I Need the Light

High school
Kokichi 16 and Shuichi is 17

I and Shuichi lasted through middle school and now we're in high school but for some odd reason, some of my friends don't even dare speak or look at me.

They said I changed or they just quickly walk away from me like I'm some human virus. They looked scared but oh well Shuichi told me not to question it so I rather listen to him than worry.

I was so blind and stupid back then

I've changed this past few months and years. I've learned how to fight and use a knife? Shuichi told me to learn that I'm not sure why tho.

I'm not a leader of a super-secret organization anymore Shuichi told me to leave them and hang out more with him.

I was against it at first but my crew told me if I was happy with him I should do it. They told me I can come back anytime I want so I did.

Gonta, Kirumi, and Rantaro are still my friends tho but I feel like we are drifting apart. Gonta has been too scared to even acknowledge me, Kirumi always glared at Shuichi every time we meet up. Rantaro and Shuichi always fight over the littlest things.

I'm starting to wonder is Shuichi the problem?

Nahhhh he can't be he's my beautiful beloved boyfriend.

I was so wrong

"Kokichi~" I looked up to see Saihara-chan he was staring at me kinda pissed off by the fact I was kinda ignoring him. Which I wasn't I spaced out.

"Yes, Saihara~Chan?" I said looking at him not daring to meet his intense gaze

"Are you listening to me?" He said to me as we sat in an empty classroom. Just me and him.

I smiled as I say "Obviously Saihara~chan I can never ignore my beloved." he smiles at me as he pets my head

"Then what did I say?" he said as his smile disappeared from his face

Damn it.

"Uhh..... That you love me?" I said hoping I was right.

"Yep. Correct!." Shuichi said as his smile reappear once again.

Everything I wanted is you, just you.
Why don't you love me?

I smiled and giggle. When he loves me I feel like I'm floating and When he calls me pretty I feel like I matter so much to him.

I should've run out of that classroom.

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"Gonta thinks Saihara is scary," Gonta said to Kirumi and Rantaro. As they sat at their usual lunch table. But now without Kokichi. "I agree with you on that Gonta." Rantaro said as Kirumi nod avoiding anything to do with the topic of Saihara. Rantaro wasn't afraid of Saihara He was afraid of what Saihara can do to Kokichi.

I could've saved him.

Rantaro remembers the day Kokichi confesses to the devil. The day where everything turns to hell for the four. He remembers the exact words that came out of Saihara mouth clear as day.

"Look at Kokichi. Speak to Kokichi. Be anywhere near Kokichi when I'm not around. He will die."

"Then I kill you three. Then myself."

Why was he so scared? How could he fail his best friend, and let him date that monster? Everyday Rantaro regrets not doing anything. But what could he do? If his best friend was lovesick?

I've become numb to cry. Hurt over and over again.

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