The Hobbit x Reader Inserts

a/n: this was a request by an anon on Tumblr, who asked for an angsty story about Thranduil and a reader dealing with cancer. this could also be interpreted as a chronic illness, I found it very relatable and drew from my own experiences with medical trauma/exhaustion, as well as long-term diagnoses.

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warnings: mentions of cancer (the reader has cancer), mentions of cancer treatments and symptoms (including needles), medical exhaustion, nonsexual nudity and nonsexual bathing, open discussions of symptoms, fear of death

word count: 6.1k

music: As Long As We Both Shall Live by Bear McCreary

elvish translations: melamin = my love, melda = my dear/beloved

"I think we will conclude here for today, my lady."

The head healer's voice drew your wayward attention back to his prim features. His thin lips spread into a smile as he gently unstrapped the tight leather band above your inner elbow, releasing the tension from your skin. The long syringe with its glass barrel was gently pulled from the blue vein that the pressure had highlighted. You rubbed your arm subconsciously as he set aside the supplies for cleaning, hoping the motion would rid your flesh of the awful sensation of being probed.

You blinked away your muddled thoughts. Briefly, you worried that perhaps he had been talking to you long before you'd heard his assessment to end the treatments for the evening. If you had, you were grateful to find no resentment in his gaze for your absentminded silence.

He softly closed his collection of books that had been displayed around a table on the wall adjacent to your cushioned cot in the infirmary. With a bottle of herbal salve, he applied a generous portion to the inner curve of your elbow, satiating any irritation from his needles. The cool gel of the aloe soothed the itchy redness, while the lavender masked the sterile scent of the medications and intensely bitter herbs.

You glanced up from the healer's gentle efforts, trying on your best smile. "Thank you for your diligence today, Sudryl. It is very much appreciated."

He bowed his head as he clasped your hand between his palms, "It is always a pleasure to tend to you, my queen. We will resume tomorrow morning if it suits your schedule?"

"My schedule is always free for your remedies. Thranduil has made sure to take over many of my duties so we may focus on my treatment."

Sudryl smiled once more as he helped you stand from the cot, draping your silken robe over your bare arms as he did so. "The king is very wise, your majesty. I know you detest this period of healing you're undergoing, but you mustn't mistake rest for idleness. Your people desire greatly for your full recovery, myself included. In order to achieve that, your rest is crucial."

You didn't know what to say. Rest was crucial, you knew that. As were the innumerable treatments and remedies being applied and adjusted every day.

But didn't anyone understand that you were tired of all of this? Exhausted by more than just the cancer and its seemingly endless repercussions that it presented almost daily. Worn down by more than just needles and salves and bitter syrups that lingered in your throat.

You missed feeling well-rested when you woke up in the mornings after a long sleep—you missed having the energy to spend your days fulfilling your duties as a queen, as a servant to her people. You missed the days in which every activity was not dictated or measured by searing pain or groggy fatigue. You were tired of wrestling with your body just to exist comfortably.