What is it paradise without Newt

I was in a box , the same box that was in the centre of the Glade. The doors start to open and I heard voices.
"Look at that shank."
"How old is he?"
"Looks like a klunk in a T-shirt."
"You're the klunk , shuck-face."
"Dude, it smells like feet down there!"
"Hope you enjoyed the one-way trip, Greenie."
"Ain't no ticket back, bro."
This was the time i was brought up to the Glade , the first time I saw Alby,Chuck...and Newt . I will never forget this day when I met all of my new friends .
It looked like I was spinning until suddenly the spinning stopped and Newt was stood in front of me just long enough for me to smile before the spinning started again . When the spinning stopped I was with Newt again my mind was taking me through all the times I spent with Newt until suddenly my smile was wiped off my face and replaced with the look of horror.
The memory of Newt screaming at me to kill him was glued on my eyes and then it was Five ... Four ... Three ... Two ... One . I closed my eyes as tight as i could but I could still hear the bullet connecting with the flesh and bone . Then I felt Newts body jerk and fall to the side .

I woke up screaming myself awake dripping in sweat head to toe and crying more than ever,fighting to catch my breath .
It was almost one o'clock in the morning and I needed sleep but every time I closed my eyes I felt his body jerk so I went for a walk. To the memorial.
I ran as fast as I could run even faster than I did in the Maze just to get to the place where I hear Newts laughter but I stopped dead in my tracks . I saw him standing, reading the words I engraved in the dirt . It can't be him he's dead , NEWT'S DEAD !!!! . He turned around slowly and I was sure .
"Newt ?"
"Hello Tommy"