misunderstanding || itafushi ?

-chapter four

I stared at him, endeavouring the fact that I was really hurt. It wouldn't hurt me that much if another person said to me. Hearing from him is like my heart was shattered, and it will take a long time to be fixed.

"What are you staring at? Did you lose your sense of talking? Are you scared you will tell something that is gonna be useless like it was always been? You only share your feelings with Nobara. You, too, are always whispering to each other and don't even bother to tell me. Am I not your friend? Why do you have to make me feel like a shit? I wish my friends were more open with me." I just stared at him again because I couldn't find anything to say to him. My tongue is tied up. On the other hand, Megumi's expression changed again. Now, I can read his reaction. 

Regret.

Why do you feel guilty when you know that it will hurt me? Right. I also said something rude to him.

"You are n-not my friend. L-like you said. They are just b-bunches of shit that we talk about. T-there is no need to b-bother you with t-them." Did I stutter? I looked down immediately. I winked and sniffled, and the realization hit me. The hot tears were running down my face. I swiftly wiped my face with my sweater's sleeve, then raised my head, making eye contact with him. He stepped toward me, and back a little bit. As he saw it, he stayed at his place. He opened his mouth to say something, but I prevented him from raising my hand.

Without saying anything, I turned around and walked away from him.

"Y-yuuji..." As I heard my name I couldn't help myself. The tears were coming to a stop.

I was hearing his footsteps, so I started running away. I ran until I went too far. I slowed down my steps, going home. Luckily, I have taken my earphones with me. I put them in my ear, playing some music. All the way home, I didn't think about anything. With an empty mind, I got home safely. From time to time, I was looking back to check if Megumi was coming or not.

I opened the yard's door entering the yard, coming in front of the entrance door. I took out my keys and opened the door. When I got inside, I felt the warmth of the house. I felt a little bit better after feeling the warmth. By the time I took off my shoes, Nobara came from the living room.

"Welcome, boys? Where is Megumi?"

"Haven't he come yet? I thought he reached before me."

"No, he didn't."

"Strange. He went to the shop to buy something. Let me call him," I fake-called him, not making myself look suspicious, "Nah, he is not answering. I am going to bed. I am kinda tired. Let me know when he comes home. Good night." I said, kissing the top of her head as going upstairs. To my surprise, she didn't ask anything. I opened my bedroom door and got inside. I was about to shut the door when I heard Nobara's footsteps. I peeked out of the door.

"You don't need to run. Stay there. I will be downstairs in five minutes."

"Do you need coffee?"

"Yes, please."

I got inside and opened the bathroom door. When I  looked at the mirror, my eyes caught my attention. They were still puffy, and they were hurting a bit. I washed my face with cold water to prevent the tears from coming. If I cry now, I won't be able to stop myself from crying. I tilted my head to stop the tears coming out of my eyes. After a few seconds of staying like that, I dried my face, changed my clothes, and headed downstairs. When I got down, she was holding her coffee cup, sitting on the sofa. As she noticed me, she patted her hand on the empty place of her near. Without hesitation, I sat beside her, taking a sip of my coffee. We sat in silence for a minute.

"Did it go bad?" she asked, breaking the silence.

"Even worse."

"That much?" the way she asked, it was so obvious that she was really worried. I just nodded.

"Was he too rude?"

"I didn't even get the chance to open up."

"Then, what kind of conversation happened between you two? Of course, if you don't mind tell me." I shook my head as no.

"He knew that I was there. I tried to deny it, but he wasn't giving up. Then I told him that it was just a waste of time talking with him. He said that back to me. Then, he said we don't consider him as our friend anymore. We always whisper and don't say anything to him. He definitely was hurt by our actions. But we were talking about him, right? We were just hiding my feelings from him. That's all. It wasn't my intention to hurt him. You know, he was wearing an expression that I couldn't read at first. I love him so much, Nobara. I saw the regret in his eyes, however, I didn't let him talk to me. He has something to say. I have started. I started being rude to him for no reason. And the fact that he was hiding his relationship with her. I-I don't know what to do. My heart hurts so bad. Seeing him with that expression, my heart was shuttered. I felt really bad for him. I hurt him by saying like." I let all my tears go down on my face. My eyes are too blurry; hence, I can't see her clearly. Then, I felt her arms going around my back hugging me so tight. I also hugged her back, soaking her shirt wet. We stayed like that for so long. I heard her sniffles. I swiftly pushed her back, looking at her face.

"Noby, why are crying?" I stroked her face, wiping her tears.

"I can't stand seeing you like this. Seeing you in pain, and broken-hearted makes me so sad," She started crying harder, "Sorry, Yu. I was supposed to make you calm down."

"Don't think about it. It is alright." I pulled her closer to me, putting her head on my chest. I stroked her hair as she stayed silent.

"Yuuji?"

"Yes?"

"I am sorry for laughing at what you said in the afternoon. I didn't take you seriously back then."

"That was in the past. Just let it go. That was absolutely a useless memory."

"But he is not the type of a guy who is that rude to us, right?"

"Yes, I wasn't even expecting. Do you know where he could be?"

"No idea, man. I tried to call him multiple times, but no answer."

"Let's call it a day. We will talk later, alright?"

"Yeah, don't overthink and stay up late, okay? I will check up on you every hour."

"Yes, ma'am." I laughed and she smiled at me.

"Always laugh like that. Laughing and being happy like that suits you more, and that is what suits my best friend." I smiled at her compliment and ruffled her head. We, two, went to our bedrooms.

As soon as I got inside, I went to the bathroom and locked the door. I sat down, bringing my knees closer to me and hiding my face, starting to cry as if I didn't cry enough.