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the following day, I woke up in my own house. topper and sarah decided we should have a party at my house today since my parents and brother were always away. 

I picked up my phone to see it was 9:30am, people were going to start arriving around 11.

I had to clean up the house and charge my speaker, as well as get myself ready.

after I cleaned the backyard and pool side, I ran upstairs to see the time "shit!". it was 10am already, I slipped myself out of my pyjamas and slid on my tommy hilfiger matching bikini. 

I brushed my hair back into a low bun and look all my jewellery off except for my necklace.

after I did so I slid on a pair of white wide pants and a pair of sandals.

I walked downstairs to the kitchen and set the drinks up, as I was doing so I received a text from topper.

we'll be there in 5 party girl.

I put my phone down and synced it up to my speaker, shuffling my party playlist. 

after a couple minutes passed I heard a knock on the front door "come in!!" I yelled. the front door sprung open, topper and sarah marched into the kitchen with cans in hand.

"holy crap bailey you look gorgeous" sarah spoke, making eye contact with my body. 

I smirked and led them to the backyard, where I slid the pants off my figure and onto the chair. "oh and rafe will be here soon" sarah said, I glared at her and rolled my eyes causing her her and topper to both laugh.

"I'll be right back" I said putting my phone down on the table and walking inside. I walked upstairs into my room, looking for my sun block.

after digging through my desk drawer and bedside tables I finally found it, I headed back downstairs to join top and sarah.

I walked out the door to the backyard, focusing on the sunblock in my hand. "here she is" I heard sarah say as I turned the corner. I looked up, only to make eye contact with the dirty blonde.

he smirked as he noticed I was in nothing but a bikini, I rolled my eyes and walked back to my chair. 

"coming in?" sarah asked just before she dove into the cold clear water, I nodded and adjusted my bikini.

I felt rafe's eyes on my body, so I decided to give him a show. I flipped my hair over to the side of my neck and lifted the sides of my bikini bottoms up.

I smirked before diving into the pool, the cold water rushing against my body. I rose my head out of the water, rubbing my eyes free of the water. 

I looked up to rafe who was admiring my figure, cheeks red as he ran his tan fingers through his dirty blonde hair. 

I giggled to myself and glided through the water. sarah and I dancing to the music in the water as everyone cheered us on, everyone was here by now and all slightly tipsy.

I stepped out of the pool and sat on the pool chair, grabbing my book from beside me and reading. 

"miss bailey parker would you like to join us in the study" kelce winked putting his hand out, I giggled and grabbed his hand, putting my book down and walking into the house.

I walked into the study to see topper, kelce, rafe, becca and a few more guys I was unfamiliar with. topper smeared the white powder over the table as rafe threw the rolls of notes next to it.

after everyone had there a fair share of the drug topper looked to me and back to the powder.

I shrugged my shoulders, it had been a while since I had done drugs. I stopped when I came back from the mainland last year, after I nearly overdosed last summer in the arms of rafe.

"too scared?" becca chuckled, planting a kiss on rafe's cheek.

rafe looked to me, face filled with sorrow 'you don't have to' he mouthed.

becca kept throwing snarky comments my way, saying I was scared, or too innocent.

topper looked to becca and laughed "you obviously don't know who bailey is".

the brunette rolled her eyes and adjusted her position on the dirty blonde, "if she's not going to do it I will" she commented started to make her way over to the table.

before she got the chance to reach the table, I snatched the roll from topper's hand and set the powder up. I inhaled the large amount that I had set up, it all rushing to my head. 

I tilted my head up and sniffed the remaining that was in my nose, I looked to see the whole room looking at me "fucking hell" kelce laughed.

"and she's back!!" he said once again, dapping the other boys up.

I rolled my eyes and exited the room "bad idea" I mumbled to myself. I stumbled outside to grab my book and phone "connect your phone" I said as I disconnected mine from the speaker.

the background noise became nothing but silence, it was faint but blurry, I needed to go to bed.

I walked up to my room and laid there, knowing it was a bad idea, I promised myself I wouldn't do it again. but I did, I let that snarky bitch get to my head, watching her sit herself on the dirty blonde, my dirty blonde.

I was snatched from my thoughts when I heard yelling downstairs, not one but two voices.

I peeped my head from the door trying to hear better. 

"your fucken stupid rafe you know that right?!" said one voice.

"we're done, get the fuck out of the house now" the other said calmly and smoothly.

I closed the door and headed back to my bed, knowing exactly who it was that was fighting.

I laid back on my pillow, covering my body with the large blanket staring at the roof. a couple minutes later I heard a knock on the door, "come in" I spoke loudly, allowing them to come in.

the door opened "hey bails" said the dirty blonde as he entered my bedroom.

"oh hey" I sat up from the bed leaning against the head of the bed.

he sat down beside me and sighed looking down at the carpet. 

"are you okay?" he looked up to me with concern, sliding his hand onto mine. i shrugged my shoulders and looked down to the bed, playing with my fingers.

the dirty blonde stood up and moved onto my bed further, he laid his head on the pillow beside me. "come here" he said softly reaching his arms out to me, I smirked and moved my body closer to his.

laying my head against his bare chest, I planted my hand on his chest, as he put his hand around my head and began playing with my hair. 

we laid there for a few minutes in silence, this feeling felt all too familiar. 

"rafe?" I asked

"I broke up with her" he replied, knowing that was what I was asking. 

I didn't respond, I just snuggled my head into his chest further as we laid there in silence once again.