Hide from 'Falling' || H.S

Chapter 19 - Ashley | Prove

I'm never the one to really make the first move. Only when I'm really particularly interested. Which is rarely the case. However, I still choose the guys I fuck, not the other way around.
Know your worth ladies! One thing I learned early enough.

I've already had a few drinks and keep myself as far away as possible from the other girls, as well as from Harry and my parents. The evening doesn't have to get any more awful.

I looked around the bar and decided to approach one of the guys who just came in. And bingo.

I had already forgotten his name again, he is some lord but the title had never been important to me. But you could tell how much it meant to him.
Oh my god, he better not have a small dick. A shitty personality and then a small dick...I could not stand that tonight. But that's what most poser have.

Except Harry. His dick is big. Well, I don't know it from the first source, but I can guess after what I have already felt.

Wait! Stop!

Why am I thinking about him again? Fuck I should not have come to him on the balcony. Why did I do that anyway? Oh yeah, because I'm a nosy bitch who can't stay out of other people's business. I shouldn't have told him that Sophia wants to sleep with him. It just made the whole situation worse.

Because fuck he was right. Deep down inside I wanted to be fucked by him.
Not her.

Okay, no! How can I think that. Lying to myself is better. Drinks. I need more drinks. Preferably shots. I need to get rid of these idiotic thoughts before I act on them.

"Would you like a shot?" I quickly asked my companion. He had just told me something about one of his many hunting lodges and my question had completely thrown him off.

"Um, okay. But that's not really my thing.... I'll make an exception because you could really use one. Your concentration is starting to wane." he replied with a wrinkled nose. My jaw tended and I secretly rolled my eyes. Then I ordered double shots. In order to tolerate him further, more high-proof stuff has to go into my system.

How can it be that I once again throw my principles overboard because of Harry the prick. Now I already tolerate such an ass here to not have to deal with him instead. Of course, I could get my well-deserved sex in another way, calling an old lover, but it doesn't look like my parents would let me go so soon. So it must happen here or never.

When the shots arrived I downed two in a row without hesitating for a second. Mixed with the painkillers from earlier, the Lord also became more and more sympathetic to me. He, however, sipped only slightly at his shot and grimaced. I started to giggle softly, because the sight of him was anything but what I was used to. Not in a good way though.

It was still kinda amusing.

He is moody and gets upset about everything you can even complain about. Nothing is right for him and I've only known him for what? 40 minutes? How can you stand that any longer? No wonder he is single. Fuck I should have chosen someone else, my rationality has probably decreased due to the shots, but now it's too late - I have no strength to look for someone new.

Suddenly I felt those eyes on me again. As if someone was watching me. But I recognized no one around.
Only a few seconds later, I felt the presence of a tall and broad figure next to me. Fuck.