Control Me (book 1)

*This chapter also contains sexual content ;D*

Coal-

I left her house early in the morning, I was pissed, more pissed than I had been in a while. I put a big crater in a tree with my fist, then leaned back on it. I could hear the sound of the forest and wind like they were talking to me, but I wasn't listening, I couldn't listen, my mind was too scattered with memories of her. Her skin pressed on mine, it felt like her small hands were still pressed all over my large body. Her fingers running through my hair. The way her hair looked scattered over the bed. Her body in the moonlight. I remembered her smile and her laugh, the way her blue eyes lit up every time she saw me. I fucking hated the fact that she was the only thing in my mind, I wanted to forget just like I had done with every other girl before her. Just forget I told myself, but the more I told myself that the more she seemed to appear in my mind. I was actually happy when she told me she loved me, it was like a weight was lifted off me, only to be replaced with another. I wanted to break everything in sight but at the same time I just wanted to lay on the ground and do nothing.

I slid down to the ground. I let my arms rest on my knees and my head hang low, I was at a loss for the first time in years I didn't know what to do with myself. There was no way I had fallen for her, but yet my heart ached like a familiar pain I had long ago felt, a pain I never wanted to feel again. A pain that I had been hiding from, protecting myself from. I sat there for a while thinking, I wanted to bury my thoughts far away. I wanted to forget. I just couldn't, she was everywhere, her scent filled the air around me. I looked down at my wrist, I had forgotten to take the band back, but there was no way I was going back there for it. Her words play in my mind like a broken record. "I never want to see you again," she looked so serious when she said it, like she really meant what she was saying. One of the biggest worries on my mind was her getting attacked again. Chances are though, she will probably get a ride to work by that bastard Jake.

I looked up at the sun that had now fully came over the horizon, it was beautiful. Even in the rising sun I thought of her face. I shook my head, what the fuck is wrong with me get over it, you've been through this a hundred times, with hundred different girls, why was this one different. I sat there on the ground for a while before picking myself off the ground and heading home. I was still mad but my head had cooled. I understand why she said what she did, I understood how she must have been feeling. More than anything I was mad at myself for putting her in that situation.

When I entered the house, Jason and Mia were on the couch cuddling, Tony and Ian were on the opposite couch playing a video game. "Dude!" Ian said pausing the game and walking over to me. "What happened to you," I nudged my head towards the kitchen, urging him to follow so I could tell him. He followed me back to the kitchen, I got myself out one of Tom's beers from the fridge and popped it open. I took a big swig then looked at Ian.

"Well I got laid finally..." I looked back down at the beer in my hand, Tom was going to kill me for taking it but I didn't give a fuck. Anything to help me forget. Man why did I have to take her, it would have been easier to forget if I would have just left when she told me she loved me. But I wanted her so bad, I wanted to know how she felt. Well now I know and I'm paying the price.

"That's awesome! So how was it with a human, how did it go give me the details!" Ian seemed excited to hear that I slept with a human, it was something we had always talked about.

"It was amazing, the best I've ever had in fact..."

Ian's smile faded looking at me. "Whats with the face then."

I shook my head, "Before it happened she told me she loved me, and because I couldn't love her back, she never wanted to see me again."

"What the fuck?"