??? ??????? Lost Hope (AU)

⚠️self harm, blood⚠️

I hear my alarm go off, it is 7 in the morning. I get up, walk to the bathroom and closed the door behind me. I locked the door and pushed my back against it. Everything hurt, it hurt to breathe. I walk to the mirror and looked at myself, I looked normal... how i normally looked... I took my shirt off and looked at the bruises along my body, it trailed from my neck down, even from under my bra. It hurt so much i just wanted to end all of this... I turned around and glanced at the mirror to look at my back, it was worse... My back was more black and blue than anything, it wasn't from Eda, King, Hooty, Owlbert, Willow, Gus or even Amity.... It was from the fights I got in with Boscha and her group of 'friends'. But most of the bruises she did had disappeared already but the ones I had now...

They were from me....

It wasn't healthy to do but it felt right... My mom wasn't hear and I felt like it needed to happen when Eda wouldn't punish me the way that Mom would... I needed to... It had to be done... Last night Eda turned into the Owl beast after we got back from The Titan's Knee. When I used the light glyph to try to turn her back it didn't work... King had to throw several bottles of Elixir in Eda's mouth just to calm her down and turn back to the witch we know. But with that, I did nothing to help...

I look at my arm which had bandages covering it, Eda had clawed my arm really bad and my arm was bleeding. Thankfully it was my left hand, my right hand was Dominant so it all played out fine. I raised my right hand and punched my stomach, I grunt in pain as I coughed. I had to do this... I deserved this.... I punched myself again in the gut as it hurt more, I punched myself 3 more times. The harder the punch the worse it felt, once I finished I grabbed myself by my throat and began choking myself. I kept choking myself till I heard a knock on the door. I swallowed deep breathes as I gathered myself together, threw my shirt on and opened the door to see who knocked. 

It was Gus...

"wait... why are you in my house??" I asked, clearly confused why the shorter boy was in the house. Did Eda let him in? I doubt that, it was probably Hooty. I rubbed my neck as it hurt like hell, no one was supposed to be seeing me today...

"Oh well... I wanted to make it up to you and unban you from the school, which I successfully did! No need to thank me! But I just wanted to ask if you wanted to come to the school and help prove some kid that he is wrong." Gus admitted at the end and I couldn't help but give a little chuckle.

"Sure, I mean I'll be able to see Amity while I'm there so it works out." I say before closing the door behind me and walking to the front door to slip my shoes on. I had fallen asleep in my regular clothes anyway so I was basically all dressed. I walked out the door with Gus, Eda wasn't home at the moment. That made me worry but I had bigger issues to worry about at the moment. We walk to Hexside, the last time I was there was like a month ago. It felt forever since i was there, Gus gave me a uniform hoodie and I put it on and he walked me in which felt like he was sneaking me in.

Odd....

We walk past several classrooms as I kept my hood up, because I wanted to. I see the Abomination Teacher being carried down the hall by an Abomination. "I'm gonna go apologize to him, I didn't get to and I feel horrible for helping Willow cheat" As soon as I say that Gus grabbed my arm and pulled me away from the Teacher.

"Y-You can do that later..." Gus said as he sounded a bit stressed. I sigh and nod, I didn't want to cause a fight right after I got unbanned. I follow Gus to a room, it had a couple other people. "So Matt! I promised that I would bring her so here she is! Luz, my good good friend"
"We aren't good friends but ok..."
"Eh... well can you inspect all of these items and say what they really are?" Gus said as I nodded and walked to the items that were sitting on the table. I take a little glance at the names and what they actually were, I couldn't help but burst out in laughter.
"O-Oh my fucking God! Are... Are you serious?!" I say is I hold back my laughter as best as I could, I pointed to the items and looked at Gus as I was about to die laughing. Gus just shrugged and waved his hand in a motion to tell me to continue. "This 'Human Skull' is a fucking rock first of all!"
"Alright Alright!!! I lied!!! Everything that I brought was a fake!!!" The witch named Matt confessed, I sighed and walked to the witch before grabbing him by the shirt. He was small, like most witches in this school.
"Listen... You may be 'sorry' about all of this, but Gus has spent more time than your pathetic brain can handle. He's lucky I decided to come, if I didn't... you could have lead these several people down the wrong path. And I know how it feels to be lead down the wrong path... IT FUCKING SUCKS!" I shout the last part as him as he flinched at the sudden aggression aimed to him. I pulled him to my height and glared at him before throwing something down, I can't help my anger but this just pissed me off. I looked down at him before someone walked it, I look over to see that it was the principal.
He grabbed me by the arm as I jump a little out of fear, he had also grabbed Matt's arm and told Gus to follow. I glared at Gus as I knew something was up. I could see Eda in the principal's office, I gasp as I tried to pull away from the principal's grasp but failed. I was then thrown into a room along with Gus and Matt, the door was locked behind us and I quickly turned around and tried to open the door. I gasped for air as I started to freak out.