My evil alpha husband

#Phayu pov

It's been almost two hours since Rain went inside. And I couldn't do anything but feel helpless. I just wish that him and the babies are fine and healthy.

I turned to look at Pai when he placed his  arm over my shoulder. Not a word. Not even a glance. I know he is still angry at me. I hurt his Raindrop afterall. But still I am thankful for him. That though he is angry, he is trying his best to comfort me.

Paa went home to check on the kids. Mae is still angry and Sky is trying to calm her down.

After what felt like an eternity, the door opened and doctor came out.

"Are you Sky? " He asked me.

Sky got up and came near me and told the doctor he is.

"He wants you and his mom inside. Don't worry. As you already know, it's a boy and a girl. Mama and the kids are safe and healthy. We will shift him to the normal ward in few hours and you can meet them.

But for now, he is asking your presence. As a doctor, I think I don't need to tell you mam. He is still not emotionally stable yet. He is going through postnatal depression. So, be careful. "

With that the doctor left. Maa and Sky just gave me a glance and went inside the room.

He doesn't want to see me.....!

And what the hell is this postnatal depression? I opened my phone and googled it. I understood what it is but not totally.

Even Pai went inside after a while. I can't bear this anymore. I want to see my kids. I want to see him. And with each passing minute, I became impatient. So, I just opened the door a little to see what they were doing.

Maa and Sky were standing beside Rain each holding a baby and Pai is sitting beside Rain gently caressing his hair. Rain is just holding Pai's arm so tight, silent tears, eyes fixed on the babies.

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#Rain pov

Finally done!!! I am tired. I can't wait to meet my sunshines. I tried to stay awake even though all I wanted to do now is sleep.

I saw two nurses bringing them. The moment I saw, my stomach churned. She is covered in all blood, body full of wrinkles and smells weird too.

" The babies still needs to be cleaned sir. We will bring them to you once we give them a bath. Rest until then. You must be tired. We will shift you to the normal ward after an hour. "

No. No don't bring them. I don't want to see them. Not like this. Please.... Maa.....

' Can you please call my maa and Sky inside. Please..... I need them.... '

The moment they entered inside, I began to cry. I feel disgusted. Thinking like this about my own children. Whom I promised I would protect and cherish them. I am ashamed of myself.

'Maa... I am scared. I feel like I may not be a good mother. I thought I would be. I thought I could. But the moment I saw them covered in blood and all..... I am ashamed of my own thoughts that time maa. I hated them. I feel like I am not worthy again. '

Maa just came and took my hand in hers and her other hand is gently caressing my hair.

" Rain. Listen to me very carefully. Okay?

In that moment, it’s all worth it.

You never knew you could love anything this much.

All such expressions are bullshit Raindrop. It is not always love at first sight with your babies. It is not a transcendent moment of pure love that everyone always feels.