Inside - Tom Kaulitz

Tom

I awoke with puffy eyes in my twin's bedroom.

Bill paced around the room, holding his phone and biting his nails.

"What's the matter?" I asked, knowing he had seen the mass email sent out last night.

"There's two." He apprehensively spoke.

"What?" I was confused. I sat up and got out of bed, shuffling over to Bill.

He passed the phone towards me as I read.

"Nicky Monroe a slut for Tom Kaulitz!"

My stomach dropped at the statement.

I continued reading, hoping nothing bad was going to be said.

"Nicky Monroe spread her legs that easily for the boy! I mean come on, have some decency. A little fairy has said she vomited on his dick and that she called him daddy! Can you believe it? But of course, we all know Tom would like that the sick bastard. Not to mention his drug problem?..."

I couldn't read anymore. My mind couldn't comprehend what I was reading.

I rushed over to the bedside table where I had left my cell. I needed to talk to Nicky.

Turning it on, I was left with sickening notifications.

Nicky - "A fucking joke." 09:25
"You'd seriously tell people?" 09:15
"I thought it was going to be private?" 09:12

"No, no, no. This can't be happening Bill. Fuck sake!" I shouted, slamming his door open and running out of the house.

I was going to let this happen to the both of us, not after everything.

Not after she trusted me.

Not after she trusted me with her body.

****

I sprinted round the street and to her home, there were no car on the driveway which was a relief.

I smacked the door, shouting her name.

And there she stood, behind the glass pane. She stood, staring at me, her arms by her side. Her chest rose up and down slowly. Her face, emotionless.

She shuffled towards the door and twisted the knob, opening the door.

Her cheeks flushed and red, her eyes swollen and puffy. Her hair was disheveled.

"Nicky listen to me, I don't know who sent that. I didn't send that email! I haven't told anyone about what happened between us." I explained.

She began to tut, shaking her head. "You can't even say it Tom. We had sex! You took my virginity and then some email gets sent round."

I crossed my arms, fiddling with my lip ring. She was pissing me off.

"Don't be a bitch. The only person I told was Bill okay?" I said.

"Well it can't be your brother can it? I read the email about him too, and I feel awful. Did you write about him so it didn't look obvious it was you?" She questioned.

That was it!

"Do not fucking blame me. Why would I want to write about some sex I had."

Horror wiped across her face.

"Some sex? Did you not enjoy that? Was it some ploy you had to take my virginity and then what, post about it?" Her voice was becoming louder.

"Fuck off. Talk to me when you can stop acting childish." I sternly yelled.

"Me fuck off? You came round to my house you dumb bastard." She screamed, slamming the door in my face and running into another room.

My fists bawled as I walked off, so fucking annoyed.

****

Bill

"Why did you do it?" I shouted down the phone.

She began to laugh down the phone, finding this whole situation so hilarious.

"Sweetie. You're just so cute. However, I don't like either of them. And, you were just so easy to blackmail. You fell into my trap so easily. See, I was going to do it anyways, I just needed your help first."

I sat on the edge of my bed, my forehead hung.

"I don't see why you find this so amusing. You've made our lives hell now. How do you expect us three to go back to school after what you wrote?" I asked.

"Well it's all true, isn't it? I mean... you told me." She said.

"No! I told you they may have sex. And, I don't know how you found out about Tom."

"See! Both are completely true. You can't get mad at me. Well, this was a fun chat but I've got to go. Bye darling Bill." She trailed off, ending the phone.

Tears streamed down my cheeks, my last bit of sanity going with them.

I couldn't believe what I had done.

The photo, the addiction, the sex and the lies.

Was it all my fault?

****

Nicky

I stared down at the bright screen of my cell as I reread the email multiple times.

"Rammed out slut."
"Flicky Nicky."
"Slag"

I looked at the words on the screen. All the words I had been called.

A banner of notifications popped up from the Kaulitz twins.

Bill-
"I'm so sorry Nicky." 09:53
"I love you." 09:54
"We are in this together." 09:55
"Why won't you talk to Tom?" 10:11
"It's not his fault!!" 10:12

Tom-
"I don't get ur problem."10:04
"FFS just talk to me." 10:05
"It wasn't me." 10:11
"I'm sorry." 10:11
"Nicky I still love you please." 10:12

I rolled my eyes at the texts, not giving a shit how Tom felt. I wasn't willing to answer him.

Why would he do something like this?