Sugar & Cream [A Jeong Jaehyun FF]

Jaehyun's POV:

"Ji-eon... I'm planning to stay with Jaehyun a little longer... you can go home... with Taeyong" Y/n said from this side of the door and only I knew how painful was it for her to say the last few words

"Huh? Why?" Taeyong asked from the other side. Y/n looked at the sleeves of her right hand where I had caught it. She turned around to look at me and I mouthed, "Don't go". She gave me a small smile before turning back around while I continued to hold onto her sleeve

"He is sleeping and I don't want to leave him alone after what he went through," She said and even though she lied about the sleeping part, I wish I was asleep when she said this because I didn't want to remember what I had just lost.
I looked down, avoiding her eyes while letting a drop of tear fall down

"I can stay with him, you can go home, Y/n," Taeyong said and I could see Y/n clench her fists as if she was holding back from saying or doing anything that could make things worse

"No... I'll stay with him" She said looking at me and I could see her fists relax

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She shifted in her position and her hug around me became stronger. We were on my bed, cuddling. We didn't talk but the silence was comforting and made her fall asleep even when she was asleep, her grip on me did not lose. 
She did not let go of me, not even once.
I faintly smiled while caressing her hair. I don't think I've smiled in the past few days. Tears welled up in my eyes because... I didn't know what to do. This house has been empty without my mother since I was in high school but at least there was a place where I could go whenever I missed her. But now? Where am I supposed to go? What am I supposed to do when I miss my mother?
Someone, please tell me what should I do when I'm feeling so hopeless.

Just then, Y/n shifted in her position again and when I looked at her, she smiled softly even though she was still asleep. Somehow, seeing her smile made me smile. 

"She's smiling... I wonder what she is dreaming about" I whispered to myself when she chuckled but she was still asleep 

"Hmm... jaehyun" she mumbled drawing my attention. Is she dreaming about me? Wait, that sounds ridiculous. I think she is sleep-talking. 

"Jaehyun... don't be sad... you have me... I won't leave you... like I did in Paris" she mumbled making me chuckle. I wiped the tears off my cheeks and stared at the ceiling. 

"Mom... why did you leave me so early? You did not see me graduate... you did not see me get a job... you did not listen to me talk about her... what am I going to do without you, Mother?"

[One week later]

Daily missed calls from Y/n and Taeyong but I never called any of them back. They visited me daily but I never opened the door for them. I thought I'll be doing good but I was far from even doing fine. I was a wreck. And I did not want anyone to see me like this, especially her. 
How am I supposed to go back to my normal life when I lost my mother? 

I barely managed to recover after my father died when I was in elementary school but then my mother was diagnosed with cancer when I just got into high school. After my mother fell ill, all of our relatives broke their contact with us thinking that we'll ask for money from them. Even when she died, none of them showed up. 

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I sat leaning against the main door as I hugged my knees. It was almost time. She'd be here any moment. A few minutes, there was the same knock on the door. Only she knocked on the door in this way and I knew it was her. She came here every day with food that aunt lee has cooked for me. She sits by the door after keeping the food even though I never open the door. She talks to me even though I never respond to her. It is as if she knows that I'm here, she knows I'm listening to her but she knows as well that I need time. 
She kept the containers of food next to the door that created a faint noise. I could feel her sit and lean against the door and hug her knees in the same way as I was sitting 

"Jaehyun... how are you doing? It's been a week since we last saw you and everyone is worried... Taeyong and his mother are very worried... especially Taeyong... he misses his best friend... and you can't just shut everyone out of your life at times when you need them the most" She said and I closed my eyes letting a few drops of tears escape

"Don't shut everyone out of your life... you need us and we need you too... you were with me when Taeyong first asked Ji-eon out and you were with me when he again asked her out... so please... at least let me be with you when you need someone by your side the most" Her voice started to break as she spoke and I could tell that she was crying 

"Jaehyun... please say something... I don't like your silence anymore" 

"I'm sorry" 

[Two days later]

"Hey, isn't that Jeong Jaehyun from the chemical engineering department?"
"He is back after almost a week... he doesn't look like he is doing good"
"Don't you know? He lost his mother last week. He has no parents now"
"What? Are you serious? No wonder his attendance got so poor"

Ignoring all the gossip about me, I kept walking through the corridors while people's attention was still on me but I could care less. I did not tell anyone that I'll be coming to the university today so I doubt if anybody knows but the way people are gossiping, I don't think there is much time before this reaches their ears.
While going toward my class, I bumped into someone

"Hey man! watch where you are going!" The person yelled 

"I'm sorry" I apologized and bowed to him. I turned around, ready to leave when I felt that person's hand on my shoulder 

"Hey, aren't you Jeong Jaehyun? From the chemical engineering department?" I looked at the unfamiliar face in front of me. I did not reply to him and attempted to walk away but his grip on my shoulder tightened

"Hey, I'm talking to you, isn't it? Aren't you the one who lost his mother and previously lost his father? You got sick luck, bro! But wait... didn't your father die after you were born? Did you bring the bad luck and killed-" before he could finish his sentence, he was already on the floor with blood flowing out of his nose because of the punch that I threw on his face

"Ha! You are dead meat now" He said, standing up and attempting to punch me but I was quicker and punched him back. I grabbed his collar and kept throwing punches in his face. There was a huge crowd surrounding us. 

"Jaehyun! Let go! Stop it!" It was Taeyong who attempted to stop me but instead, I pushed him causing him to fall. The people in the crowd looked at me in shock

"Don't... you... dare... say... anything... about... my... parents" I said with each punch I threw. He had cuts and bruises all over his face but I was too angry to stop

Just when I was about to punch him again, I felt someone hug me from behind. I stopped in my movements because I knew who it was. She tightened her grip around me and pressed her face on my back and shook her head while crying. My grip around his collar slowly loosened until I completely let go of him causing him to fall but she did not leave me. Her grip around me never loosened. 

"Jaehyun... don't do this... please... stop" 

I'm sorry, Y/n

End of POV