it started with a kiss//karlnap

"Sapnap," I moaned, he had now made his way down to my stomach and he was slowly biting in. I traced my finger across Sapnaps collarbone and I pulled Sapnaps chin up to face me,"Save the rest for later," I smirked at him and gave him a kiss. I jumped off of the desk and grabbed my hoodie which was laying on the floor. I walked over to the bathroom and examined my face, i was paler than ever but Sapnaps hickies covered it. I grabbed my razor from the cabinet, I pulled my hoodie up a bit and decided i should cut myself a couple more times, i watched the blood drop onto the floor, it was the best feeling ever. I did one more cut and the door opened, it was Sapnap. I jumped and dropped the razor onto the floor and quickly pulled my hoodie back down.

"Karl?" Sapnap said.
"Yes?"
"Why is there a blood stain on the floor?"
I shrugged.
"Are you sure you dont know?"
I nodded.
"Okay well, im going to go out and buy you some nail polish and food, don't do anything stupid," Sapnap walked over to me a placed a kiss on my forehead, i placed my arms tightly around his waist,"i dont want you to goo," i complained.
"Motherfucker, do you want nail polish or not" Sapnap rolled his eyes. I giggled softly into his chest.
"Can i go with you?" I asked looking up at Sapnap.
"Clingy much," Sapnap joked, i shook my head and let go of him,"Nono,im not clingy,"
Sapnap pulled me back into his arms,"Im just kidding babe," I looked up at him and rolled my eyes.

*time skip bc we lazy🥵*

Me and Sapnap had arrived at the store, i didn't know how to feel as i knew Sapnap would buy food for me. I gripped Sapnaps hand and guided him towards the makeup section, I stopped at the nail polish section and turnt around to look at Sapnap,"Which colour?"
"Just get them all if you want," Sapnap smiled.
"No, im gonna feel bad because your paying,"
"So?"
"Sapnap put the nail polish back on the shelf,"
"No,"
"I dont need them all!"
"Well, you will have enough to last you a while,"
"Sapnap i said-" Sapnap grabbed my waist and pushed me against the nearest wall, he used one of his fingers to lift my chin up,"Karl, do i need to makeout with you to make you shut up," I shook my head.
"Good, now lets go buy some of your safe foods," Sapnap said kissing me on the lips and then grabbing my hand.

What the fuck just happened.

I gripped Sapnaps hand, he kept putting food into the basket, asking me which ones i would eat and which ones i wouldnt. It felt weird seeing the basket so full for once, there was barley no main meals but Sapnap wanted me to start small and then make my way onto main meals. Me and Sapnap were walking, i stopped at the drink aisle and pulled Sapnap along with me. I stopped at the monsters and looked a Sapnap.
"Will you promise to eat at least a small meal everyday?" Sapnap said.
"I promise,"
"Go ahead grab a pack," Sapnap smiled. I had never been rewarded for eating food, but i wasnt complaining. It felt nice. I grabbed a pack of monster and put it in the already full basket. I smiled at Sapnap, i was so glad i had him. Me and Sapnap walked through all the sections checking if we missed anything, we didnt. I guided Sapnap towards the checkout area. It felt weird being in a store, i used to go to a little store at the end of my road, were i would buy snacks and candy every single day after school, then my mother would call me down for dinner, but i never managed to finish my dinner. My mom once inspected my room when i was at school and she found all the wrappers and packets of all the candy i was eating, she banned me from going to the store and she knew I would follow whatever Sapnap did so she would make sure Sapnap also went straight home after school. That's when the days were better, when i wasn't this weak and unhappy piece of shit. Those were the times when i actually enjoyed living. A tear rolled down my cheek.

"Karll?"
"Hellooo, earth to Karl?"
"Babe? Hello?"
I jumped, i zoned out. Gosh i looked like an idiot. I looked at Sapnap,"Its okay, I've payed. Lets go," He said. My head hurt, i wanted to go home. I gripped onto Sapnaps hand for support, my breathing was getting worse. I couldn't tell if it was the fact that i hadn't eaten for ages or if it was my anxiety. I felt Sapnap pick me up into his arms, i saw a figure in the distance carrying our shopping bags, it was a lady with blonde-ish hair and a red dress. I layed on Sapnaps shoulder and my eyes started slowly closing...

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