Too Early to Time

My life started as a kid experiencing  a recurring dream of a death in a previous life.  The death was always sudden and caused by something striking me from behind.  I would wake up, arching my back with a pain that disappeared as soon as I awoke, and wondering how I died. 

As a consequence I always slept on my stomach in an effort to stop the dream.  At some age one of these dreams gave an explanation of how I died that made sense and I remember waking up thinking - "so that what happened".   That was the last time I had the dream.  It felt like there was some  closure and whatever was causing the dream had moved on.

At age 18 I was struck from behind by a large tree while I was talking to a friend.  I blacked out and we both, along with some others ended up in hospital.  My confusion immediately after being struck was just like my childhood dreams. 

I was somewhere in blackness and confusion wondering what had happened.  until I heard someone say a tree has fallen on them.  This brought an understanding to me of what happened and I returned from wherever I was and woke up. 

The tree just glanced my back and pushed me out of the way.  If I was slightly to the left I may have been flattened. 

One afternoon recently, while resting and thinking about nothing in particular.  That voice that answers my questions came back in my head and basically said "you always die at 18 and in this life you are living outside of your time".

Across dimensions something like the falling tree is my end. My start in this life was with recurring dream of dying at the same age in a previous life as a soldier being struck unexpectedly from behind.  I am now still alive with an empty multiverse around it as I generally do not exist at this age in other timelines.  The consequence of this is that my timeline no longer has the pages around it to hold it in place.  There is no common path or purpose to align with other dimensions or realities.  So my presence in this timeline, from 18 on-wards, has no consequence and the multiverse will eventually converge around it as if I did not exist.   This makes what I do now non eventful in the overall scheme of things and it will not impact on the future.

What kids do not realize, when they are born with a recurring dream of death that comes with them into their new life, is that this death will continue to happen again and again as their time resets.  In most timelines they are not meant to live past a certain and sudden event or a certain age.  And if they do it is by mistake or manipulation.

That mistake provides a power resulting from an absence of existence in alternate realities. Its like being in a vacuum.  Without matter, space tears you apart, in an effort to fill the space.  Without a multiverse there are no pages beside your reality to bind it in place. The timeline is torn apart to fill the multiverse in an effort to achieve convergence.