Mr Player//BTS FF

Your gaze was looking ahead even though it was empty, having travelled back in time and to one of the worst moments of your life.

"Seon and I lived a few blocks away from each other's house, and sometimes our parents would leave us with my neighbour. A girl in her twenties, named Angelina, lived two floors above our apartment." You began your explanation and Jungkook just sat cross-legged on the floor in front of you, giving you all his attention.

"I had her as a big sister, and I and Seon liked her very much and even though she was older than us and went to university, we were never treated like children." You took a breath as you finished that sentence, your hands clasping each other tightly.

"So one Friday my parents had to leave suddenly and they told me not to stay alone at night and to go to her house and that afternoon I did. I took my bag along so I could do my homework there and when I got to the door of her apartment, I took the key hidden under the welcoming mat by the doorstep - which she left there for emergencies and I knew about it - and unlocked it, wanting to scare her for fun." A sad laugh left your lips, giving the amount you had come to regret not ringing that bell that day.

"When I walked into the living room, I noticed the floor full of broken glass, the glass table in front of the sofa was now in pieces, and the white carpet was decorated with red stains." You let your arms hug yourself as you lower your head, finding it difficult to continue speaking.

"And...and...W-well, I just froze there. Until her voice shouting reached my ears from the second floor where the rooms were... At that moment my legs just ran up the stairs instinctively...I am not even sure what was I thinking about...I just reacted that way." You looked up at that moment meeting Jungkook's gaze who was looking at you with a sympathetic look that hurt you and made you avert your eyes to the floor again.

"The hallway was covered in bloodstains and my eyes were on the floor as the footsteps grew quieter until his voice reached my ears." Now you curled your body, your hands covering your ears as if you could hear it again just like that day.

" He told her to stop resisting... His voice made me take two steps back then and stay in place for a while until her cries reached my ears and I came closer. I put my somewhat trembling palm on the half-open door and I pushed the door as lightly as I could and that's when I remember feeling like my breath stopped and my heartbeat rose in my ears.

Her boyfriend had her trapped under his body and she was partially naked. Her face was covered in blood as she screamed to get him off of her and he raised his hand and started hitting her again... And again and again... "Your body started to tremble and flinch uncontrollably as you uttered those words and Jungkook reached out his hands towards you in an attempt to hold you in his arms and reassure you but he stopped himself, afraid that this particular moment was not suitable for you to tolerate any touch.

So he let you be, curled up in a ball as you were, voice shaking as you got the words out with terrible difficulty as if someone was choking you.

"I stood there looking, my body wasn't moving, my voice had left me until she turned her head and faced me, her voice screaming at me to run away... But I didn't move, my legs didn't obey, just tears started to flow from my eyes as he got off of her, fixed his unbuttoned shirt and with a piercing gaze he started approaching me"

Jungkook felt his heart tighten at that moment, a wave of anger rising within him and a desire to protect you.

"He was two steps away from me when Angelina's voice reached my ears, yelling at me to flee and my feet, finally run away. I went down the stairs like lightning, but unfortunately, I did not reach the front door. A hand caught me by my hair and threw me to the floor and I could just hear the sound of my heart pounding in fear desperately. I still didn't say a word...'If you dare say anything to anyone you little brat, I will kill you. I'm going to do a lot worse to you than what you saw up there. Did I make myself clear!' He screamed in my face as his hands squeezed my shoulders so tightly. I could feel the pain but I still couldn't make a sound."

"He looked me in the eye as he put his hand over my chest and said he would make a hole there, very simple, very easy, if I dared to do anything."

"I would have been on the floor forever if it wasn't for Angelina coming and taking him off of me, luckily my legs worked immediately after that and before I knew it, I had fleed, run away and returned back to my apartment, alone, locked in my room, stuck in the closet where I held myself trembling and crying for hours on end and probably I forgot what time was all together because when I opened my eyes again it was morning and the sun was shining as if yesterday I had not seen hell."

"My parents came back at noon and I had to lie to them when they asked me if I had a good time yesterday. But it was obvious something was off with me so I pretended to be sick for a few days...I didn't want to see anyone, I was afraid to go out but I couldn't be sick forever, so after three days Seon came and took me from home and we went to school..."

"After school, I told her to walk me home, supposedly because I was feeling sick. I used to tell everything to Seon, but this time I couldn't talk. His words were still in my mind, that voice that had filled my sleep now with nightmares and silent tears."

"But you know what's funny, little one?"  You questioned him as you lifted your head and dared to take a glance over at Jungkook who was now listening with teary eyes.

"I thought things couldn't get any worse. But she killed herself the day I was at school. And this awful guy was at her funeral, supposedly sad."

"I've never hated anyone more than him and he was free because I didn't speak and she died because I didn't speak. And the words he said to me at the funeral when he shook my hand still haunt me."

" 'Now you are my partner. ' He dared utter 'Together we killed her. You by your silence and I by my deeds. We are the same.'...that smile he gave me before he walked away...leaving me with that sentence that has ruined my life. 

"I swear, I just wanted to take a knife and cut my arm off at that moment. My shoulders, and every bit of skin he had ever touched. I hate it...I didn't want her to die...I'm sorry. I'm sorry!" Now your eyes were fixed on your right hand which you started to scratch with your fingernails, giving away your desperation. 

But Jungkook's hand stopped you before you were to make yourself bloody and just gently held both of your hands in his making you face him.

He looked at you with teary eyes as he gently stroked his thumbs over your palms, making you somewhat quiet with the circular motion.

"Do you detest my touch?" He questioned you after a few minutes and you shook your head in denial.

"Why?" He added and you didn't know what to say for a moment as the question struck you as unexpected. You had never thought much about it before. Yes, his touch wasn't welcome because it was unfamiliar but you didn't detest the times he had briefly touched you. 

"I want to believe that you would never hurt me...a part of me...trusts you." You uttered the first words that got born in your head as for some reason Jungkook's relationship with you had always been light and playful enough to give you a sense of reassurance.

"You forgot to say it's because you love me," Jungkook commented making your eyes grow wide momentarily before a small smile reached your lips.

"Oh yeah right. That  too." You joked and that smile faded as quickly as it flashed when you felt Jungkook's hand gently touch your cheek.

For several minutes he did nothing else, not moving a muscle of his fingers until you gently tilt your head in acceptance of the touch. You weren't sure why you had welcomed him cupping your cheek like that but you just felt comfortable in his touch at that very instant.

He smiled through his still foggy eyes, a smile full of happiness caused by the fact that you had accepted him in a way. The way his eyes sparkled full of adoration and love as his orbs reflected your face. 

That smile of his strangely enough made your heart beat faster, this time from something that wasn't nervousness or fear.

But it was something warm that you couldn't label yet. Something you hadn't felt before in your life...Something new.

----To be continued...