Deep into Despair | xBayani

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Naria's POV

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Wait...wait I had a brother?!

"Naria, you alright?" Graser asks me confused at how I suddenly spaced out.

"Yeah, yeah just thinking," I tell him, still a little in my mind.

"About?"

"Nothing, it's just....nothing,"

"Okay, just promise me that no matter what Jordan or anyone will do, you will still stay strong?"

"Graser?"

"Yeah,"

"Why do you care?"

He then pulls up his sleeve to see scars, old scars plastered against his skin, "Just promise me,"

"I promise as long as you won't tell anyone, for now,"

"Okay, I promise too," he says and brings me back into the cafe.

I walk through the doorway and see the others staring straight at me. My face drains out its blood but it's not due to all the attention.

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Jordan's POV

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I stare as Graser almost drags Naria out the door. Why would he do that?......Idiot! She's probably crying or something but I don't have the decency to apologize. I mentally slap myself in the head.

But I just continue in on the conversation. I mean this is pax, I'm supposed to be having fun. Plus, I wouldn't look strange or out of place.

But she's all could think about.

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Once Naria comes back in with Graser, I look up and that makes all the other guys look up too. Her face turns pale and I immediately feel awful about giving her all the attention. But she goes with Graser to sit back down. She's still not eating, or talking.

I seriously need to get myself back together so I walk up to their booth and say, "Im sorry Naria, I'm sorry for leaving, for getting angry at you, for making you believe that I shouldn't care, but baby I do and I will always care for you even if it means hurting me,"

Everyone all coo out, "Awwww," but all she does is nods. Maybe I really messed up. I look at Graser, pleading for a little help, but he just shrugs. So I ask Naria to go talk.

She hesitates, but slowly gets up, still a little pale. We walk outside and sit on a bench right in front of the cafe.

"Naria, I'm seriously sorry, I honestly regret it. But even if you don't forgive me, I will still care about you," I plead.

"I never said I didn't forgive you," she says very quietly.

"Are you okay?" She still didn't look 'normal' and I worry.

"Yes, I'm fine," she says as she looks away. The wind blows causing shivers down my spine and causes Naria's hair to blow back. I take her hand and warm it into mine.

"I love you," I mumble under my breath.

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Naria's POV

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It wasn't Jordan making me feel bad. It was the fact that my brother could be alive. But he comes over to apologize. I just nod, not in the mood for anything right now. He's still here and asks me if we could talk. I know if I didn't, he would feel just as bad as I do so I agree.

He apologizes again once we're outside and I'm just not feeling anything right now. All I can think about is my brother. I'm tired of people questioning if I'm okay and I'm tired of people caring about me but I know Jordan is persistent and he won't stop until I become back to normal. So I just tell him I'm fine.

But... I hear him mumble something I probably shouldn't have heard. He loves me?!

"I'm sorry Jordan, I just...I can't really describe how I'm feeling right now, everything is so overwhelming and I think I might have a brother. That's alive. Graser reminded me of him, an older brother. He cared about me. I just need someone like him right now," I blurt out.

He brushes my hair out of my face and lightly kisses me on the cheek. "It's okay, just calm down. I'll be here for you and we'll find him for you," Jordan reassures me.

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