ShelbzLemonadeMaker

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CrispyLilacPetalz

are you still alive

ShelbzLemonadeMaker

@CrispyLilacPetalz Sorry I didn’t mean to worry you
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CrispyLilacPetalz

don't worry abt it I just got concerned
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ShelbzLemonadeMaker

@CrispyLilacPetalz Yes I am don’t worry, I’m sorry I never replied I’ve had a lot going on this month and got sort of caught up in it
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CrispyLilacPetalz

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this is super random and i apologize for saying this literally years later and but i always wanted to be your friend i was just too scared to ask, i think you're an awesome writer (even if the works are old as shit) and i just thought you were cool frs
          i don't know if you'd recognize me but i had also made a msm fanfic (which was reasonably taken down for reasons i can't say.) but yea I just wanted to say that because to had never gotten the chance to if you need someone to talk to, i got discord

CrispyLilacPetalz

no its fine dw i can be awkward myself lmao, i can come off as mean when im not i get it
            my frqs are off so if you a discord tag js lmk :^)  
            -vin
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ShelbzLemonadeMaker

@CrispyLilacPetalz Thank you so much for messaging me, I never knew. I wish you would have told me sooner
            I would love to talk to you but just as a fair warning I do have social anxiety so friendships are a little bit difficult for me I hope you understand
            I’m happy you like my writing, even if I haven’t really had the motivation to write a full length fic in quite some time. From the sound of it I think you found me from Is It Cold Down Here, that’s actually one of my favorites that I’ve ever written, even if it hasn’t really held up too well quality-wise
            Please don’t be shy to talk to me I’ve found that I can be weird or offputting sometimes but I’m not mean I don’t think, if you truly want to talk to me then please feel free that might actually be nice right now
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ShelbzLemonadeMaker

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Good fucking riddance, 2024. This has been the worst year of my life. And not even in an entertaining way like 2020 where you can laugh with friends about how much of a trainwreck it is, it’s just been depressing and long. I’ve been sick for more than half of it, we’ve moved like 4 times, I just want this year to be over. If 2025 can be even just a LITTLE less bad than this one, that would be something. But knowing the trajectory our life is currently going in, I have a feeling the worst is yet to come.
          Fuck off, 2024.

ShelbzLemonadeMaker

@WinxfnafcarsPrincess Thank you for thinking of me, it means a lot. I’m glad you liked the fic, it’s one of my favorites and I want to write a better version of it someday. I hope you have a wonderful day/night
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WinxfnafcarsPrincess

@ShelbzLemonadeMaker  it’s been a few months since you made these posts and I’m not good at putting comforts into words but I am so so sorry you are going through all this trouble and pain  please know you aren’t alone in this trouble and that there are truly people who love you and Jesus??, no matter what is always there he is true love and true forgiveness. And if you ever need to talk or anyone to pray with please contact me. I won’t ever judge you and please know if you ever need help I’m here and I will be praying that things get better. I enjoyed your glitter force fanfiction btw??
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ShelbzLemonadeMaker

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ShelbzLemonadeMaker

@WinxfnafcarsPrincess Yeah I saw some uploaded there but I just stream them on some sketchy site it gives me a ton of weird ads but every episode is there except for like one
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WinxfnafcarsPrincess

@ShelbzLemonadeMaker speaking of, did you know you can watch glitter force on internet archive
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ShelbzLemonadeMaker

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WOW, 5TH YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF THE STEVEN UNIVERSE MOVIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
          HOW. AM. I. STILL. ALIVE?? I-
          I actually can't believe it. I didn't think I'd get this far.
          Last year I said I'd do something to celebrate if I made it to see the 5th but like...what could possibly be good enough to celebrate such a significant day in @ShelbzLemonadeMaker? history? IT'S BEEN HALF A DECADE SINCE I WROTE THAT STUPID BOOK. I can't even think of anything, and since this is probably the last time I'm going to celebrate this milestone, I feel somewhat pressured to go all out. But knowing me, that probably won't end up happening. Sigh.
          HAPPY 5TH, SPINEL. YOU FUCKING SUCK  YOUR SHOES RAGGEDY THATS WHY PINK'S DEAD, DEAD AS HELL-

ShelbzLemonadeMaker

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After years of dealing with these very complicated, painful emotions, that have torn me apart inside, I have come to a conclusion.
            
            Steven Universe is a good show. Genuinely, and unironically. It has a fun art style, the colors are gorgeous, the animation is high-quality, the vocal talents on the show are incredible, the story is engaging, and the strides it made for both LGBT+ representation AND mental health discussion in cartoons cannot be overstated.
            
            That being said,
            
            Spinel is a poorly written character, and I despise her. Whenever I see her, I will now forever be filled with hatred, and never again the joy she once made me feel half a decade ago, before I got fucked up again.
            And that's okay.
            There's nothing I can do about it now.
            And despite how much I hate her now, I would be lying if I said the good memories I have of her from back then don't still make me crack a weak smile every now and again.
            
            Both of these opinions can coexist within me now, and I don't have to feel emotional turmoil over it.
            That's the beauty of it. Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm off to go watch Miraculous
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