Mikey's Twin

TW: suicide attempt

Maria's POV
It was currently lunch period as I sat at the top of the school building. My lunchbox was before me. I don't feel like eating.

I wonder how Baji is doing now. Would he be looking over me in heaven? I think as I look to the sky.

How do I stop the feeling of emptiness in my heart?

I really hate this feeling.... I wish I could wash it away.

I stare at the railings on the rooftop before me. I'm on the 6th level, I'm sure I can die from a jump.

I stood up and walked towards it till I hesitated. If I jump, I can meet Baji and even Shinichiro.

But if I do..., wouldn't I be leaving more people? Like Mikey, Emma, Kuro and more?

My hands landed on the railings as I look down at the ground on the first level.

"Maria?" I hear Fuyuka call out to me as I turned to look at her.

"What are you doing?" Her blue eyes eyes stared into mine, her mother is British and she had gotten her mother's eye colors. Otherwise, she just has her father's features. She's still really pretty though.

"I was thinking of ending my life..." I whispered, looking back at the ground as I closed my eyes, taking in a deep breath as wind blew at me, caressing my face as I spread my arms out.

"If I die..., I would be free... right?" I asked, turning back to look at Fuyuka.

"No, that would just be dumb and stupid." Fuyuka says harshly and I paused, she has never spoken to me in such a way before.

What's gotten into her?

"My mother just killed herself because she couldn't stand my father's abuse. And now all his attention is fixed on me and my brother!!" Her voice becoming louder and louder every second as I stilled.

Her mother just died?

Is that why her eyes are red and puffy?

"You know what that means?" She whispered to me as she edged closer to me.

"It just means that I'm going to have a harder time at home, I thought Mother was going to fix her problems with Father so we can be one big happy family again." Tears slipped out of her eyes.

"Now we can't and it's because she's a coward. Maria, are you one too? You can't face your own problems and want to take a easy way out?" She whispers, holding my hands in hers as I paused.

I'm a coward?

No I'm not one. But if I want to be with Baji, I would be considered one.

Why is life so damn hard?

"I'm not one. Sorry I was just lost for a second there." I whispered, staring at the sky as I wiped some of Fuyuka's tears away.

"It doesn't have to be so hard does it?" I ask, hugging my friend to me, the both of us in mourning.

"No it doesn't"

Fuyuka's blue eyes shimmered as she dried her tears.

And I'll make sure you don't leave me ever again.

TBC