My Random Thoughts

The first actual relationship I went into was a childish one. It was brought on from peer pressure and just wanting to make one of my fallen angels happy. That's what hurt the most though. My fallen angel, even though I had pledged myself to them, wanted me to try love. They got one of my buddies to agree to try dating me. It was childish though. I knew him as a friend and didn't believe we could be more. This "relationship" went on for three month, and for three months I did try. I went to their soccer games and I tried to understand how couples work. I even told him things I didn't tell anyone about, and he did the same. I believe if we would've just been friends, we could've been pretty good ones. In the end though instead of breaking up he just ignored me everyday. Finally I said the words and it was over. I knew then it wasn't love, cause I felt nothing when it happened. I didn't cry, I didn't scream, I just kept going. that was the last time for awhile I ever "dated" and in the end my fallen angel took my back so I could taint her even more then I had before.