Both of us - Todoroki x reader

"Dad, please don't go" my four years old self was there, in my most miserable and vulnerable state, crying next to my sister.

"I'll come back, don't worry. Plus, I will visit you each month".

Lies...that never happened.

"You promise?"
"I promise"

More lies...

He came to us, and hugged me with his left arm while he hugged my sister with his right arm.

Who knew that this hug meant nothing?

"As much as this hurts you, it hurts me too".

Lies, Lies, Lies...everything is a LIE!
But I was too young, too naive. I believed everything that was said to me.

"I'm sorry but I have to go now".
After saying that, he picked his bags and left like it was nothing, and all that I did was to stick to my place, while crying, watching as his silhouette got further and further away from me, not being able to see his face for one last time.

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"Aaaaaah!" I suddenly woke up, to see feel my form on the bed , panting loudly, covered in cold sweat just because of one nasty nightmare, or more like a memory.

'How many more times will this memory have an effect on me? How many more times will I have to see it? Is it the only one I have left of him, or are there many more of its kind?'

I made my way out of my bedroom, into my bathroom and washed my face. As I put my hands on both sides of the sink and looked into my reflection, questions began to plague my mind like a disease.

'What did he even look like?'

'Is he still alive?'

'Does he even know where I live?'

'Will I ever meet him again?'

I shook those questions off of my head, and headed for the kitchen to grab something to eat. There, I saw my mother reading the news while drinking coffee.

'Weird, usually she's at work this time'

"Good morning mother" I greeted her with a smile. Apparently, she haven't noticed me until I made my presence known.

"Good morning Y/N. What do you want to eat?"

"Just some cereals and milk. Mother, can I ask you why you haven't left to work yet?"

"I want to discuss something important with you". She said, losing all emotion on her face.

"Yes mother, what is it?"

"What high school are you planning to attend?" She asked raising an eyebrow.

"U.A" I said with a firm voice, sure of my decision, not planning on going back.

"Are you sure you want to be a hero? You know, it's a dangerous job, plus you can be a pilot or a doctor like me, it's way better". That one took me by surprise. To be honest I would have never expected her to say something like that, she was always encouraging and would always tell me to follow my dreams.

"Yes, I am sure, mother. But didn't you always tell me to follow my dreams and never give up on them? I am sorry if I am disappointing you, but I am not giving up on this dream. I know that you only wish for my best, but I am not backing off from this decision". She just sighed, seemingly expecting my answer and accepting my decision.