Deep into Despair | xBayani

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Naria's POV

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I feel my body, I feel myself breathing, I see the things going on, but I can't control my body and I can't control what I say and do. I can only see and feel, and right now, I feel pain. So I decide not to feel the pain, I decide to put myself away for just a little bit.

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Jordan's POV

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"What happened last night?" Will asks, unsure of why Naria was not awake.

"She was trying to calm me down, but she never came back after you talked with me," I explain. I am dumbstruck myself. How can this happen? I never know what's wrong anymore, and it's only scaring me more and more. She was fine that night, and now she isn't? Not only that, but one day the girl that I have been falling for, becomes mine and then only to find out that my girlfriend is my thought-to-be dead best friend. Not that it's bad, but it's so overwhelming. All the things are crashing down all at once. Why is this happening?

My thoughts were interrupted by Will questioning, "What's that?" as he points towards the back of Naria's neck. I look closely and see a tattoo-like symbol on her, yet it seems so natural. I lightly touch the area of it and it feels as soft as her skin. The symbol resembles a black, old style key with blood stains, and an emerald green gem in the middle. I never noticed it before. But it sticks in the back of my mind, trying to grasp at my memory. Have I seen this before? "I don't know, but I feel like I've seen it before?" I reply, staring at it. I look at the key and back at Naria.

She looks so peaceful, her eyes closed and her face pale. I slide my hand across her hair, so dark and it only seems to be getting darker. It's more cimmerian than most people's hair, like the blackness of when you close a door to a room with no source of light. That's how I used to always remember Farrah, with her hair, just like Naria. Not to mention their voice, like the softness in a light blow of the wind, and the crystallization, like stars dancing in the moonlight. And you know they scream only when something's up because they never scream in the first place. I don't even know why I refer them as two different persons anymore, they are one and I still can't believe it.

"I don't know what to do anymore, Will," I tell him weakly.

"Hang in there, I'm here for you, man," He reassures me and places his arm on my shoulder.

I nod in return. "Thanks, it really does mean a lot that you're here,"

After a minute of silence, Will says he's going to get ready. I lean down and kiss Naria lightly on the lips. I feel her lips connect with mine, and I can somehow feel her presence. I can just touch on how lively it is inside of her, with her playing mind and her beating heart, just her soul pouncing in there, taunting me. I just wish she were here in my arms, awake to see how worried I am, and there to just kiss me back, but she's just not here...yet.

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Naria's POV

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I dreamt, I dreamt about everything, about my life, about my hardships, and about my best memories like they were real, yet I couldn't remember Jordan. I couldn't remember before the car accident. Still in my own mind, but my mind has no control over my body and I can only think, and feel. I feel his lips on mine, and I can only hope to get back. In all honesty, I didn't want to, but I need to be with Jordan, I want to be with Jordan. I don't know what's wrong with me. Maybe I just fell too hard. I just wish I could kiss back, I feel the need for his touch and his caress. I feel the need for his body on mine, and for my desires to be met. I mentally frown because I can only wish, I can only wish to get back.

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Sorry it's short, I just thought it was a good ending place. I will be back soon. Stupid 抖阴社区 deleted my chapter and I had to write these very descriptive paragraphs over again. :(

Thanks for reading, love you guys!!!