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Hi! :)
          Hope your week’s off to a good start!
          Would you like to hear a ?? song with a deep message behind it? ?
          If so, feel free to @ me! If not, no worries at all—stay blessed!

Thanks for the follow!

I just realized. 
          
          I have 32 followers! 
          
          And to think that all I was going to do on here was read.
          
          I am so grateful and appreciative for all the support y'all have given me! 
          
          If you're here and haven't followed @Octune and @CT3112rk, you definitely should! They are both amazing people that have given me more support than anyone else I know.
          
          Bye! Love y'all and thanks for the 32 followers!

I'm sick. 
          
          My throat feels like hell, as well as being as red as it. Everything hurts. I can barely eat or drink anything with how much it hurts to swallow. 
          
          This fucking sucks. 
          
          I slept most of yesterday with my hair in a pony tail, so my hair is all knotted. (I didn't brush it because I have zero energy.)
          
          Don't know why I'm telling you guys, but I wanted to. 
          
          Love y'all. I'll probably not be on much the next couple days to sleep. <3

oi francis i sent you a req on discord

First one shot on the... other one shot book is posted! Finally!

Hey.
          
          Thanks for the support everyone. I'll try to use the advice.
          
          There is no way I can reply to each comment individually. But a summary is- I am religious, so prayers would be great, all the love really means a lot, and I'll try my best. It's really hard though.
          
          My grandpa's coming to visit today, and I might not be able to talk to H today. I really need to.
          
          I want to tell him about yesterday. I just don't want to trigger him because he's had thoughts like this before, too.
          
          Bye. <3 *virtual hugs!

Life update
          
          Haven't done one of these in a while.
          
          K keeps doing what he's been. He keeps calling me "ma'am" to misgender me and piss me off. L is not homophobic though, and has been defending me! People have said he wasn't that supportive before he learned that I'm queer, but he's an ally now!
          
          L's friend, the one who told me L likes me (we'll call him H), basically lives right behind me. So, I've been going to his house, and talking to him basically every day. It's so amazing! I've told him things I've haven't told my bestest friend. We're also both going through/ have gone through the same things, except he's straight. 
          
          The things I've told him and no one else... I want you to know. 
          
          I have huge insecurities about my body. My legs are covered with scars of scabs I've picked/scratched off because I constantly scratch them. I feel like I'm fat and ugly.
          
          After what K did today, my mental state was even more fucked up than usual. I really wanted to talk to H, but I couldn't. My mom doesn't let me shave yet (another way she tries to keep me from growing up), so I tried to use some miscellaneous sharp objects to cut. 
          
          I'm sorry.
          
          I really don't want to, but it seems like the only option. 
          
          I know it isn't, but it really feels like it. Just knowing that doesn't make me feel any better.
          
          I'm really sorry. 
          
          Not just to you Octune, because I'm acting like a hypocrite, or you Fungus Goblin, because I told you about my profile just so you would see this, or anyone else. 
          
          I'm just sorry. 
          
          I want this all to stop. Everything with K. Everything with the people at school. Everything with my parents. Everything except for me and L. Also the support from everyone.
          
          I just want it to stop. 
          
          Help.
          
          I also just don't like the feeling of wanting to cut. It fucking sucks.
          
          Please, just help it end.
          
          I know that's stupid because you live no where near me, but I need help.
          
          I'm really not okay.
          
          Bye.

Forgot to ask, what do you guys think of the new pfp? My friend drew it for me!

Hey! About me crying...
          
          I'm quitting the youth group I was in that did it. I was really sad because that was the last time I was going to be at the camp. I was really emotional because I made friends with people from all over Indiana and would never get to see them again. 
          
          Luckily, I got 2 people's discord, but it still hurt just never going back. 
          
          Mainly because there's this field you can look into from the campsite. The first time I was there, I ran out of the car and stood in front of the field. There, I breathed for the first time in my life. 
          
          I'll never get to experience that freeness that random field gives me again.