Crazy Over You

Jennie's POV

Jisoo knocked in the door and entered. I looked at her and at what she was holding. She was just looking at me seriously. I stopped packing my clothes first.

"Jendeuk here it is." Jisoo laid the brown envelope on the bed. "I'll just come back again when you're done." she said and left.

I took a deep breath while looking at it. I stood up and took a walk. Can i? Of course. This is my choice. My hand is trembling. I picked up the envelope and went to the balcony. I opened it. I closed my eyes and looked up. I opened my eyes. The sky is dark but still full of stars. It's beautiful. Thanks to her I can see the beauty of darkness. My heart squeezes when I remember her but I need to do this.

"You will be free Lisa ... " I whispered to myself. I took the ballpen that was inside. I held the pen tightly. I shut my eyes again remembering our moments together. Every time I remembered my tears burst out. It hurts like hell letting go of her.

I can't express how much I love Lisa. She constantly makes my smile, makes my heart skip a beat, give me butterlies and many more. She's my favorite person. I was lucky and I got to be with her. Lisa is a kind and caring person. Others don't even see it but that's the real her. She taught me to love myself. Everything is magical when I'm with her. Even though she has bad sides, I accept her flaws and imperfections completely. During the few years that she was with me, she helped me and my parents a lot even if she didn't say so. She's a lowkey person sometimes. I love her so much that I will let her go. She hurts me to the point that I can't take it anymore and I hurt her for not staying with her.

Sorry hon

I have to do this because we are only getting worse. My love for Lisa overflows and it's fucking hurts because she doesn't love me too. She never say those words. I told myself it was okay even without assurance. I wiped away my tears. I took a few deep breath to gain strength. I slowly signed it. I stared at the bottom of the paper. I did it but I'm not happy. I’m sure she'll be happy not now but soon. I put the divorce papers inside the brown envelope. I got up and walked to the veranda. The cold air hit my warm body. I looked up again. I remember what she said.

"Whenever I see the dark night sky, I will always remember you my Lili." I whispered as my tears flowed. "I will miss being called Mrs. Jennie Manoban and most especially I will miss you so much Lisa." I look my wedding ring that was placed on my right hand. It was real diamond that was very expensive. We bought it. I held it and cried, remembering our wedding day.

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"Are you sure Jen? Do you want to change your mind? We can still cancel the flight." Kai said looking at me in the rearview mirror. We are going to the airport.

"Yes Kai I'm sure." I simply said. "When Lisa asks you where I am. Please don't tell her." I plead.

Jisoo and Kai looked at each other and Jisoo nodded. I trust them. The car stopped and we got off. They took me inside the airport.

"This is it Jennie." Jisoo said sadly.

"We're gonna miss you." Kai said. I look at them both. My heart cracks. I hugged them both tightly. My tears flowed. I bit my lips.

"I'll m-miss you Jisoo, Kai and them." I stuttered to say. I looked at Jisoo who was crying and her eyes were already red. I was weakened by the scenario of the three of us.

"Go on Jennie. You might miss the airplane." Kai said with her sad face. I gave them both one last tight hug.

"Take care my dumpling. I will miss you and I love you." Jisoo said wiping her tears. She kiss my forehead and my cheeks.

"I love you too Jisoo. Thank you for everything." I replied and hug her. I also thank Kai. "Bye."

I walked over and waved my hand. My knees are getting weak and my body feels heavy. I looked at them. Jisoo cried even harder as Kai rub her shoulders, stopping her not to sob. A great pang gripped my heart. I turned around and walked away, forgetting all the pains.

A/N:

We better stick to LS1 'coz it's really happening! her album is so magnificent!