and then it's dark again, just like a spark - fireafy

I try so hard every night to not stay up. But I always break my promise to myself, making my usual weekly bedtime about 2:50 am.

Rolling over and staring at the ceiling I think about everything that's happened to me today. It's different from my daily routine, that's for sure.

I just still cannot believe that me and Firey just suddenly started talking to each other. And in full-length conversations too.

Does that mean he misses me? Like, was he genuinely happy that I had reached out to him?

Or was he faking the fact he was supposedly so happy to be talking with me again?

But you really can't fake long conversations for 4 hours and still sound enthusiastic once it's over.

I bury my face in my hands and just stay like that for a bit.

I shouldn't be this stressed out over a conversation I had with a boy today. Let alone Firey. He, out of everyone is the last person I should be overthinking a conversation I had with a while ago.

But despite everything. I am way overthinking this. I am worrying myself over something so minor.

Rolling over and checking my phone I know now that the time is 1:53 in the morning. Seeing that makes me feel sad. But, I guess that shouldn't really come as a surprise.

I open my phone and text Pin, who I guess I could consider one of my best friends.

"Hey, are you awake??? I send the text and place my phone on my nightstand. I doubt she'll respond but you never know.

Just looking at my room in the dark quietness is enough to put myself to sleep. And it does.

I was out like a light within the next two minutes, or at least that's what it felt like.

But hey, at least I'm going to bed earlier than usual. 

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