My evil alpha husband

Your place in my life

Not everyone feels the satisfaction and happiness after the delivery. There will be lot of emotional fluctuations due to the sudden change in hormones and everything.

It is not your fault Raindrop. It is common. Most people feel that way. When you see them again after a few hours, after they are cleaned, after you hold them in your arms, Only then will you feel the satisfaction and happiness.

Even if not, then it is fine too. It is a long process raindrop. Each step more difficult than the rest. But we will get through it. Together. Okay? "

I just nodded. Hugged her even closer.

' I don't want to hate them. I don't want to hurt them. They are my sunshines. I love them so much. I am just scared. Of everything. Of the responsibilities. Of the loneliness. I feel helpless. I don't even know what I need maa.

But I promise you. I will get through this. I know you will always be there for me and that is enough. Thank you maa. '

I kissed her and Sky who is now sitting beside me. I asked them to call p'Pai inside too. Just then, the nurse came and handed the babies to them. p'Pai just gave a look at them and sat beside me catching my tears and small pats on my head silently assuring me with a small yet bright smile.

*
After an hour. In the normal ward.

"He is waiting out. Do you want me to call him inside? " Maa asked as I just finished feeding one of them. It is painful but doable.

'When did he come maa?'

"10 minutes after you were taken for delivery. He is still here waiting to meet you and the babies. "

'I am scared maa. I don't want to face him yet. '

"But raindrop... He is also waiting to see the kids naa. His kids...

You can't make him wait that long.. " p'Pai answered.

Sky and maa looked at me questioning with their eyes.

'Okay. I will be fine maa and Sky. Don't worry. I am okay now. You guys have some dinner, rest and come back. I will be okay. '

The moment they left, I started panicking.

Will I be punished for making him wait?

Will he force me since I am no longer pregnant?

No Rain. It's okay. Calm down. It will be okay. Don't panic.

'Ahh!! Mmm' Shit! I forgot that I am feeding. The nurse burped the other baby and put him to sleep.

The door opened and Sir entered slowly. His scent hit me immediately. He is not angry !!

He went to the crib. He touched his face softly, caressing. I saw something in his eyes that I never saw. Love. Tenderness. Care. And a small smile on his face.

'It's our baby boy sir. He was just fed and put to sleep. This one here is our baby girl. '

With that he turned and came towards me.

He hesitatingly touched me cheek. Caressing it slowly with his thumb.

"Are you okay now Rain? I saw you crying before from the door."

I was shocked. But recovered quickly.

'Yes sir. I am fine now. It's just because of the pain. And I am sorry for making you wait this long to meet the babies sir. I was just scared and needed time.

You can punish me however you wish to sir, after we go home.

I promised you didn't I sir? That you can punish and use me however you want after the babies are born. That I will stay still and be obedient like you want then.

I am sorry for all the trouble and the way I spoke to you. You are free to punish me now sir.'

Sir was about to say something when the door opened and the nurse came. She took my baby girl from me, who slept with her mouth still latching onto my nipple. She burped her for a few minutes and placed her in the crib next to him and left.

"I just want to apologise to you Rain. I never meant to break your promise. I put my phone on silent on habit and... I kindof forgot that you will be mostly going to labour today. I came back as soon as I can after I heard the news.

Maa said you even waited for me for so long.

I am sorry Rain. Please forgive me. I will never ever break the promise again. Please give me a chance to correct this Rain. Please forgive me. Please don't leave me. I am sorry. Truly sorry. " With that he slowly held my hand.

I looked at him. Tears leaving from his beautiful eyes. I could never bear to see him cry. Even if he is a monster, he is still my husband, whom I still love foolishly.

I held his face, clearing those tears.

But I need to make this clear. I can't bear this on and off game anymore.

'Why are you sorry sir? It is not your fault.  That was a stupid promise I asked during Sky's delivery. Just because p'Pai is there, doesn't mean you should.

I understand that now sir. They are wife and husband. He is Sky's phi. I am in the wrong for asking. I forgot that you are not my phi. You are just my sir. And I don't deserve it. '

" Is that it? You want to call me phi? I am fine with it Rain. If that is what you want, if that is what it takes for you to forgive me, then I agree. "

'I know you will never ever be my phi sir. I used to hope that someday you will be. But I lost that hope long ago.

And I don't need your charity sir. It is not just a honorific. It means taking responsibility. Having trust. Having and earning respect. It is a bond you create.

Just because I start calling you phi, doesn't change anything sir. Unless you change. Not this on and off. Not begging for forgiveness when you feel like it and kill me the next moment.

It is not change sir. It is just manipualtion. To me and to yourself too.

You are my sir. That's your only place in my life.

I will acknowledge you as my babies father. But never nothing more than that.

I have people to protect now sir. As long as you don't break this promise that you will never hurt my children, I will be your good boy.

And finally.

I forgive you sir. I always do.

That is just because I am your obedient slave. Your toy.

Not because you deserve it sir. '