Until the end of the World - Minsung

Chapter 34

When he arrived at Center, he wanted to go straight to bed, he didn't have anything better to do anyway. But he crossed Chan who grabbed him by the arm.

"Don't you say Hello?"

Chan said, a funny tone lacing his voice. He always tried to cheer him up a bit by being silly, it never worked tho.

"Hello Chan"

Minho said monotonously, taking his arm off his grip and walking to his dorm

But Chan wasn't expecting it, he went after him and grabbed him by his shoulders, turning them back and pushing him in the direction of the Cafeteria

"It's noon, we're going to eat MinMin"

Chan added, smiling warmly at him.

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As they arrived at the cafeteria, Minho and Chan sat down, all of their friends looking at Minho, stranged out that their friend was eating, but glad.

Their friendship dynamic had changed a lot. They lost one of them, so it was really hard to accept it and have fun when the squirrel wasn't there. But after Minho started slumping, a few arguments started exploding.

Changbin and Chan tried to stay as neutral as possible. They were terribly affected by Jisung's leave, but they wanted to show a strong image, thinking that maybe the others would feel better.

Hyunjin and Jeongin took it really badly. They weren't the closest to Jisung, but they loved him a lot. They had to adapted to the fact that they couldn't make fun of him anymore, sometimes thinking about jokes that they aren't able to do. They often go into some sad phases, thinking about the time they had fun with their friend.

But it was the hardest for Felix and Seungmin. Felix cried for months, the loss of his best friend was heart clenching, he also was really mad at Minho at first, but forgave him as his state was degrading. On the other side, Seungmin tried to look neutral, but he wasn't doing a good job. Everyone saw how bad it was for him, and Hyunjin had to go to bed with him for months for the boy to sleep.

The friends were now eating, talking and cracking jokes, as always.

Minho was silent, he was eating slowly, picking at his food.

Seungmin was watching him closely, tired of his bullshit.

"I'm tired of this"

Seungmin said, standing up and smacking the table in front of Minho.

Minho raised his head, looking at the boy.

"You need to stop sulking god dammit. It's been a fucking year, and we are all fucking destroyed that happened, but now we all need to move on!"

Seungmin was enraged

"Mostly you! You're here acting as if your life was falling down as if it wasn't your damn fault!"

He yelled at Minho, Minho still looking at him and being silent.

"Seungmin..."

Chan said, looking at Minho's face and seeing the pain emanating from his eyes.

Hyunjin stood up, and tried to calm Seungmin down. Of course it was Minho's fault, but Minho was troubled at the time, he knows how the boy is and he knows he didn't want to harm Jisung. Also, Minho has passed the last year ruining his own life, punishing himself. He understood Seungmin's ire, but he didn't know how to stop sulking.

Minho looked at Seungmin and stood up.

"I'm sorry Seungmo"

He said, leaving the table and going out of the cafeteria.

Minho wasn't being himself anymore.

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/!\ TW

Minho arrived in his room and dropped into his bed. A headache was growing, as much as the pain in his heart.

He was tired of it, tired of all of it.

He stood up, and looked at the knife that was put on his table. He looked at it for a few minutes.

He approached it and took it in his hand, thinking.

'Maybe that's the only way out'

As he was approaching the knife to his arm, his room's door flew open, Chan entering it.

Chan stood frozen at the sight. Was he about to hurt himself?

Minho panicked and threw the knife away, trying to find an excuse.

"Oh Minho..."

Chan said, tears brimming in his eyes.

Chan didn't cry often, but the thought of his friend wanting to self harm was too much. He ran to Minho and engulfed him in a tight hug. At the impact, Minho lost it and started sobbing hard, hugging Chan back. He hadn't felt physical affection in so long, it was overwhelming.

"I fucking hate myself so much"

Minho said between cries

"It's not entirely your fault Minho"

Chan answered, caressing his back.

"But he left, and I miss him"

Minho said

"I miss him so much it hurts"

He added, his voice cracking

"I know Min, I know".

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Jisung woke up in his bed abruptly. He had a nightmare again. They had been arriving repeatdly lately.

He didn't want to admit it but he dreamed a lot about Minho. This time it was about him. Jisung felt tears flowing out of his eyes, not understanding why. He didn't cry much since he left, he was more numbing than feeling.

After leaving, he walked for days, stopping at the first abandoned house he found. It looked resistant, wasn't that bad, and was located nicely.

His everyday routine was killing zombies, walking, discovering things, making traps, seeking food, crafting things... Everyday was the same.

He stood up, searching for some clothes to put on, his mind bringing him back to the ones he left.

He did miss them, especially Felix and Seungmin. He did feel bad for not being able to be with them anymore.

He did miss Minho too. He understood the boy's anger, he thought it was normal for him to be mad, but he's also mad at him, he bears a grudge against him. His heart is broken and he has to accuse someone