Always Mine [unedited]

"Okay kana?"

Nag-aalalang tanong sa akin ni Corlins. Nandito pa rin kami sa harap ng building na tinatrabahuan ko.

We just sat in the bench near at us.

I smiled a little and looked at his side afterwards. Kanina pa kasi siya nag-aalala simula noong umiyak ako.

Siya rin kasi ang dahilan non.

"I calm down a bit.Don't worry."

Hindi na ako gaanong umiiyak pero nandoon pa rin 'yung bigat..I still feel heavy. Samo't saring kaisipan ang pumapasok sa utak ko not like before na my mind went blank.

"I feel sorry for everything I said earlier.."He said in a low tone."..masiyado kitang binigla."

I really didn't expect him to say that. Besides, I'm still thinking about everything he said..because I'm still confused.

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat gawin..hindi ko na alam ang iisipin dahil gulong gulo na ako ngayon. I can not think properly.

"I'm confused." I broke the silence."Hindi ko alam if you're right or not... I feel lost and I don't know what I should do."

Feeling ko sasabog na lang bigla ang utak ko sa mga pumapasok na salita rito. There's a part of me that says he's right..but there's also a part of me that says he's not because he's not in my position to feel the pain Eira brought on me.

"It's okay. You don't need to rush yourself." He put his hand on my back and caressed it. "Take your time and think carefully."

I won't need to rush things..but what if it's too late? What if I realize that I'm still in love with her but she's already married? I unconsciously put my hand on my chest when I felt a pang on my heart just the thought of her..being married with someone.

"Anyway, there's a party tomorrow."Pag-iiba niya ng topic.

I frowned."I don't have a time for that."

Naalala ko nanaman 'yung last na nalasing ako. She was the one I was with...ayaw ko ng maulit ang nangyaring 'yon.

"Even though, it's Eira's birthday party?"His upper lips went up.

Natigilan ako at gulat na napatingin sa kaniya."Tomorrow is her birthday?!"

"You forgot?"He chuckled."So, you must go with me on her birthday.Mga close friends niya lang naman ang pupunta."

I mentally slapped my forehead.Dang it! Bakit sa dinami raming pwedeng kalimutan ay iyon pa? Sobrang dami ko na kasing iniisip kaya medyo nawala siya sa isipan ko.

"My trial is also tomorrow..but I will try to come."

"Alright, then.."He stood up and patted himself."I'll just text you about the details...and please don't forget he will be there too."

Alam ko naman 'yon..siya 'yung fiance kaya impossible namang wala siya sa birthday party ng girlfriend niya. I closed my eyes and shook my head to shove the thought away.

All I have to think about now is what kind of gift should I give her? I know she can get almost anything so I wanted my gift to be unique.

Napabuntong hininga ako.Ang dami ko ng pinoproblema sa buhay, parang gusto ko na lang maging ibon-patae tae lang sa himpapawid.

I went home after that and I didn't have any trouble falling asleep because my eyes were tired from crying so I fell asleep easily.

The next morning, Corlins immediately texted me. He just texted me about the details.