Sublime Dignity

Your POV

I can feel the nerves creeping my skin as I sit across the scrutinizing figure of the governor and the worried chairman. I am familiar with them both. One prefers a man, specifically Namjoon, to represent the country. While the other is fond of my presence.

I eased myself by playing with the square scarf tied to keep my hair up and tidy.  I asked tzuyu to tie it harder today because I'll need to be more composed and patient. Having this silk square tied on my head feels like I am more restrained. This will keep me sane in the meantime.

"As I was saying, Dr. Zapanta, will attend the meeting with the Olympiad for the defense of Y/N" my attorney is explaining to them that our team will take the defense of psychology. That I am naturally born with this condition and I must not face punishment.

"I don't see any benefit of fighting for this. It's as if your defense is 'reason for insanity' is it not?" My eyes landed on the smirking governor. Oh how much I despise this man. Uncle tapped my shaking knees under the table as if warning me.

Please, I am respectful... and cunningly smart. "No it isn't. Hyperthymesia is a syndrome not a disorder and educated people will know the difference between the two. Won't you agree, governor?" His eyes twitched looking at me before our attention was gathered by the chairman.

"We know that Y/N.  I get the logic that there are no cheating involved if you only used your mind. But... The Union does not want to support you for... reasons" Reasons? "What reasons?" He shook his head telling me he can't. "I am a candidate for exclusion on all the international and local competitions. I deserve to know why I will be banned."

My attorney talked to them more until the governor spoke. "Because you're a victim of mass shooting. Mass shooting is only spread in the USA and South Korea does not want the people to have any more ideas on what that might be. I personally don't think you are a good model for the peace and love of our country." W-what? That's absurd. I looked at the chairman.

"Y/N we-" "Is it true? They are using my trauma against me. Chairman..." The chairman blinked a couple times before nodding his head. "I've grown fond of you Y/N and I think you've been such a great asset to South Korea. But the decision will be voted by the union. I vouched for you multiple times but the majority does not."

My eyes sting. Ah, I don't want to shed even a single tear in front of this hideous governor. "Y/N, I'll settle this. You can go now child." My uncle said ushering me to stand up and so I did. I don't know if I can stay here anymore.

"Governor, I don't know if you are aware but my father is the L/N whom is a stockholder of your company. And outside of his pocket, I... am the VIP of 4 your charities. I will stop all donations and projects in progress. And be assured this conversation will reach my father."

I took my leave even with the multiple calls that the governor attempted to talk me out of my actions. I won't... If this is how they are playing, I will retract all my ongoing donations to all government funded charities.

I leaned onto the wall, crying silently on the parking lot. "Stupid syndrome. Stupid shooting. Stupid. Stupid. Arghhh! This is absurd!" why is the world so against me? I just wanted to heal and help people. I hit my head multiple times on the wall until I feel myself getting dizzy. It's because of his condition. People would've been more sympathetic of me if only I don't have this.

After calming down and drying my tearstained cheeks, I fished my phone to call Chaeyoung. A few more rings until I heard Mina's voice. "Moshi mosh.. W-why are you crying Y/Nnie?" I whisk the tears away before sitting on the curve of the parking lot. "Are you two done with classes? Can you please take me to chewy? I... I" I need her "I'll send you my location"
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