misunderstanding || itafushi ?

Yuuji's pov:

I was running like crazy, and my heart was beating so fast. The weather is breezy today due to the winter maybe. I was feeling my nose getting red. Moreover, it's clear to see the smoke that comes out of the mouth. But I always shut my mouth close while running. It makes me feel less tired.

I glanced back, and saw the sight of the university disappearing; I stopped. I stayed there for a minute to make sure that he wasn't coming. Thanks God, he didn't follow me. For a moment, I thought he would follow me until he reached me.

After a few minutes of walking, I found myself at home. I am feeling more tired than usual, or maybe I am stressing about what I've seen today. I took the key out of my pocket and inserted it in the hole, covering the key and opening the door. I tossed my shoes aside and went to the second floor.

Megumi's dogs ran to me as soon as they saw me. I had to go downstairs to feed the dogs. I kneeled in front of them, just petting them a little. After that, I went upstairs again, entering my room.

I opened the door, seeing the mess I had made in the morning.

I am not in a mood to clean it, though.

I tossed my clothes with my foot, going to the bathroom. Because of running, I was soaking wet, and I needed a long shower, also clearing my mind while bathing. I reckon that would be great, so I prepared the bathtub to take off my clothes.

By the time I waited for the tub to fill up with water, I had put on some music like "Cigarettes After Sex".

The band's music is so calming and comfortable, and the way Gregory sings the songs under his breath is so smooth. It is like my soul is resting, and my body relaxing. It is like a cure for my sadness or probably makes me overthink even more. Furthermore, it just makes me feel like I'm alive and have a quiet life.

The first song is "Cry.", one of my favourites.

I laid my naked body on the sink, looking through the tub with empty eyes.

My bathroom is larger than others 'cause I like walking around the room, and also, I don't want to stick my leg into something. Even Nobara bearly showers in her own damn bathroom.

As it finished, I got inside it, and I laid down slowly, laying my head on the head of the tub and looking at the ceiling. I was deep in my thoughts.

There is a strange feeling inside of me that makes me stress more, and I can't tell that much. It's like, my heart is squeezed by someone or something. It is getting hard to breathe.

I'm feeling like crying, yet, I don't want to cry over stupid shit that I don't exactly know.

What am gonna say to him when he gets home?

Oh, yes, I saw you two kissing each other. Now, you were looking absolutely freaking beautiful. I wish you two happiness.

Some shit like that?

I don't know which one hurts me more, him getting a secret relationship or getting fooled by my own wellness.

I am feeling so useless and hurt right now. I don't want to lose him.

I love him so fucking much.