The way that it should have been

Chapter 5

She always makes me sooo chert proud of her. (damn)

"I second that." I said.

"As do I." Alberta quickly agreed. Her full support of my relationship with my Roza ringing loud and clear in her voice.

"If the people that we love and care about are against us being happy and together. Then they should never have been a part of our lives to begin with. The people that we care about should only care about the fact that we are happy, that we love each other and that we belong together." My angel continued.

"That is a very good point, Rose. I just want you both to know that I am behind you all the way, you both have my full support in this. And the support of all of the guardians here at the academy."

"Thank you, mommy Al."

Alberta smiled at my Roza's term of endearment for her. I could see the pride radiating from Alberta that Roza would consider her as her mother.

"If you have all always known how Roza and I feel about each other. Then why have none of you ever said anything to either one of us about it?" I asked curiously.

"I... well we all, were going to give you to the new year. And if you hadn't resolved this horrible act by the second week of January, then we were going to fix it for you." She said as she looked dead at me with a raised eyebrow. More or less asking if I understood what she was saying to me. Which I most definitely did.

"Ahhh, well I would like to thank you all for looking after my Roza so well. I am so glad to know that if I hadn't come around soon that you would have all pulled me around."

We all laughed.

"You are sooo very lucky that someone managed to talk a few of us down several times. Because on more than one occasion some of us almost got our hands on you to show you the error of your ways, Dimitri."

"Well, I can honestly say that I deserved it. Who brought you around by the way?"

"Not really, Comrade. You were just confused, worried and scared. You needed that time to think and to come to understand that I love you just as much as you love me."

"You are sooo forgiving lyubov' moya. Far too forgiving of me." (my love)

"There is no such thing when it comes to you baby. Not ever."

I smiled happily and thankfully at her. "Thank you, detka." (baby)

"You are very welcome, baby."

I wondered, briefly, if she had figured out what detka means. Or if it was just a coincidence that she'd just called me baby as well. (baby)

Alberta eventually interrupted my Roza and I as we continued to gaze into each other's eyes.

"As for who brought us around, well... that would be Rose." She said as she pointed her finger at lyubov' moya. (my love)

I turned back to look at my angel in shock, but she only smiled and shrugged at me. The woman is amazing, totally and completely amazing.

"You know that your mother is going to have an absolute fit when she finds out about this don't you Rose? She still thinks of you as a little girl."

"Yes well, too bad for her that I am a grown woman. A woman who can and does make her own choices and decisions in this life. Choices about what I want to do, who I want to be with and anything else that comes up. She has never even tried to be there for me, so she gets absolutely no say whatsoever about me, my life or my choices in life. Her opinion means less than nothing to me. Do I wish that she had ever loved me?"

She looked sad as she shrugged one shoulder and tilted her head slightly. "Sure, what person in this world doesn't long for the love of their parents. But I became an adult after she threw me away without ever so much as a look back. And my being an adult leaves no space for her to try and tell me how she thinks that I need to live my life or what to and not to do in my life. If she had ever even tried to be a part of my life at all, then yes, I am sure that her opinion would matter to me. Even minutely. But as it is, no her opinion on my life, my lifestyle, my life choices and my actions as well as anything and everything else means absolutely less than nothing to me at all."

She shrugged again. "So it is too late for that and her now. I don't need her to have a feeling of completion in my life. Because I have Dimitri, you, Lissa, Eddie and Mason hell, I even have Christian now. So I don't need Janine Hathaway or her opinions of, approval on and thoughts about my life choices and the way that I chose to live my life. Like I said, if she wanted to be my mother then she should have tried that instead of completely abandoning me here and forgetting that I even existed." 

(JUST SO YOU GUYS KNOW, I HAD SOME PROBLEMS WITH THE UPLOADING TONIGHT. SOMETIMES IT WOULD SKIP ENTIRE SENTENCES AND I WOULD HAVE TO GO BACK AND WRITE THEM IN. I DON'T KNOW WHY IT HAPPENED BUT IF YOU SEE SOMEWHERE WHERE YOU THINK THAT IT MIGHT HAVE HAPPENED AGAIN PLEASE LET ME KNOW. THANK YOU. ALSO, ALL OF MY UPDATES ARE DEDICATED TO ALL OF THOSE WHO LOVE THAT HAVE GONE ON. WE STILL LOVE AND MISS YOU ALL.)