said "no they meant ic not ooc" and everyone got confused. Then, one of my friends went to her and I spoke to her myself after that, and she said that she made a typo and didn't edit by accident and panicked at the moment I was speaking to her, and said she was terrified of being ooc but she would continue to be ooc (here's her words: "I’m genuinely terrified but I’ll continue the ooc" "I don’t wanna hurt you but my intention was IC"), and she isolated. I panicked, and spiraled because I actually thought we were together, but she said she forgot to edit the message. I was sobbing because I lost her as soon as I had her. She said to have clarified after but I didn't understand it/missed the memo.
          
          After her and I calmed down, we talked about it and she apologized because her intention was ic rp relationship and not irl ooc relationship. I apologized although I didn't necessarily need to. I told her that I personally thought she said "I'll be ooc with you" out of panic (in which she did), and her words are as follows: "I panicked because maybe if I forced myself out of my comfort zone and still tried ooc- I’d probably like it?". She said she needed time to think if she really wants this, and she's disappeared.
          
          I'm not really sure if love is for me. I've been fighting for her for two years and we've been back and forth. She even admitted she has an actual crush on me but can't come out the comfort zone. I feel like I've done something wrong.
          
          Maybe I'm meant to be alone.
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Guys, I went and:
          ? Had my birthday on the 21st and celebrated with bowling 
          ? Celebrated my older gay brother's birthday yesterday 
          ? Get to go to another birthday dinner this Saturday 
          And, the biggest development...
          ? I am no longer single 
          Yep! I'm taken y'all! I have the most beautiful girlfriend everrrrrr. She's so wonderful. We got together on my brother's birthday! 
          So, Happy Pride, friends!
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Happy birthday to me
          Happy birthday to me
          I still have nobody
          Happy birthday to me
          
          I'm now 19. Nice.
          
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I'm 19 tomorrow. On the 21st. I'm an adult. Finally...
          
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ANSWER MEEEEEEEEE WHY DO YOU LEAVE ME SO FUCKING DRYYYYYY UGHHHHHH
          
          Not me questioning my sexuality due to my faith LMAO-
          
          I'M A FAG. BUT I LOVE GOD. BUT IS BEING A FAG A BAD THING? I DUNNO! I'LL PRAY ABOUT IT-
          
          Lord help me I'm so sleepy it's 4:52 am.
          
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Happy Pride. I'm now 11 days closer to being 19. How wonderful is that? 
          
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