Shield Me From My Demons (Book 1 in the Shield Me Series)

*Jon's POV*

I flew out the door and ran down the hall. I punched the elevator button; I had to get out of there. I know Seth hates me now and the bad thing is I made him hate me. I was just supposed to tell him that I was having dreams about him; I wasn't supposed to kiss him.

I got into the elevator. When it got to the first floor, I ran out of the hotel and out into the crowded New York streets.

I knew I was still gonna have to face Seth, but right now I was just trying not to puke. When I kissed Seth it felt so right, but the look on his face crushed my heart and made my stomach twist. There was an alley near by and so I walked there and sat down. I felt anger boil inside me and punched the brick wall. I cussed and sat there pissed at myself. This was all my fault; I knew Seth wasn't fucking gay and I still kissed him.

My phone vibrated; Seth was trying to call me. I just let it ring as I tried to think about what I would tell him when I saw him. My phone rang again; dammit Seth wasn't letting this go. I sighed and answered the phone.

"Dean, it's me. Don't hang up; I need to talk to you." Seth pleaded. "Where are you? We need to talk and it would be better if I told you face to face."

I felt a pang in my stomach; I knew he was gonna tell me he hated me and he didn't want me around. I finally spoke and said, "Seth, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have kissed you. I know you hate me, and that's why I'm gonna tell Vince that I am quitting The Shield and I'm gonna wrestle in singles competition." Seth tried to speak, but I hung up before he could get his first word out.